#now onto anne lololol

[calliopecalling]

Queen of the South 5x03 Debrief

Alright. I’ve been marinating on this long enough and I’ve had a few days to relax a little and get over my initial Game of THrones PTSD response to this episode. Thank you to all of you who helped talk me off the edge the other day, lol. I think I’ve moved on from my Daenerys-plot-line panic.

THAT SAID.

I’m still struggling to understand how betraying Marcel was in-character for Teresa. There are so many other ways that they could have portrayed her downward tailspin into queenpin crisis than having her so quickly betray one of her CORE values that they’ve spent four seasons building up. Or at least, spin it for the audience so that it looks like that’s what it is--a huge betrayal of her core values. I mean, she’s been having to betray her values from Day 2 of linking up with Camila, shall we take a quick inventory? Like she tried to say the associate of Lopez’s who was trying to steal from them should go free and quickly learned that’s not how it works (a moment I circle back to below, btw). Over the last few seasons, she:

held the innocent maid hostage

killed the Leon brother who, mind you, James set up to betray

kidnapped and traded in the life of Rios to work with George

stole from the innocent cashier at the horse race who James then killed (and lectured her about how it was totally necessary to kill him)

turned on Lil T’s uncle without actual proof and got several of his men killed in their gunfight

sailed away without Guero and then didn’t try to find out what had happened to him

ordered Kelly Anne killed (but let Camila live?)

tortured and killed Marcel’s guy Bobby for no reason

turned Javier in to the Judge in order to protect her business

And that’s just skimming the surface; I haven’t even gotten into everything. In fact one of my least favorite scenes in the series is her basically putting her own life (and James’s, Pote’s, George’s...) at risk to free La Pena’s sex slaves, because it just felt inconsistent to me with her growing smarts and reluctant ability to compromise in order to play a long game and hold onto what matters most. Like, the gal knows this business isn’t for saints. What makes her different, and ultimately successful, are her instincts, her intelligence, her honesty and transparency, and her ability to own up to her mistakes. People trust her because of a combination of these things--she commands respect and loyalty because of them. And historically, when she’s been forced into corners and had to compromise in order to survive, we’ve gotten to see her figure out ways to take accountability later.

But this time it feels different. Which, I argue, it didn’t HAVE to be. Betraying Marcel in the grand scheme of things really isn’t the worst thing. He’s in the business too. He’s not the innocent maid from season 1. Pote was the first one to suggest it--push it, even, as the only choice she had--at the beginning of the episode, and even Kelly Anne looked like she was grudgingly agreeing by her face. Couldn’t turning Marcel in and letting him know they’d work out a plan to get him out be consistent with her character (and ultimately just a part of the reality of the business)?

But no, they had to make it an out of character thing by planting this whole James speech about how trustworthy she is right in front of it for contrast. I totally agree it was shitty. I also think it was dumb because (1) Pote’s reason for why Boaz shouldn’t be turned over was that he was too unreliable and might leak to the feds but SO WILL MARCEL IF HE FEELS BETRAYED, and (2) literally she’s just showed Boaz that he can get away with murder and won’t face consequences because she needs him too much so... I don’t see anything good coming out of that. How many notches do you think she’s dropped now in his respect for her? Like I fucking love Boaz’s character right now, he carries every scene he’s in, so I’m happy to see more of him, but that just felt really out of character for her. But not in the way the writers tried to show. It was out of character because it wasn’t actually in line with what has always guided her decision-making. And, I think that SAME decision could have been spun in a way that didn’t seem quite so out of character. She could’ve made the decision with her usual integrity and intent to follow through on a plan.

Instead they’re going down a “she’s going to be betraying her core values in a major way” path and I don’t love it. I think there is PLENTY of material to work with to show her going dark and to give us worry for her soul without going in this direction and it just feels a little bait-y. Even just turning away from anything resembling emotion; taking coke to deal with stressful decisions (turning in Boaz could’ve stressed her out to the point of using, too...); etc. could have provided room in the story for her to go dark. So I don’t know. It felt like it got super heavy super fast and I don’t like it when TV shows try to shock the audiences just for the sake of shocking us. She’s a complex and interesting enough character as it is without having to endure some major personality twist.

(Also, I get that James is supposed to be a character whose perspective totally changed on everything after Teresa came into his life; but the guy had no qualms about killing totally innocent people for the first two seasons of the show, so you can’t convince me he doesn’t also in SOME WAY “get” the realities of the business and the tough shit they have to do. That said, HIS FACE when the police came in and how the poor guy had to just stand there and watch. Good acting there. I don’t think his heart broke in disappointment, though. I think he felt let down, yeah, but I think he’s gotta be worried about her now. Worried for her heart and hopefully understanding a bit more about what it is she knows about herself that she’s wanting to protect him from by not being together with him. This isn’t a thing where he really has a leg to stand on in terms of like, feeling betrayed by her himself.)

Anyway, wow, this is getting long and rambly. Point is I don’t love this story-line but I’m hoping that by introducing it early enough in the season, they’ll find a way to have it turn around again. I hope there’s a redemption arc that is less “Teresa becomes a villain and then James rescues her soul” and is more “Teresa is put in the position of making one impossible decision after another, slowly crumbles, and has to crawl her way out of the darkness with the help of people she loves.” I don’t want to be led to hate her by season end. I want to still love her and root for her. The way they wrote the betrayal in this episode really doesn’t make her that lovable and I think that could’ve/should’ve been handled differently. I’d love to hear other opinions about that!

