#midwife confidently told me it from the flu shot I got 2.5 weeks ago even though it just appeared overnight

[whentherewerebicycles]

WELL. I half used this day well and half didn’t, and also now I’m tired from weeping all day for various reasons. would loveee to live in someone else’s brain for like a week just a little vacation yknow. here is what the week holds:

my boss was literally just like hey do you want to present at this campus-wide committee tomorrow at 9am on a project that isn’t finished yet? can you finish it enough to present on it tomorrow? so I will be prepping that tonight hooray 🫠

tomorrow I have back-to-back meetings, site visits, and a volunteer shift with one of our community partners from 9am-7pm 🫠🫠🫠I have the tiniest window from 1-2 where god willing I can finish the last few slides, write the post-workshop assignment, and make the handout for them to use. oh and on the way home I want to buy some cheap snacks I can bring to the workshop.

on wednesday I have all day meetings (one of which I have to prep slides for reporting our progress towards assessment goals) from 9am leading up to the workshop 3:30-5:30. then I have to come home and prep for my interview at the tutoring company. god I wonder if I can push this back I feel so swamped this week

thurs 8am interview… then rush to work for meetings… then I MUST make time to practice before rehearsal I am so woefully behind… then rehearsal 7-9:30 🫠 but at least I can maybe watch the hockey game??

friday co-facilitate another 2-hour workshop in the morning then work furiously to finish pre-med presentation slides so I can send by 1ish… then do the premed panel event 4-6pm

I mean I guess the silver lining is I will not have a single minute to spare for being anxious as I am purely in survival mode this week! here’s what I can do to make future jes feel less stressed out:

I can do the bare minimum for tomorrow’s morning meeting. she asked me to do this after work hours and I know it’s only because she didn’t have time to put together the thing she promised at the last meeting (so wants me to cover). I will send the spreadsheets I created tonight and then give a brief overview of our grants timeline for the spring. done.

I can do a final burst of work and make the handout tonight (keep it super simple!)

if I need to, I can reach out to the tutoring place tomorrow and reschedule my interview. this would kinda suck as it would push back possible start date two weeks but it might give me the chance to prep more thoroughly. or do I just do it this week to force myself to avoid over-prepping sigh. I will decide by tomorrow at 1pm

oof writing the assignment is definitely going to be the thing I forget. I will try to prioritize that tomorrow in that little sliver of time I have available to work

#I also have this huge swollen lymph node on the side of my neck like WHAT is going on there #midwife confidently told me it from the flu shot I got 2.5 weeks ago even though it just appeared overnight #it hurts :(((