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LONGEST DAY EVER IS DONE!!!!!!! longest week ever starts monday lol but a little time to breathe

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ok well honestly from now until my leave start it should be reasonably smooth sailing?? my last big lifts are facilitating this big daylong event (this will require a lot of energy but most of the planning work is done or almost done!) + getting this summer research program fully set up and ready to launch before I leave. I also have to navigate two more meetings with [redacted] but one will be in a group setting so she won’t be too mean to me lol she likes to save that for our 1:1s. I can do this!!!! I can make it!!!!

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lol well that might have been the best workshop I’ve ever led. it was well attended and everyone was SUPER engaged and excited about the strategies and we had such a spirited discussion about how to apply them in different mentoring contexts. and several people came up to me after to ask if I’d run workshops on some other topics that came up in the discussion + come lead some of the exercises I talked about for their research programs. wow that felt SO good!!!!!!!!!! I was dreading it so much bc I was like I’m sure most of this stuff I’m saying is so basic / obvious?? but I think maybe we overestimate how much other people know about our areas of expertise… and I do think this is an area where I’ve cultivated some expertise (through many years of thought and practice and research!!). anyway work has been a little tough with the redacted dynamic but I think I just need to keep looking for these opportunities to get external feedback reminding me that I am actually very competent at my job!!!

#small victories

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how can one person be so tired lol

I don't really want to do this workshop but it will be fine. if it's bad who cares. people lead bad workshops every day and everyone survives it

pip is my favorite creature in the universe. i don't think he can ~sense~ that i'm pregnant or whatever but he is definitely clingier than usual and follows me from room to room and demands to sit in my lap or next to me touching me at all times. how can you love a little dog so much!!!!! i love my little dog so much!!!!!!

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ok… friday…

7:45-8:45 shower/get ready, practice slides

9-9:30 drive to work

9:30-10:15 practice slides + do small tasks

10:30-12 lead workshop

12-1 drive to hospital & grab lunch maybe

1:15-3 occupational therapy

3-4 drive home to let dogs out? then drive back to work?

4-8 work opening ceremony

8-8:30 drive home

sleeeeeep

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I Can Do It With A Broken Heart full performance at Eras Tour in Paris (night 1) (May 9, 2024) (x)

#oh this one is FUN live isn’t it

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I want my mom 😭

#return of the intense pregnancy vulnerability feelings #I’m like TOO pregnant I can’t move properly anymore and everything hurts #and I’m going on nine weeks of hand pain and a month of no sleep #it’s too hard doing everything for myself #I still have to walk the dogs and feed myself and practice this talk #and do laundry probably 😭 #so I can wear one of the three things that still fit me tomorrow #tomorrow I work from 9am to 8pm #okay. I can do this #I will put laundry in right now #and walk the dogs on the 20 min loop #then I will make the easy breakfast tacos again #and practice the talk over dinner #and by then it’ll be like 7:30 or 8 #and I can go to bed #I think I feel demoralized by the news that I won’t actually be able to schedule my induction #it feels like this is heading towards ‘you will continue to be in physical pain hell for the indefinite future’ #I’m not brave and strong I’m very weak and my hands hurt so much

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ugh doctor just called to say they actually can’t guarantee 5/29 they’ll just put me on their list for induction that week and call me in when they have availability. I JUST NEED AN END DATE I NEED TO KNOW THIS PAIN IS NOT FOREVER

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i think... dare i say it???... i am done prepping this talk

#i still need to practice and time it #and i might push myself to add one more strategy to balance out the two halves #and the framing at the beginning is a TINY bit messy but i think speaking through it aloud will help me figure out how to fix it #but like. i am ready to give this talk tomorrow #the big problem is: it is not as interactive as i really wanted it to be #but there are discussion/partner activities at the beginning - in the middle - and at the end #so i am hoping that breaks up the stretches where i'm just talking #AAAAA okay #i still can't quite believe it's done given how determinedly i've procrastinated on it for months #shouldn't i be frantically working on it at midnight tonight?? #but here we are

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wow i thought i was going to have zero participants for this alumni panel we have been advertising all over campus but various faculty + staff have COME THROUGH for me and we now have FIVE very good panelists!!!!!! now i can stop having nightmares about 40 people showing up to discover we have no one speaking

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living in the PNW is so cute... it's 64 degrees today with a light breeze and no humidity and everyone is anxiously warning each other about heatstroke risk

#i'm like you are all so sweet. you would not survive five minutes of texas summer #or texas spring for that matter

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ha ha ha I am in so much pain

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Why did you learn Finnish?

To communicate with my parents and extended family. At age 1 I started to feel a bit hungry and decided I should start speaking so that my parents would feed me.

Hope this helps!

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Franny Choi, from “Catastrophe is Next to Godliness”

#me having a baby in three weeks 🫡

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slept ok last night! hands hurt a lot but I didn’t wake up as often and could get back to sleep in spite of the pain. it’s weird how sometimes a decent night of sleep makes me groggier in the morning than a bad night… my body is like oh my god it’s working it’s working KEEP SLEEPING!!!!! WE NEED THIS!!!!!!!!!!!! but alas I must get up and go to work. 12 more work days… I can do it.