Other random thoughts:

where is George?! George, come back

I really would’ve loved to have seen the Judge under Teresa’s thumb for at least ONE episode, or a HALF of one episode, before getting decapitated

speaking of, that scene WAS pretty golden... the head in the box, the cop moving the box... lolol

James looking all “who, ME?!?!?!?!?!” when Marcel calls it like it is that he’s in love with Teresa... sorry bud, that look would not win you a poker game, you’re going to have to mask your feelings a LITTLE bit more if you’re trying to convince anyone you actually aren’t aware you’re in love with her

the pregnancy story-line - how is Teresa going to react?!?!?!

and Molly’s acting was great in that emotional scene with Pote

but much as I love Pote, I’m really not into it from his perspective -- Hemky’s acting isn’t working for me maybe, or it just feels way too OOC for Pote to be all gushy about the baby

I’m also pregnant right now so I’m like Kelly Anne how are you in the first trimester and not like FALLING OVER WITH EXHAUSTION all the time because that’s been my own and everyone I know’s first trimester experience lol

I missed Oksana in this episode too

I ALMOST FORGOT James’s car chase! That was great. So many great season 1 callbacks so far and we’re only in episode 3.

I also felt like the decision to let Boaz go was a callback to Camila’s very first lesson to her about Lopez’s associate... wrong decision, T. Wrong decision.

I love Marcel’s character, and Alimi Ballard, a lot and hope we still get to see a bunch more of him this season

By the way, I’ve decided to stop speculating about how this is going to end. I don’t want to theorize about whether Teresa actually dies or not, and if so, whether it’s James who kills her, or whether maybe Pote will actually die so that it can be KA and Pote who don’t get the happy ending leaving room for Teresa to get hers, or whether Teresa will become the villain of the season and we’ll all hope she dies, what have you. I don’t want to watch any of the episode promos because they don’t help me not freak out and I especially don’t want to see any leaks about anything coming up. I’m scrolling past things that are obviously spoilerish because those things are not helping my blood pressure this season lololol. YES I TAKE THIS SHOW EXTREMELY PERSONALLY.

#qots spoilers #so much boaz foreshadowing #I'm also not giving up on all the love talk meaning we'll get some more good jeresa material #not to mention all the kissing scenes in the previously on recaps #just keep Teresa lovable please #or at least redeemable #however I will say that Alice's acting has been phenomenal #those hands slamming on the desk #whew #queen of the south #qots #season 5 #5x03 #txt post #qots reaction post

[sennaleee]

(Heyo, here’s a P5 Akira/Akechi omo fic that I wrote entirely for myself despite having a ridiculous number of requests for different things please don’t kill me. ;~; I have a HUGE note regarding my thoughts about timeline, my opinions on these characters and their relationship, and other things, but it was such a Long Explanation that I didn’t want it at the beginning of the fic. If that’s something that interests you, please scroll all the way to the bottom of the fic for that!

Short version with the most important stuff: This ain’t a shippy fic, but I do ship Akechi/Protagonist and like Akechi as a character despite him being a villain. Based on timeline, Akechi is suspicious Akira is a Phantom Thief but doesn’t know for sure, and Akira hasn’t yet figured out that Akechi knows about the metaverse and is a persona user (probs takes place between Kuneshiro’s and Futaba’s palaces, but exact date doesn’t really matter). There are no spoilers for P5 Royal in this fic.

Also gotta admit this is 100% self-indulgent nonsense, so if you're looking for something Deep and unquestionably In Character, this probably ain't it. Honestly, I just wanted to get back onto the writing train, and doing something entirely for myself was the best way to do that lololol. (also upon rereading this to edit, I realize that Akechi is entirely ooc whoops please just accept this for what it is because I don’t want to rewrite it when it’s literally a kink fic)

This fic was inspired by this post.

Fic contains omorashi. Also a note that this is somewhat different from my usual stuff in that there’s a lot more focus on the relief than the desperation, which I blame on point of view. Anyway. I’ll stop talking now and let you get to the actual fic lol.

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“Oh, you're back.” Sojiro's usual drawl as he stood behind the counter was expected. What was not so expected was the detective prince seated primly at said counter, an empty mug in front of him and a book held open by his gloved hands.

“Out a bit late today, eh? I'll leave closing the store to you then,” Sojiro said without waiting for a reply, replacing his apron with his jacket and giving Akira a short wave as he headed out. There weren't any other customers, and Akira really had been out late – Ryuji had wanted to train, and afterwards Akira had run into Ann when he’d made a stop in Shibuya’s underground mall. Glancing at his phone, he noted that it was technically past closing time already, and was surprised Sojiro hadn't given him more of a talking-to, not to mention he hadn't said so much as a word about Akechi having to leave Leblanc.

Speaking of Akechi ...

Akira flipped the sign to 'closed,' not wanting to risk having to deal with any more late customers wandering in.

“Come here often?” he joked, pleased when Akechi rolled his eyes and closed the book, setting it aside.

“Good evening, Kurusu-kun. You're back much later than usual today.”

Shrugging, Akira dropped his schoolbag on a booth, only giving Morgana a cursory glance as he hopped out of said bag and stalked up the stairs, throwing a disapproving glare over his shoulder. Akira went behind the counter to grab Akechi's mug, giving the inside a quick look, deeming it clean enough before refilling it with what he knew was Akechi's favored coffee blend.

“Yeah, one of my friends likes running, so I offered to run with him. My other friend likes talking, and I ran into her on the way home.” Akira put the now-full mug back in front of Akechi with an exaggerated bow before going about preparing a coffee for himself.

“Ah, isn't it past closing? I did want to talk with you today, but I'm sure you have more important things to be doing,” Akechi said, even as he rose from his seat, grabbing his briefcase from where it was set on the chair next to him.

“Don't worry; if Sojiro wanted you gone, he would've said. Stay as long as you like. Besides, I just refilled your coffee – be a bit rude if you rushed off now.” Akira gave Akechi a narrow-eyed smirk, just daring him to do something deemed 'rude.'

“As long as I'm not causing you any inconvenience,” Akechi said slowly, though he made no move to sit back down. “If you'll excuse me, I'm going to use the restroom, and then we can talk as long as you'd like.”

