#nm every time i post about what a mess of contradictions jakes character is to me and how i can’t wrap my head around what is going on with

[4lph4kidz]

post canceled

 or maybe just... postponed (puts on bad pun sunglasses or something)

#nm every time i post about what a mess of contradictions jakes character is to me and how i can’t wrap my head around what is going on with #them someone tries to offer a relatively simple explanation #it’s not that i don’t appreciate input its just that #i know. ive tried different lenses and theories and he still doesnt make complete sense to me and i just throw my hands up in the air #shes always gonna be a completely mess to me and i dont know why #im trying to talk about how interesting all that completely unexplored and unresolved bullshit is i dont need someone to um actually me #ive heard it im past it #your map is no good to me i am in terra incognito even if its literally just me #im literally hyperfixated on this. on whatever the fuck is going on with this little guy #the potential for power never truly manifested plus lacking in agency plus the continual silly framing plus affect of authorial scorn #the fact this character was introduced thousands of pages ahead of time and was never as important as he seemed he might be #the fact the character himself has such a strange relationship to reality and authenticity and belief vs action #PLUS the neurodivergent coding and (gestures) The Gender #the scorn directed at those traits specifically also #lies on the floor #dl