#no! im fcking not! i may not have any perception of what i look like but my weight has nothing to do with how well i can preform tasks

[winterrose42]

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#winter speaks #i hate my bodys energy levels #some days i have energy and motivation and its great. others its just enough yo scrape by and thats fine #and then i get days where it seems to take too much enrrgy to even breathe anf those happen more frequently the past year or so #and ive gold drs but its always wrll it depression. oh yeab workin a job will do that. well have you considered exercuse? you are obese #no! im fcking not! i may not have any perception of what i look like but my weight has nothing to do with how well i can preform tasks #and yoj know what would help me to eercise? having the fuckibg energy to do so!!!! so help me!!! #and instead its just well lets give you this and see if this helps and it never does and they never believe me #when i say something isnt working right or i get the pity looks. i hate my body i hate whatever is wrong with it #and i hate the stupid health care system for never ever listening and being too expensive to get #im so afraid of getting a job or enrolling in any kind of school bc of how exhausting just daily tasks are #i had low low energy days at my past job where i had unprompted power naps on the toilet or barely been able to walk across a room #and id come hime and just sleep i didnt have time for anything else even the weekends were just an exhausted daze #im so frustrated i want to cry and its useless to think about it bc theres nothing i can do about it and thats even worse #i can barely even create anything anymore im so burntout by absolutely nothing. its just stupid #and i know other people are like this and worse and i feel even worse complaining about it especially bc im privelegded #enough not to have to get a job right now but i want a job and i want to go to school i want to save up for things but i cant im just stuck #anyway end of stupid rant about stupid tgings bc all of my fuctiona are stupid