“Oh, wait, sorry,” Akira said. “Toilet's out of order currently. Sojiro promised me he'd get a plumber in sometime tomorrow.”

Akechi stopped from where he was halfway to the restroom, turning abruptly toward Akira with a single eyebrow raised. “Kurusu, don't you live here?”

“There's a public bathhouse across the street,” Akira shrugged. “Works well enough for emergencies. Otherwise I'm usually only here to sleep anyway.” Watching as Akechi's eyes darted for the slightest of moments toward Leblanc's exit, Akira continued, “I can walk you over there if you need?”

“No, that won't be necessary,” Akechi was quick to answer, returning to his chair and immediately reaching for his coffee, taking a long drink.

“Suit yourself. It's no problem.”

“I can assure you there is no need.”

Holding back an exasperated sigh, Akira instead walked around the counter and very deliberately moved Akechi's briefcase off of its chair and onto the booth next to Akira's own bag, ignoring Akechi's token protest. Plopping down in the now vacated chair, Akira folded his hands around his own coffee cup and smiled at Akechi. “So, Akechi-kun, what is it you wanted to discuss today?”

---

It had stayed in the back of his mind throughout the rest of the evening and later into the night. Sure, Akechi hadn't mentioned the restroom again, but there were the tiniest of tells – he was crossing and uncrossing his legs just a tad more than he would normally, he was twitching his foot up and down whereas he tended to sit completely still, it was taking him a good hour to get through this third cup of coffee when he could usually down them in no more than thirty minutes, even while talking to Akira throughout.

Akira wasn't focusing on Akechi's sure need of the restroom. It was more a curiosity, wondering why he didn't just give in and use the toilet in the bathhouse when obviously Akira was aware he'd needed to go for some time, but Akechi was nothing if not stubborn.

They jumped from topic to topic throughout the night: What restaurants Akechi had visited recently, what Akira had been doing with his friends, how both of them were doing in school, plans for the upcoming summer break, and of course, the all-consuming topic of the Phantom Thieves. Granted, as soon as Akechi started asking the more probing questions, Akira redirected toward Akechi's more recent interviews, charmed to watch Akechi scowl for just a moment before plastering that pleasant grin back on.

Akechi didn't stumble or stutter or lose track of his words. He kept sipping on his coffee, albeit at a slower pace, while Akira watched on.

It felt like no time at all before Akechi glanced at his phone and gave a start. “Ah, it's getting quite late! I really must get to the station before the trains stop for the night. Thank you for indulging me, Kurusu-kun.”

“Pfft, how many times have I told you not to thank me? I like talking to you, idiot.”

“No need to be rude,” Akechi softened his scolding with a smirk, eyes sharp as they looked up at Akira from under his bangs.

“Oh, I'm so sorry. I'll make it up to you by walking you to the station.”

“Thank you, but that's really not necessary,” Akechi was quick to say.

“It is -” Akira stopped to dramatically pull his phone out of his pocket to check the time, “- 11:47 at night. As safe as Yongen-Jaya is, I refuse to give up on chivalry and stay here while the Detective Prince himself walks alone to the train station.”

“If you insist. I suppose it wouldn't exactly be 'princely' of me to argue.” Akechi's smile was more obviously forced than Akira had seen before, and he could swear he saw Akechi's left eye twitch before he turned toward the door and made his way toward it.

“Hey, Akechi?”

“Yes? I don't want to miss the last train, Kurusu,” Akechi said.

“Yeah, I know. I only thought that you wouldn't want to forget your briefcase.”

Akira took great humor in watching how quickly Akechi's back straightened, arms stiffening at his sides in what Akira assumed was embarrassment.

“Of course. Thank you, Kurusu-kun.”

Carefully locking Leblanc's door behind him, Akira smirked to himself when he realized Akechi had already started making his way toward the station without him. His gait was no faster than usual, and Akira doubted he would've known anything was wrong without his much earlier clue.

“Hey, wait up! The station's not even a five minute walk away. I promise you're not going to miss your train,” Akira called, jogging a few steps to catch up.

“My apologies. I simply don't want to risk the possibility of becoming stranded here overnight. After all, it would do nothing for my reputation if it were to come out that I spent the night in a Yongen train station.”

“Don't be ridiculous. If you miss the train, you're coming back to Leblanc.”

Akechi looked over in shock at that, eyes wide and mouth open as if he were about to retort, yet no words came.

“I don't know why you're so surprised. What sort of friend would I be leaving you to fend for yourself? You wound me, Akechi, truly.” Akira clutched at his chest, dramatically throwing his head back in faux-distress.

“Be serious,” Akechi scowled, continuing his steady march toward the station.

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The last train for Shibuya left Yongen at midnight exactly. The big clock on the station wall informed them that it was currently 11:56.

Gesturing toward this clock, Akira said, “See, plenty of time to make your train. I can't believe you doubted me.”

“Yes, wonderful job, you correctly estimated the amount of time it takes to walk from your own home to the train station you frequent.”

“No need for sarcasm. A simple 'thank you' will suffice just fine.”

“Oh, thank you, my hero, Kurusu Akira. Now that I'm at the train station, I assure you I'll be able to make it to Shibuya on my own. No need for you to stay with me.”

“Come on, Akechi, it's only four minutes. I'm convinced you want to be rid of me.”

“Four minutes...” Akechi looked at the clock before looking down at the floor for a moment, seemingly deep in thought. He glanced once more at the clock, once toward the train tracks, then before Akira even knew what was happening, Akechi was off like a shot. He wasn't quite running, but his long strides were moving him through the station at an impressive pace.

Akira took only a moment to watch after him in shock before taking off at a swift jog to catch up with him.

“Akechi, what—”

“Please excuse me, Kurusu-kun,” Akechi said in a strained voice before abruptly pushing through a door. Akira, still chasing after him, entered right behind.

