#not overtly because hey they're just bringing about paradise right!

[suncaptor]

Thinking about how Raphael was presumably billions of years old. Older than any scale of humanity, certainly beyond any comprehension of human life. Yet some guy has him locked in a ring of fire (yeah, he totally didn't see that coming, of course, it's not like he should have perception beyond that, not like angels aren't able to time travel, not like he's an angel beyond the others), and he's standing there, talking, being asked where his father is.

"We're tired. We just want it to be over. We just want...paradise."

God can no longer be found even by the archangels, and immediately, immediately they want it to be over. They're tired. They want paradise. After billions of years, Raphael is now simply fighting for an escape from their current existence in the form of an apocalypse. Because hey, won't the apocalypse bring Heaven to all? And then, finally, won't it be done? Will it bring his father back, if he's about to die or the world is lost to Lucifer? Does it matter? Does anything matter? He's just tired. He just wants it to be over.

#raphael #spn #supernatural #free to be you and me #s5 #angels #(supernatural angels) #like they really did imply that thee biblical Raphael was suicidal in free to be you and me like that's what it felt like while watching it #tw suicidal thoughts #not overtly because hey they're just bringing about paradise right! #as if the end of the grand narrative isn't the equivalent of the end of their lives #angels in supernatural grew suicidal and the only way for them to escape existence properly in a way they could comprehend was bringing abo #one that stretched back billions of years #because they were suddenly abandoned