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Battered Love

Summary: Falling in love with Cordelia was easy, but will your brain allow her to love you back.

Warnings: Shitty parents? Idk if that’s a warning but just in case.

Word Count: 2.5K

A/N: So this may or may not be about my life with actual examples. So um this is my heart poured out into writing, and I’m terrified to post this.

You had been living at the academy for almost a year now. The second you walked in you were completely enthralled with the Supreme’s beauty.

Wanting to know everything about being a witch, you started spending time with her. It started as small lessons in her classroom to spending long hours in the greenhouse. At first the relationship was purely platonic, with a lingering glance here and there, but after a couple months, it started to turn into something more. You two making each other’s preferred morning drinks when you got in the kitchen before the other, lingering touches, and using your greenhouse time to destress and get to know each other better as opposed to practicing spells.

One night in particular had you really feeling a certain way for your favorite witch.

Cordelia was sitting on the bench, and you were lounging on your pillow pile on the floor. You two had been talking about nothing really when Cordelia opened up about her past.

“You know I have an ex-husband, right?” Looking over at Cordelia you see her staring mindlessly at the ceiling, and you were shocked.

“I didn’t know that. May I ask what happened? Only if you want to talk about it of course.”

“You’re fine sweetheart. He was a witch hunter, which was bad enough, but he also cheated on me,”

After a deep exhale she continued, “I felt worse than I could put into words. I hated myself for loving someone who hated who I am. I hated myself for loving someone who put the girls into danger. I hated myself for loving someone who didn’t value me,”

Wishing you could wrap her in your arms, you just listened to what she had to say.

“What made the pain even worse is that my mom was so awful to me. I mean she was always awful to me but this…made it so much worse.”

After hearing her say that, you got up and took her into your arms. You pulled her down into your pillows, and you two fell asleep on the greenhouse floor tangled in each other’s arms that night.

After that night you knew you were truly in love with her, but you were too scared for her to love you back. Hearing your entire life how much your mom hates your dad, and how you are just like him, hearing how much your mom hates you, hearing your mom constantly talk about how if she could leave you two she would, eventually took a toll on your idea of love. No matter how respectful you were, how much of the perfect straight A student you were, no matter how many awards you got, you just weren’t good enough for her. You knew no matter what you did you would never be good enough for anyone to love. You were so afraid that if you let Cordelia in, and let her love you, she would eventually start to hate you just like everyone else. The only thing that gave you a little hope was that Cordelia knows what it’s like to be hated by her mom, no matter how perfect you try to be.

It was Saturday evening, and the girls were all in the living room having an extremely competitive game of drunk Uno. Skipping tonight because of an assignment you had to get finished, you were sitting in your room when you heard a soft knock on the door.

“Come in,” turning off your music and moving your laptop you looked up to see Cordelia walking in.

“Hi honey, can I sit?” with a sweet smile, she motioned to the spot next to you.

“Of course.” scooting over, you gave her room to sit with you.

“You know the girls are asking for you to come down.” She looked at you with a pout.

“I want to, but I have too much work,” with a frown you motioned to your laptop.

Humming Cordelia just laid her head on your shoulder.

Feeling electricity shoot through your body you murmur, “How come you aren’t downstairs?”

“Why would I be downstairs when my favorite girl is up here alone?” She wrapped her arm around your front snuggling into your shoulder.

When you tensed up, she immediately knew something was wrong.

“Are you ok honey?”

“Yeah, yeah I’m fine.” Scooting over, tears formed in your eyes and you did everything in your power to not let Delia see.

With a look of pure hurt in her eyes Cordelia said, “Y/n did I do something wrong? You can always tell me if I’m overstepping.”

“No! No, no. It’s not that, it’s just me being complicated.” Quickly you grabbed her hand and ran your thumb across it to get the pained look off her beautiful face.

“You know you can talk to me about anything.” With big does eyes Cordelia looked at you and made you want to melt into a big gay puddle.

Quickly trying to decide to open up to her or not is one of the hardest decisions you’ve had to make. You could tell her everything now and have the possibility of being able to love her, and kiss her, and cuddle together, but at the same time what if she hates you and wants nothing to do with you once you two start dating.

Letting your negative thoughts get the best of you, you decide it’s better to live in this eternal torture of not expressing your love than it is to have the love of your life hate you.

“It’s really nothing Cordelia, I’m just stressed and tired from school.”

Cordelia being the ever observant one caught onto you saying her full name. Thinking that she had done something wrong she left your room with a mumbled “goodnight” and went to bed.