He shouldn't have been surprised to be faced with a restroom. It was small with only a toilet and a sink with no actual stalls, likely due to the Yongen-Jaya station itself not servicing too large of a crowd on the daily. Sure, he shouldn't have been surprised – Akechi had made clear his need for a restroom literal hours ago, and he'd had three cups of coffee since then, but Akira still couldn't wrap his head around Akechi being so desperate as to run away from him to get to a bathroom. Sure, there had been small tells throughout the night – just that much more fidgeting, that much more tightness in his facial expressions, but if Akira hadn't been looking for these things, he certainly wouldn’t have noticed them.

As it was, Akechi wasn't even bothering to wait for Akira to leave, instead dropping his briefcase on the floor and working on undoing his pants even as he was still walking toward the toilet.

There was no way he was unaware Akira had followed him into the bathroom. Apparently, his desperation was so great that he simply didn't care. Akira would've left. He wished he could've left, but as Akechi would've been in direct view of the door had Akira opened it, he didn't dare, instead reaching over and locking the door to prevent anyone else from bursting in.

Looking away would've been, at that point, the correct thing to do. However, the situation itself was so bizarre that Akira felt frozen in place. Frozen and staring as Akechi managed to pull himself out, already obviously dripping even before he managed to aim at the toilet. He was biting his lip and Akira could see, even from across the room, that Akechi's hands were trembling as he aimed and then he was peeing and wow Akira didn't want to be impressed, especially in what was clearly supposed to be a private moment, but the force of the stream was like a goddamned firehose.

The immediate relief was obvious on Akechi's face, his expression relaxing for the first time all night. His eyes drifted closed and his mouth went slack as he let out tiny sighs and cut off moans.

Akira was still frozen, staring, unable to pull his eyes away from the blissful relief apparent on Akechi's face. He could feel his own face flaming in a blush. The sounds alone would've been embarrassing enough, the harsh splashing and the sighing that was only slightly quieter now that Akechi was biting his bottom lip.

To Akira, the moment lasted eons. It seemed neverending in both the worst and best of ways, but truly it couldn't have been longer than a minute when the force of Akechi's stream finally began to wane, the liquid exiting slower and slower until it tapered to a stop. Akechi had turned his face away now, as he tucked himself back into his pants, flushed the toilet, and strode to the sink, taking his time washing his hands and decidedly not meeting Akira's gaze in the mirror. Not that Akira wanted to. At least, he didn't think he did. He wasn't sure if he'd ever be able to meet Akechi's eyes again after that display.

Once finished washing up, Akechi stayed facing away from Akira.

“You can leave now, Kurusu.” Akira had expected his tone to be darker, angrier, but all he could hear was a bone-deep exhaustion mixed with … was that sadness? Embarrassment? Disgust?

Unfortunately, reacting to unexpected situations such as this was not Akira's forte.

“Uhhh. Wow. that looked like it felt good.” Great, Akira, shove your foot right into your mouth, amazing job there.

“Please just go,” Akechi groaned, covering his face with both hands.

“So actually … You know how Leblanc's toilet is out of order?”

“...Obviously.”

“I definitely have to go now. Mostly out of sympathy for you, but—”

“Would you—ugh,” Akechi growled, face still buried in his palms. “Fine. Fine. I will be the one to leave.” Akechi spun around and all but leaped toward his bag, holding it very conspicuously in front of his crotch as soon as he grabbed it, but it was too late. Akira had definitely seen a small dark patch just to the right of Akechi's zipper, made all the more obvious by the light tan color of Akechi's pants. He strode to the door, trying to yank it open and quickly realized that it was, in fact, locked.

Akira choked on a laugh, the ridiculousness of the past five minutes fully catching up to him. He desperately hoped Akechi hadn't noticed – laughing at him was the worst way of getting Akechi to keep spending time with him, Akira knew. Thankfully, if Akechi had noticed, he didn't acknowledge it as he unlocked the door and let himself out at last.

It only took Akira himself a few minutes to finish in the restroom, even though he took his time, knowing that Akechi had surely left for Shibuya already. So, it was to Akira's immense surprise when he left the bathroom only to see a familiar figure sitting against the wall, knees pulled to his chest with his head pressed into them.

“Akechi?”

“... I may have missed the last train.”

Akira glanced at the clock. 12:08. Apparently Akechi getting his relief did take as long as it seemed...

"At least you already have a back-up plan,” Akira said, grabbing Akechi's briefcase before offering him a hand up. Lifting his head, Akechi fixed him with a glare.

“And if I refuse?”

“You won't refuse. Besides, there's a laundromat right next to that bathhouse I mentioned earlier. I'll throw in your pants for you so you won't have to travel with a stain tomorrow.”

“Would you shut up?” Akechi hissed, but he seemed too tired to put any true venom behind his words.

“Come on, I'll lend you my spare pajamas.”

Without another word, Akechi finally took Akira's hand and rose to his feet.

“I will warn you, Morgana may act very offended by you staying the night.”

“I'll be sure to apologize to him for invading his space then,” Akechi murmured as the two boys left the station and began retracing their earlier path walking side by side.

Akira snorted and bumped his shoulder gently against Akechi's. “Hey, if Morgana wants to stay with me, he's going to have to get used to you being around.”

Akechi's breath caught and he didn't answer, though a quick glance over revealed his cheeks dusted light pink.

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An hour later found Akira and Akechi both finally ready to sleep after having made a late-night laundry run and settled onto the bed and couch respectively. Morgana, surprisingly, had already been fast asleep when the boys arrived and they were respectful and quiet so as not to disturb him. Akira was sure he'd get an earful about his unexpected guest tomorrow, but at the moment, he wasn't in the mood for a lecture.

“Sleep well, Akechi. And please, if you have to use the restroom during the night, don't hesitate to wake me. It's no trouble to show you to the bathhouse,” Akira said, only partly doing so to push Akechi's buttons.

He could swear he could hear the blush in Akechi's words as he replied, “Thank you, Kurusu-kun. I'll be sure to do so.”

