#not to be cringe and wax poetic or whatever bc woe is me and woe is like a constant state

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chemically i feel like i should be allowed to equalise ive suffered enough

#equalise how lol #not to be cringe and wax poetic or whatever bc woe is me and woe is like a constant state #but the lines in my face just look really sad ????? #like you know how people have laughter lines or smile lines dimples and stuff ? #im envious bc mine just look like exhaustion sadness and alot of ahem ragrets #i Didnt think id make it this far #i used to function on spite but i have nothing to fight for anymore because i just dont think its worth it? #it sucks #bitch where did you go huh #anyway therapy is expensive #and so is insurance #and insurance doesnt often cover mental health much in my country soooo #fuck us huh #BASICALLY i really fuckin hate myself but that is absolutely nothing new #i hate myself to the point that i think about killing myself once a week which is alot i think but i dont act on it bc im aware of what #that does to people