#nah jk i wasnt! thats just how it is growing up in a romance oriented world

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

it just struck me how my queerness is essentially just me going "hmmm... nah <3"

#gender? nah <3 #romantic orientation? nah <3 #sexuality? nah <3 #someone hands me a form that asks what i am and i just fill in 'n/a' #i simply couldnt be fucked! with literally any of it! #honestly the somewhat recent aroace realization has been So freeing #i didnt know how much stress the constant performance caused... #and also now that i KNOW it was a performance? oh boy looking back is so fucking funny #absolutely unprompted #damn sorry past me... they really didnt know... #they were out there trying so hard to conform lmfaoooo #pretending to pine while genuinely thinking they were pining.... #trying to want a relationship while being So fucking stressed out and put off by the concept... #i may have been. somewhat of an idiot <3 #nah jk i wasnt! thats just how it is growing up in a romance oriented world #now all i have to worry about it making friends!!! #no more trying to flirt with cute cashiers! no more feeling Unnecessary Pressure! #im free....