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(K, so here’s the super long note I promised at the beginning of this fic. I copy/pasted verbatim from how I had originally written it, so if things seem redundant, whoops sorry.

Full disclosure: I am a die-hard Akechi/Protag shipper and I will not apologize for that. I don't think I made this shippy at all, but I know Akechi is a polarizing character, so I want to make y'all aware that it was a dirty Akechi stan who wrote this. I just think he's an interesting character and I am very sympathetic to him okay don't judge meeeeee. I couldn't remember exactly when Akechi first started going to Leblanc in the actual game, so the timeline is kind of skirted around, but I imagine this to take place after Makoto joins the team but before Futaba contacts them. I know, I know, no one cares about The Lore on a kink fic, but it makes me happy to think about it, and it is also more important in this case because of the following:

The way Akira and Akechi act toward each other is heavily based off of where they are in the timeline + how I interpret canon events (I refuse to say headcanons because I can defend why I think this). Basically, I feel there's strong evidence that despite suspecting Akira to be a Phantom Thief, Akechi didn't truly know he was until Okumura's palace. I also feel that there is even stronger evidence that Akira and Morgana didn't realize Akechi was a persona user until the school fair event that occurred after Okumura's palace. Yes, the event that allowed them to figure this out happens significantly earlier, but there's nothing pointing toward either of them actually figuring it out until the school fair. Please keep this in mind when reading, as this 'headcanon' of mine definitely affects how I write them interacting with each other. I realize that may be confusing, since I think there's some discrepancy as far as interpretation goes around these events and when they truly happened, but this is how I interpreted the game.

Also in regards to the very ending of this fic: Didn’t add this part in because it would’ve dragged for really no reason, but my thoughts on what happens the next morning is that Akechi is naturally an early riser and gets up earlier than both Morgana and Akira and sneaks out so he doesn’t have to face Akira again, which is how we can skirt around the little issue of ‘Akechi can understand Morgana talking.’ Sojiro is definitely in Leblanc already when Akechi leaves. There is awkward eye contact, but neither of them say anything, and Sojiro vows to never bring it up to Akira. (He definitely brings it up to Akira later that same day.))

#omorashi #omocute #fandomo #fictomo #p5 omo #akechi omo #omo fic #p5 has basically taken over my life since i got royal whoops #sorry to any of the people who requested things 573819507318 years ago and still haven't received them #*shakes fist at sky* one day they'll be done #until then i hope you enjoy this self-indulgent mess thanks bye

[cousinslavellan-archive]

I don't know anything about your mass effect characters but I would love to! What classes are they in game? Any romances?

@inkberrry Oh boy I hope you’re okay with a long-ish post cause uh I’ve got a few! For the sake of both of our sanity’s I’ll stick with the main list and not kiddos oops…

My main Shepard is Arisa Shepard! She’s a Garrus-mancer - typically, if I’m writing Shakarian, it’s Arisa I’m picturing/writing. She’s an Adept Paragade in game - leaning mostly Paragon with a few Renegade interrupts. She more or less looks like default femshep with short-short hair.

(I have an AU series where she and Garrus get married near the end events of ME2 and she never goes into lockdown that I… need to finish someday oops)

My second Shepard is Willow Shepard - a Thane-mancer that’s also a paragade, but took more renegade then her cousin Arisa! I tend to connect like… all my characters so, most of my stories are interconnected in some way. (I’m ridiculous I know). Willow features in the fics The Other Shepard and Falling For the Prey, both thankfully finished!! I write her as a Vanguard, although I play her as an Adept because I can’t do close combat ever ;;;

Her main fic is a sadder one as she passes about the same time as Thane - altho that does not happen the way it does in game - but oneshots make it slightly better haha. She’s another redhead! Tho I haven’t beaten ME3 with her cause… Thane;;;

Swapping to Andromeda, I only have one Ryder - because I got stupid attached to Aria and wrote a very very long fic that was meant to be a couple of oneshots. Oops. I actually played Andromeda first, so Aria was my first ME character/OC period!

She’s mostly a casual person, thrown into the mess that it is Andromeda, biotic… of course… cause long range cough… and a redhead, as seems to be a theme for my ME ‘PCs’. She’s a Jaal-mancer who’s insanely curious about everything - The Misadventures of Aria Ryder can attest to that curiosity lmao.

She and Jaal have one biological hybrid daughter, two adoptive sons, a border collie, and Jaal’s niece Tela pretty much lives at their house post-game. She’s the youngest of these three women, but she’s accomplished a lot.

OKAY NOW ONTO TOTAL OC’S… I’m so sorry omg…

Rose Evans and Rainer Vakarian are an unlikely pair that spawned in my brain from my last playthrough of Andromeda - set in the same universe as Misadventures, post game, Rose is an Initiative botanist and Rainer’s a merc mostly just looking out for himself. Opposites attract, right? These one’s definitely do! 

Lily Anne Evans is Rose’s twin - who Rose initially believed had been killed in the Geth attack on a Citadel, before she left for Andromeda. She’d survived but been in the hospital in a coma, awakening with amnesia that eventually lifted.

She’s an N7 soldier who’s sent to Palaven as a sort of liaisen to help with a joint Turian-Human training regimen - where she meets up with and falls for Tiberius Ramas, who belongs to the lovely @wafflesrock16 ♥

Lily and Tibs also feature in an - omg - Soul Mate AU titled Broken Souls, because I’m ridiculous, as I’ve said lmao. It’s a lot of fun and I owe Waffles a ton for lending me Tibs.

Art by the ever amazing @savbakk ♥ Tibs and Lily on the left, Rose and Rainer on the right! ♥

AND FINALLY…. my newest pair of dorks, Regan Kelly and Teegan.