Watching Cordelia walk out of your room like a sad puppy broke your heart. You knew you had screwed up. Big time. Regretting every choice you’ve made in your entire life, you disregarded your assignment, laid down, and cried.

Waking up to a sun filled room on Sunday, you walked downstairs to see your mug in its place inside the cabinet with a missing Cordelia’s. With a big sigh and sadness filling your chest you went back to bed and quickly fell asleep.

Awaking to a knock on your door, you groaned and rolled over to see what time it is. Picking up your phone and squinting from the abrasively bright light, the time read 2:07. Shocked at the fact you slept in so late, you jumped out of bed and answered the door. Opening the door you were met with a very angry Madison and annoyed Zoe.

“You broke Cordy,” snapped Madison.

At a loss for words, you just stared at her with your mouth slightly agape.

“Cordy isn’t being her usual chirpy annoying self. Today she is just mopey, rude, and even more annoying.” With that Zoe elbowed Madison and looked at you.

“Look Cordelia is clearly upset and it’s affecting us. Just whatever happened please fix it, so she starts acting like herself again.” With that they both walked away and left you staring at the Supreme’s door conflicted.

What got to you the most about what the girls told you was that Delia is clearly upset. And that makes you upset. You thought her hating you would be the worst feeling in the world, but the fact that she was upset because of you broke your more than you could’ve ever imagined. You knew now was the time to open up about something you had locked away and buried so deep for so long.

Walking over to Cordelia’s door you hesitated. You knew you wanted to do this, but you were also terrified to do this.

With a light knock to the door, you bit your lip and wanted to run away.

A somber “come in” was all it took for you to swing the door open.

You were met with the sight of Cordelia snuggled up in a blanket reading the book. This was the book of poems you gave her for her birthday a couple months ago. You highlighted all the parts that made you think of her. Things that talked about beauty, grace, and intelligence. You put doodles of flowers and stars in the corners of some pages just because when you think of Delia you’re inspired. She cried when she read through it and told you this was the most special, heartfelt thing she owns.

“I owe you an explanation,” you looked into her sad, red eyes and your heart broke 1,000 times more.

“May I sit?” With a nod from Delia, you sat next to her with just a little space between you two to give you room to breathe.

“Look y/n, I’m really sor-“

Cutting her off with a finger to her soft lips you began, “I want you to know that my reaction yesterday had nothing to do with anything you did. You do not need to be sorry about anything. I should be the one apologizing. I reacted harshly when I shouldn’t have,”

“Y/n you tensed so hard it was like I hurt you.”

“I know, and I shouldn’t have reacted that way. That’s why I owe you an explanation,” Scooting just a bit closer to Delia for her comfort, you prepared yourself to bring up this topic.

“Growing up my parents couldn’t stand each other. They were constantly arguing and fighting no matter where we were. Every year they would have this one massive blow out fight. I had to watch them do awful things to each other and call each other the worst names. Names you would call your enemy in a fight, not something you should ever call someone you love. Constantly watching my dad make my mom feel like she’s nothing and watching my mom shoot off at my dad over tiny things really started to wear down on me. I didn’t know what to feel or who to love when there was just so much anger,” Catching your breath, you didn’t realize tears were trickling down your face until Cordelia wiped them for you.

“And sure, plenty of people’s parents fight, but my biggest issue came from my mom. She was so miserable with my dad, and I was her venting outlet. I had to listen to her talk about how my dad makes her stomach sick and how she can’t stand being married to him. I was also the outlet of her anger. Even without a failed marriage my parents have actual anger issues. Between that and the anger she held in from the way my dad treated her, I had no chance. Delia, she was so mean to me,” Voice cracking on the last sentence, you look at Delia with tears flowing from your eyes and you reached out with grabby hands.

Cordelia quickly scooped you into her arms, and you buried your face into her chest and sobbed. She cooed comforting nothings and gently rubbed your back until you calmed down.

