#nigel is intimately familiar with his father's preferred method of dealing with a threatened pride and bruised ego

[currentlyonstandbi]

#just a little post to pass the time until i can start dumping content in the main tag again #but do you ever think about the fact nigel became his father for a moment that night at the trainyard . because i do #i was rewatching the scene earlier where he takes alex to the underground room for the first time #and it's the fact he knew the instance his father had picked up the gun. it's the fact he knew with frightening surety #the way in which john would respond to the photos of helen that night at the house #nigel is intimately familiar with his father's preferred method of dealing with a threatened pride and bruised ego #but that night at the trainyard? nigel responded to alex's rejection the same way #i think anyone who's had less than great parenting in their childhood can attest to how terrifying the realisation is #that you've become your parents. that you're starting to see them in the things you do and the way you behave #do you think the thought ever crossed nigel's mind at that moment that he'd become the very thing he hated so? #am i even making sense anymore #anyway . i need to go back to uni im getting cabin fever #song rec? who knows! chase holfelder's cover of 'animal' #i'm running low on songs from the playlist to suggest #like minds #nigel colbie