#new hair new style fuck ittttt

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hey bitches. my aposematism just dropped

#check it #new hair new style fuck ittttt #me.png #what's the attention tag now

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FUCK YEAH IMMA FASHION WIZARD

nice surprise today, the clothes i bought in a black friday sale finally arrived! Including A BIG OL FABULOUS CAPE~!

I was actually surprised its a full thing?? I expected one of those shoulder capes but it goes down to my waist and i am 100 billion percent happy with this! Shame the material in a thin nylon instead of the fabric it seemed to be in the pictures. And all the buttons and pockets are fake?? Wtf why?? It still worked good wearing a coat underneath it that actually had pockets, like its so long you cant even tell what coat i'm wearing anyway lol!

I gave it a test run going down 2 the grocery store at 8pm and buying One Potatoes (but in style!) Its so flowy and great!! And warm!! And it has tactical slits so your sleeves can go thru and its all practical as well as stylish. Also makes it fan out more when it flows, its like a trenchcoat? And thankfully i didnt get any weird looks or anything, so i picked a cape thats understated enough to look like a Fashionable Winterwear Statement as well as Bunni Is Just Really Immature And Lovv The Swoosh.

And i dunno why but dressing goofy fun 'fuck cringe culture i like to be cool' style somehow helps with my dysphoria? I've heard that thats the same reason so many of us LGBTQ folks like dyed hair and tattoos. Its like.. A way to have some degree of control over your appearance, to break from the frustration of stuff like being forced to dress as your birth gender by your abusive family or feeling like you'll never pass even when you're trying your hardest. Well fuk u i might never be able to get top surgery but at least i can wear a baggy cape to cover my dysphoria chest!! IN STYLE!!! Also healing the memories of being pulled by my hair down the stairs or having my head pushed in the bathtub while they brushed it painfully and made me choke on hairspray. I never even managed to cut my hair until years after i left my parents and then when i saw it short for the first time it was like someone lifted chains off my heart. And the new hair dye every month is an additional fuck you to my mum, lol!

ANYWAY THAT WAS MY DAY

I was kinda happy about how i looked for once, thanks to this cool cape and the lucky find of a nice pockets coat i found in bristol. (Even if i also lost all my damn money in a big disaster day, ehh...) Oh and i also got some cool coloured lens sunglasses but i couldnt wear those late at night cos i need my actual glasses to See Things. I wonder if its possible to get prescription lenses made custom for stuff like this?

Also also the greatness of the day was capped off by a super kind donator! I was only gonna get potatoe but my phone beeped and told me someone amazing sent me £15 and i cried. I now have heating and electricity on my meter, and a bag full of miscellaneous sauces to put on my cupboard full o noodles! (The noodles, not the cupboard lol. Tho i was so desperate i might have eaten wood XD)

And then HOLY SHIT as soon as i got home and sat down to type this post i got another beep saying someone else donated me £20??? Oh god, thank you guys! Seriously thats more than i deserve! The shop's just shut now but i'll go back down in the morning and buy some additional groceries and probably weep constantly all day from how much i love you guys. AAAAAAA

Oh but i managed to run back and grab two cartons of hydrogenated milk! I AM FUELED AND CALCIUMED UNTIL THE MORN

Srsly im just pouring all this milk into my face at the speed of light i was getting so bored of gross tap water. CALCIUUUUUUUUUMMMM

I WILL RECORD LETS PLAYS WITH THE POWER OF CALCIUM!!! I have to do ittttt!! I have no excuse of being all exhausted and sickly from the pasta water diet, i can have a GOOD SNACKE and be POWERED OF MILK and also CAPE

Thank YOUUUUUU!!!