#my. skills n wtvr the word was should match my intense ambition n passion

[noxtivagus]

yk what i'll log into ffxiv for just a bit ><

#🌙.rambles #i haven't played in a week! #like even just log in to afk or wtvr n 😭😭 #i barely have anything left to do just #quiz in chem tmrrw n then finish the rrl n then #the final paper for research got moved!!!! to next year after the break :// #n then there's also the project for chem due next year #:<< gna start reviewing for cets n all alrdy by january so i'm rlly gna make the most of this christmas break n fix my sleep #my. skills n wtvr the word was should match my intense ambition n passion #nvm as much as i'd even just like to log in to afk i feel Anxious even just at the thought of it #unless i have everything done i can't even Feel like resting 🥹 #but thinking a bit of the future n i #i really do hope i'll be able to buy n play ccr? i really really do #n then. i want to play even just a bit of xv & vii & ix again :c #NIER TOO OFC automata & drakengard. n arknights n gbf n a bunch of other games #n write. even if it's hard i really want to write #if i don't express myself in some way whether it be any form of art or wtvr i get so hkfasjdflksd T_T #i rlly want to draw.. just like how i used to as a kid! when i was rlly rlly young! #being afraid of making mistakes made me hesitate so much then oh man #i miss the piano too. shld rlly get to learning the guitar but i really want to see if i could get a violin somehow since. yeah #ffxiv i realize it's been a while since i talked to that friend?? like a week now n wtf it didn't seem that long ago at all n then #nooo i really haven't had the energy to talk w anyone for like. weeks now wtf i thought it was just the past few days but it's been weeks #oh n there's a lot of books i'll read too #but i have to continue working on this rrl w my grp so oh well i'll just finish eating dinner then help out n hopefully sleep before 4 am #that sounds so unhealthy . but when the break comes at least i can idk distract myself from my thoughts yeah i'll be productive for sure #sorry i'll just play ffxiv another time :c i miss it so much there's like the moogle treasure trove rn n the starlight event hehe #i'll look forward to it!!!! but for now i will be Productive. hopefully