#my parish is the loveliest and i have never felt so loved

[thebirdandhersong]

PLOT TWIST LIFE IS NOT MISERY AND I AM LOVED AFTER ALL 😭😭😭

#popping back to say: wow i Assumed many things and depressive major sad mode songbird is surprisingly melodramatic #my parish is the loveliest and i have never felt so loved #been wrestling with Am I Inherently Unlovable Am I A Burden To All sort of thoughts due to many things #and have been reminded over and over again that i am not any of those things #😭😭😭😭 my friends and family don't hate me after all (.......shouldn't be surprised by this but it was a rough couple of weeks) #and i grossly misunderstood mr knight #turns out he DID (does?) love me after all and things are not as drastic as i thought #anyhow i feel like i've ranted a bit too much about the whole mr knight situation sjdkfjdkjf #i WAS in the depths of despair. or at least sinking downwards because of All the things #but! we are in our new house now #and mr knight wrote me a letter explaining his thoughts and feelings #and i cried like a baby reading that letter #anyhow songbird will remain single for a little while. lots to figure out and still lots to learn on my own #but in the future? if things are different? God willing? perhaps we shall try agaib #again :) #i am much more at peace with all of this now! and the terrible blanketing sense of Sad is disappearing. praise God. #slings and arrows of outrageous fortune in year 21 #also my elinor was the most BEAUTIFUL bride yesterday and i burst into tears the moment i saw her come into the church with HER knight 😭😭 #so happy for her!!!! it was so delightful!!! we had a church potluck afternoon tea after the ceremony and it was AMAZING #also: all the hearts for you ❤❤❤ i hope you are doing well! have a blessed Sunday!!