Regan is a colony kid - born blind in one eye, biotic, the quiet loner that just wants to work with her tech and be left alone. She ends up with Cerberus simply because she wants off the Colony and works on their security systems for years - she helps with Security for project Lazarus (tho she doesn’t know what the project is), and ends up on Omega during the Adjutant mess. She’s very disillusioned with Cerberus by that point, and ends up teaming up with a member of the Talons - Teegan - when they stumble into each other.

She’s a mix of engineer/sentinel, because she’s a techie biotic who has a drone named Terra (lololol cough) that stays as FAR AWAY FROM COMBAT AS POSSIBLE cause of her half-blindness. Teegan meanwhile left Palaven to escape the Cabal life (as he’s also biotic) and has been on Omega ever since, living life as a merc.

Art again by @savbakk ♥

FOR NOW I THINK THAT’S EVERYONE OMG I’M SORRY THIS IS SO LONG. Thank you for asking about them tho! I… hope this all makes sense? ;;;;

#mass effect #mass effect ocs #femshep #shakarian #shrios #rainer vakarian #rose evans #tiberius ramas #lily anne evans #regan kelly #teegan #oops this got rly long I'm sorry #inkberrry #answered asks

[dcarhcarts]

This.....is the 1000th post on this blog, and I definitely waited until that could be true to post it, and that’s honestly? Very fitting. Seriously, you guys are a m a z i n g and I have literally never done a milestone before so I can’t tell you what it’s supposed to look like?? But we’ve somehow Miraculously (tm) managed to reach 100 followers and - anyway, this is going to be me very unprofessionally gushing about everyone because....I love you all and you’re all amazing aaaaaa. I’m??? Literally so blessed to have made friends and write with all of you. Y’all with multiple blogs, I’m only tagging once so I don’t spam your feed ok? And - as usual, this is going to get Long, because everything I do gets Long apparently. I tried to do it chronologically but IDK how well it worked oops.

THE LOVES OF MY LIFE, THE SUN IN MY EYES, MY MOON AND STARS

@ccrrupticn  / D!!!! you are?? literally the reason I made this blog?? Without you, this thing would n o t mcfreaking exist omg!! You’re such an amazing writer (seriously, you manage so many muses and you give them all such distinct voices??? witchcraft???) and also so ???ridiculously kind! I love gushing to you about our Kids and you’re honestly A Saint (tm) for dealing with all of my blog construction/life related breakdowns, my crazy crossover headcanons and crashing into your inbox rambling about musicals <3 I miss talking to you so hmu whenever you come back if you want!!

@personnages /  Lynna!! You’re like an Actual Angel. I think you were the first person!! who talked to me??  And You were So Nice and Welcoming that you literally soothed half of my fears coming into rpc like immediately?? You basically helped me figure out how diminutives work and you’re responsible for me adding at least 3 of my muses and I cannot tell you how much I love you and every time you pop onto my dash/feed/discord/etc, it just makes me happy inside <3 Definitely 100000% will follow you to every blog (if you’ll have me lmao) regardless of fandom!! i’m super excited about all of our ship/friendship roulettes and you’re just an absolute joy to talk to.

@nikolacvnas / LYDIA goodness you are a W O N D E R. Probably the best? Historically based blog I’ve ever encountered, and definitely one of my favorite parts of the Anastasia rpc!! The care and research and attention to detail that goes into your portrayals are a s t o n i s h i n g? Your Tatya is divine, your Maria is So Lovely and I Cry For Joy that you write Dima honestly. I’d been eyeing your blog for a little bit before I made my own - and I was honestly a little scared of you when we started cause you are a GODDESS and I am a potato, but then we talked??? and you’re hilarious and a ridiculously kind person and I love you? And of course, I love your dog (the cutest in the universe).

@mythostold / LESLIE~  Different blog, same story~ Man, I’ve been following you since maybe day two of this blog being active? No matter which fandom you end up in and which muse you write, you have such!! good!!! takes!!! For one, I love reading your meta posts??? Like you’re just so incredibly passionate about your muses?? And your writing style is so good aaaaaaa it’s so atmospheric. And on top of all of that - you’re??? such a sweet and incredible??? person??? And I love talking to you boo <3 

@lifeawoke  /  NAT BBYSWEET <3 <3 <3  I have told the story of how I did a victory dance when you followed me to d e a t h probably but it’s t r u e your writing is amazing and your blog is amazing and y o u are amazing! You are the Natasha to my Sonya, and literally every time you send me a musing I’m like immediate-goofy-grin-heart-eyes???? It’s honestly a crime we don’t have more threads but like you’re an absolute joy to talk to and meme with and I adore you/your portrayal of beautiful bratty Natasha even if she drives my Sonya up the wall <3 You are Definitely the Funny Mutual lololol I crack up so much talking to you <3

@valianceearned / CARP you’re an amazing person/writer and holy h e c k am I impressed by your OCs!! They’re all so well thought out and developed? Your bios are so detailed and so much love and care is put into all of your characters. And your writing is so Lovely and it’s also very aesthetically lovely like holy heck the amount of work you put into both the content and the formatting? I am agog, I am aghast!! 

@gearsandlevers / Callie!!!!! YOU ROUND ALL THE CORNERS I STRAIGHTEN THE CURVES!! love your kids so much. Your Violet is a delightfully clever and likeable kid, your Evan might have literally walked off the stage two seconds ago, and you’ve put so much thought into your cinnabon stoner Henry. Your dialogue is amazing and I love our headcanon sessions lobbing ideas back and forth with you!! 

@spareisms / HEY MAGGIE GUESS WHAT YOU’RE WORTH MELTING FOR!!  You’re like the sweetest person alive??? How are you an Actual Real Life Disney Princess?? Your Anna is so well characterized and multi layered and I love how she an be so flawed but so brave and just how human she is. I’m very excited for your Anne Shirley too!! You’re a great writer (and a super sweet person aaaa) and I love you!! 