Laying on her chest, you began telling her more, “Ever since I was little, I remember my mom coming home from work and talking about how she wished she didn’t have to come home, she wished she could go somewhere else. I was young and didn’t really understand, but I knew deep down I was hurt my mom got so upset to come home to me. As I got older, it just got worse. Her and my dad started fighting more, so she took that anger out on me. She would constantly scream in my face about how I’m just like him and how she hated both of us. She would follow that with, ‘I would leave here if I had somewhere to go.’ Everything got so much worse when I came out. Well, I didn’t really come out. She forced me to, and I wasn’t ready. She acted awful towards me until my grandma died, and then she tried to be more accpeting. Even after that though, she was still miserable and mean. She would call me a little bitch when I swear I did nothing wrong. I didn’t do ‘bad’ stuff, I made exceptional grades, hell I took the SAT in 7th grade and scored so high I got state recognition, but no matter what I did or how hard I worked it was never enough to please her. It was always I could do better, and it got to the point where that was all I heard. That I was awful, and I could do better.” Tears back in full force you just sank into Cordelia.

Through your sobs you choked out, “The reason why I pushed you away last night was because I love you Delia, and I don’t want you to end up hating me like my parents do. I don’t want to have a relationship just for us to hate each other”

Completely shocked with your confession, Cordelia holds you against her so tightly and whispers as if she’s afraid speaking too loud will break you, “Honey, baby girl, love of my life you are not awful, and I am so proud of you. You are so smart, and talented, and oh so loving. You care about people so much. You always do what you think will help others before you do anything for yourself. You are the most special girl I have ever met; I could never hate you princess. I love you with my entire heart y/n, and my love for you will only grow. Our love is not your parents love. Just because they have the relationship they do, doesn’t mean everyone else does. There is true, honest love in this world y/n, and we have it.”

Sobbing into Cordelia, you are so unbelievably relieved with her response. You feel this sense of love and pride you have never felt before.

Once your sobs had calmed down into small hiccups Cordelia gently pushed your chin up with her finger to look into your eyes. Seeing the red, puffy y/e/c eyes she loves so much made her heart swell. With a soft smile on your face, you looked at her beautiful, full lips and back into her eyes with a pleading look on your face. With that Cordelia pulled you up to her and your lips met in a passionate, soft, and long-overdue kiss.

“I love you so much Delia.” Looking into her honey-colored eyes you felt at home.

“I love you too, more than anything in this world baby girl and not one thing on this Earth will ever change that.” Laying down she pulled you onto her chest.

“Sleep now my sweetheart and know you are so incredibly loved.” Placing a kiss to her chest, you drifted off into the most comforting sleep of your life.

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OpTic Gaming takes down Halo World Championship simply

OpTic Gaming is your 2017 Halo World Champions after an exceedingly expected championship in Burbank, California. After taking down Group EnVyUs on Sunday in a grand finals collection that felt like a mere formality, OpTic claimed the crown and cemented themselves as the satisfactory Halo Group to play the sport. Allow’s study the highlights of the day.

The day started out off with the lower bracket semifinal matchup among nV and Str8 Rippin. Despite the fact that Str8 were gambling fairly nicely up to now, they have been clearly no suit for the nV juggernaut. Coming into the fit, nV had won 12 straight video games as they blitzed their way via the decrease bracket on Saturday. Str8 did their excellent to try to keep off the onslaught from nV, however it changed into without a doubt an excessive amount of, to deal with.

Str8 put up the biggest combat in Game 2 Slayer, which came all the way down to a forty nine-forty nine standoff among the teams. NV had the higher approach and teamwork on this demanding scenario, permitting Cuyler “Hulk” Garland to secure the very last kill and a 2-0 lead. In what ended up being the very last Recreation of the collection, Str8 took a brief 2-zero lead in Seize the Flag earlier than nV fired up and rattled off 3 insanely brief caps to relaxed a 4-zero sweep. Austin “Mikwen” McCleary another time proved himself to be a reliable hand, displaying up in a prime manner just when his Team needed it to push nV into the decrease bracket finals.

Facing a hot Crew Liquid Crew, nV clearly had their work cut out in this collection. That become extraordinarily glaring in the game 1 Strongholds that got here down to the twine. Group Liquid exercised top notch manipulate over the strength weapons on the map to fasten down the points and narrowly side nV in a 100-98 victory. The teams then traded video games, tying the series at two video games apiece. It was at that moment that nV decided they had been done playing around and were ready to take on OpTic inside the grand finals. Despite the fact that Sport five Slayer become a fairly near 50-40 nV win, Game 6 Capture the Flag wasn’t close, with nV taking it three-zero. It become the first time nV controlled to beat Liquid in a sequence, and it could not have come at a better time.

OpTic reign very best

Even as nV prepare a pleasing lower bracket run, going five-0 and losing best games the whole manner, the grand finals were just another successful bankruptcy in OpTic Gaming’s report e-book.