@gcneralvaganov /  Deanna, I have just one question: How? Have we only known each other for like 2 months???? It feels like my dash would literally be incomplete without you??  You play such deeply complex and incredibly flawed muses with such a great depth of respect and humanity. I love all of our AUs (we.....probably have a dozen by now), our long fix-canon tangents, and....look the inevitable conclusion to this whole thing is that we should....basically just write Anastasia tbh???  You’re incredibly funny and kind and talented and I’m so glad I yeeted myself into your IMs that first time 2 months ago! I love you, I love your muses, (Dima and Anya love their Dumb Boyfriend), and I love writing with you! 

@ncvaflows / ALEXA YOU ABSOLUTE LEGEND YOU. You??? Unlocked Ultimate AU Mode Ro and it’s like I c a n ‘ t stop?? First off, I cannot believe we literally own the same books and like the same barbie movies. How are we not literally the same person??  (Maybe w e ’ r e Anneliese and Erika lmao). Honestly from day 1 you’ve been so welcoming and lovely and I’m so glad we crashed into each other’s IMs yelling at top volume about random ya lit/movies/aus!! I adore literally all of your OCs (is everyone a b s o l u t e l y sure they’re not canon??? hmmmmm a Mystery)???? In the words of Li Shang, “You WRITE GOOD????” Anyway you’re amazing and I love you <3

WHILE IT’S DEFINITELY MY FAULT FOR BEING AN ANXIOUS BEAN WE REALLY NEED TO TALK MORE OFTEN CAUSE I LOVE YOU

@curtainrisen / Rebekah, dude, you’re a wonder. Your muses??? So diverse, and your voices for them? Super on the nose and amazing. I love your Helene and how human she is, and I really gotta toss more of my kids at you (Super excited for Duke!!). You’re real chill to meme with and I love talking/writing with you!!

@heartlosttravelers / Tor!! I love that you stan Raoul de Chagny So Hard ( the pure cinnamon roll boy deserves it honestly) and you’re super cool and great to talk to! All your muses are a m a z i n g and I always love the read when you pop up on my dash! 

@damerusse / Marie!! You’re hella chill. Your memes???? 10000000% actually legendary. Meming with you cracks me The Heck Up. Lily is forever the puppy dealer, that is all, thank you, gnight. Ok for real though - your Lily is pretty Legendary too and you really got all that Spark and Fire right down. You’re amazing, and I love stalking your threads on my dash!  

@lionhvrted / Fortune, my buddy my pal, we really be Out Here making Jane Austen plots even m o r e rom-com. Like. How did we manage that??? We might be literally magical lmao. We don’t have a ton of stuff going on at the moment but I love our dumb pining kids and I love the justice and humanity you give to your Caroline, and Fitzy loves his (future) wife.

@guvernantka / P R U E I already love our Exasperated Big Sis / Annoying Lil Sis / LITERALLY WHO EVEN ARE YOU YOU SMELLY DUMBASS LIL BRO IN LAW dynamic. You have the Best Sense of Humor (tm) and I’m always catching you when it’s like 12 in the morning here so I’m always cracking up silently in bed trying not to wake my roommies up. 

@anastcsie / I LOVE OUR ANGRY SMOL AND DIRTY TOL YOUNG-BUT-OLD MARRIED COUPLE AND THEIR OLDEST DAUGHTER NAMED MARIA ALREADY.  I love your Anya and how feisty and fiery she is (Dima, needless to say, loves his wife) and I love how chill (and hilarious!!) you are as a person. We do have a tendency to turn into angst monsters 24/7 but honestly that’s half the fun!! 

@asundrop / Polly!!!! ok so I know we haven’t really done anything w/ Raps (yet muahaha) BUT b o y was I hella excited when I found someone willing to yell about CDrama with me??? Thank you for being the Eternally Stoic/Always Annoyed Ancient God to my Tiny Dumb Fox Princess?? I love them and I love you (you’re hella cool) so there! 

@moretreasurewithin / KAAAATE goodness it’s only been a couple of days but I’m So Comfortable talking to you already? You’re just honestly really amazingly kind and I love screaming about Anastasia with you. We gotta get more going but I love your Dima and Maria Already (tm) and I love your sense of humor (here’s to torturing Dima with ties!!) and I can’t wait to get to know you better!

@annastrxng / AAAA somehow I managed to chat with you and then?? We never got anything going and it’s definitely mostly my fault cause of that High Anxiety (and also the fact that I got Immediately Busy) but you are literally So Nice and The Most Understanding and super great to talk to!! I hope we get something going in the future!! 

@soulcrossed / ROSE we have the same name I keep forgetting this lmao BUT ANYWAY. All your muses?? Amazing. You gotta throw more of them at me. Your Sophie?? Are you Actually Diana Wynn Jones in disguise?? I love our crazy au/headcanon sessions and I love/hate that you’re The Worst Enabler and I’m inevitably going to end up with the other two Hatter sisters on this blog lmao. 

I HAVEN’T TALKED TO YOU TON YET BUT HI!!! YOU SEEM CHILL!!

@alonecour / @steeledstark / @professor-of-predators / @sclskinn / @dulcettc / @volaticoux / @frxncaise / @argelfrasterr / @i-wrote-myway / @zharptiitsa / @villainsfall / @anyaromanovarp / @agoodandloyalrussian / @aliquisinter 

AND EVERY ONE OF Y’ALL AMAZING PEOPLE OUT THERE I’M ADMIRING SILENTLY FROM AFAR EVEN NOW BECAUSE I CHICKENED OUT OF TAGGING YOU LAST MINUTE CAUSE WHAT IF YOU’RE LIKE “LMAO WHO IS THIS WEIRDO TAGGING ME??” (p.s. this is 100000% permission to slide into my IMs/like a plotting call/etc. I honestly think y’all are hella cool and probably love you already)

#follow forever #( milestone ) #( ooc ) ✵ ~ CHANDELIERS AND CAVIAR ~ / #((................you know i made more friends than i thought i would coming into rpc as an anxious smol)) #((I LOVE YOU ALL YOU'RE ALL AMAZING)) #((thanks for putting up w/ me & my Super Anxious Self)) #((ok i'm just gonna post this before i forget and reblog something and miss the 1000th post))

[miminorenai]

“I’m telling you to wait...”