From the start of the weekend, this match appeared like OpTic’s World Championship to lose, as it became playing on a extraordinary plane of existence than every different Group on the event. The grand finals have been no special, but that isn’t to mention that nV truly went gently into that true night time during the series, taking OpTic to the restriction in the various video games. EnVyUs had a 2-0 lead in Game 1 Seize the Flag before OpTic stormed lower back to force extra time and get a three-2 win for a 1-zero collection lead. Sport 2 Slayer changed into some other close bout, with nV falling quick in a 50-44 OpTic win. Just like Sport 1, nV held a sixty three-18 lead in Recreation 3 Strongholds earlier than OpTic went lighting-out to finish the game with a 100-65 win. Sport 4 Capture the Flag changed into every other close one, as OpTic narrowly hung on to a 1-zero lead as time expired to lock up a 4-zero sweep. All instructed, the entire grand finals lasted much less than an hour as OpTic overcame some commendable performances from nV to complete up their dominant run at the 2017 Halo World Championship.

It become an appropriate cherry on top for what became another dominant overall performance from this OpTic Gaming squad. Prevailing two instantly Global Championships is not any easy feat, however Prevailing under specific banners (Counter Common sense Gaming in 2016 and OpTic Gaming in 2017) is an entire extraordinary tale. The past, gift and future are exceedingly bright for the juggernauts of OpTic Gaming.

Quick History of the Optical Gaming Mouse

If you’re like me, you’ve been a gamer considering the fact that you can keep in mind. You grew up playing games the likes of Wolfenstein three-D, and in reality it was only the demo version considering the fact that I used to be just a youngster and my dad and mom at that time failed to agree within the usage of a credit score card to purchase a Recreation “via the modem”.

You were playing Commander Eager and Avoid the Noid, all using the arrow or WASD keys on your keyboard. Soon we have been the use of the mouse after a time of conversion from the comfortable keyboard controls, inside the bounds of gaming, we were walking round in Rising of the Triad capturing enemy gangsters and dogs and taking away enemy monsters in Doom with our mechanical ball rodents.

Quickly video games became greater targeted and required higher accuracy and a brief wrist to achieve success. Conventional ball mice might gunk up and skip across the display, they simply could not keep up.

Voila! Input the Optical mouse inside the shape of the Microsoft Intelli-Mouse Optical. In widespread, the “new” Optical mouse era of the time supplied higher sensitivity, no skipping cursor throughout the display screen because of gunked up mechanical capabilities, and the mouse should now be used on a huge variety of various surfaces. Examine right here to learn how Optical Mice paintings.

The handiest limits had been set on the abilities of the LED optics of the optical mouse and the velocity of which the processing of those pictures takes place, the degree of that is referred to as Dots according to Inch (DPI). It wasn’t until the Gaming Mouse that DPI numbers shot up utilizing the Optical mouse era. An Optical Gaming Mouse of the beyond couple years is able to over 1600 DPI, instance: Logitech MX518, LED-based yet early ball mice had been able to round 200 DPI. Over 8 instances the decision!

Even though Conventional LED Optical mice are nevertheless most of the people rule, the Laser Optical mouse made its massive explosion into the Optical Gaming Mouse marketplace with the introduction of the Logitech MX1000 in 2004. The initial benefit the Laser mouse supplied was the exact precision of the laser sensor turned into greater accurateLED-based optical sensor. The MX1000 simplest had a max sensitivity of 800 DPI however its precision blew all previous mice out of the water, flow your fingers even the slightest bit and you’ll see the relative movement of the mouse without delay, no extra “stuck” cursors because of the lack of precision. Laser mice can track on even a much wider array of surfaces than traditional LED based Optical Gaming mice can.

For the reason that MX1000, Laser mice have made leaps and limits to where even 5600 DPI is possible as established within the Razer Mamba There are lots of other specs and features that count number on a gaming mouse these days, customization of mouse buttons, USB polling rate, max acceleration, even on-board reminiscence storage to save profiles of the above cited alternatives.

The laptop peripheral we recognize as the Mouse has gone from undeniable and clunky to glossy and agile in an insignificant 10 years time. The Optical Gaming Mouse has performed the general public component inside the push for this technology and the race between the specific organizations in the marketplace. The demand has grown as Gamers realise the constraints of the old age hardware and the close to endless possibilities of digital permitting them to step up their degree of competitiveness. technology is a stunning factor, the Mouse is a platform wherein this has been shown over and over once more.

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