『 恋焦れ日和 』 `Koi jire biyori’

Impatient love weather

ISHIDA MITSUNARI summary

@love2dboys @frywen-babbles @ane-anne

They are walking in town, Mitsunari said it’s hot and starts to open up some of his buttons. MC cannot takes her eyes off from Mitsunari exposed neck that’s usually hidden. Also to add, the sweaty hair that slightly on his skin looks glossy/bewitching/fascinatingly elegant? He closes his eyes and combs up his hair while enjoying the breeze that just comes, making Sakon and other women watching him with blushes as if mesmerized lolololol

MC: “What are you thinking, ME?”

-flailing and laugh-

Gosh he got fever and I think due to medicine MC silently gives he’s acting soo strange? There’s an awkward half-naked scene in his room (closing in to MC, gentle gaze and so on). Later after going to town (scene above), at the hall he’s holding her and stroking MC’s hair, while complaining on Hideyoshi’s absence, shocking MC and others (That MITSUNARI doing public affection??). He’s scolding others for gossiping around and not doing any works for upcoming rain festival.

Immediately after, Sakon sees a thread on MC’s hair and when he’s trying to remove it, Mitsun hugs her strongly and blocks Sakon’s attempt. When he comes to his sense, he goes out from hall immediately. Chasing him at his room, he’s leaning at the wall, sitting low while closing his face with one hand and said it’s awful~

Okayy then MC asks Mitsunn to get more rest while she continue doing festival preparation. After some while, she’s checking back on him. His hot palm grasps MC’s arm and he intertwines his fingers with MC’s. With quick heartbeat, she asks him if he wants her to be by his side as she gains courage from their connected hands. While stroking his hair -

MC [ Please don’t restrain yourself at all towards me. ]

Taking out her fan, she uses it towards Mitsun, making his facial expression relax and comfortably closes his eyes. She realizes he has a beautiful eyelashes (Well, he’s Saki xD). Still gently stroking his hair, MC tells Mitsun she wants to see him dance at the festival. He opens his eyes immediately and makes dubious face at her. He asks her who would even would be delighted and looking forward to his dance, and MC points herself, renders him speechless. She then excuses herself to continue her works.

At last the rain festival arrives~ Sakon makes his dance performance, leads to huge applause from crowd and praises from Hideyoshi and MC. While people enjoying the festival as dance’s performance excitement gradually end, Mitsun calls for MC and grabs her hand into an alley, quite away from the festival. MC asks him what’s wrong and he said he only doing this JUST FOR MC.

Scooping water from the well onto himself, he starts to dance similar to Sakon’s dance. Breathless, great MC thought -

Besides, his face is burning hot perhaps as a result of medicine’s effect, but also might be because of him being wet. So sexy…. Recently, Mitsunari-sama just making noises in my heart, but today is the best.

(Laughing so much behind the scene xD)

After he finishes the dance, he sulkily asks why MC making that face and tells her she’s the one who wants to watch it. He staggers a bit and MC holds him in an embrace quickly. She compliments him and with disordered/disarrayed sigh that tickles her ears -

[ This too…is it because of that medicine? ] [ Among various things…suppression/restraints is not working…especially, in front of you. ]

Then they heard screams from town girls who accidentally watches Mitsun dance performance too, surrounds him, saying he’s cool and asks for encore xD #SUDDENPOPULARITY

She’s supposed to be happy Mitsun gets the spotlight, but strange feeling somehow surrounds her heart (jealousy dear~). Suddenly drums voice could be heard as a sign of the end of festival. Mitsun immediately escapes, grabs MC’s hand and starts walks away to Lake Biwa.

As they arrive, it’s dark already and while MC wants to catch up to Mitsun walk, she trips on stone and Mitsun tries to hold her. Unfortunately, the unlucky guy falls into the lake. As MC panics, she offers her hand, but Mitsun pulls her into the cold lake.

He immediately embraces and wraps her in his hot body. While both of them cuddle close together, their eyes stare at each other. After his brief concern on whether MC being cold (which MC replies no since Mitsun is warm), Mitsun pulls them even closer and gives her a sudden but gentle kiss on her lips. He said he cannot hold back and kisses her again. ME -

Despite being dizzy due to kisses, MC tells him that the suppression for the medicine would take effect by tonight. Mitsun does not care and kisses her over and over, even deeper and sweeter on that night.

Mitsun [ It’s good if only it’s you… ]

Tomorrow, the medicines effect has disappeared, as Mitsun backs to usual. She secretly feels sad, especially remembering the ecstasy and engrossment of their kisses (pfft). Since they return late to clean up, as punishment they need to deliver the loads/luggage to the next residence that would manage rain festival next year. Tho it’s not actually punishment lol, other guys just wanna give them chance to be together.

But it’s all awkward and silent. Mitsunari breaks it and tells MC she apologize too soon while the fault actually at him, leads them to blush as they remember last night. Then they are disturbed by girl’s group yesterday who are flirting all around and aggressive, seriously. They try to open Mitsun’s buttons just because he looks neat kkkkk #STILLPOPULAR

NO NO NO SERIOUSLY WHAT’S GREAT IN THIS EVENT IS MC COURAGE AND ACTION TO HAVE HIS MAN. I was like -

ATTA GIRL!!!

While Mitsunari tries to ward the girls’ attentions, MC has internal emotional crisis and feeling depressed watching the scene upholds. She then acknowledge her jealousy -

(I don’t want it. I don’t want you to touch Mitsunari-sama anymore!)

Putting herself between Mitsun and the girls, she fixes back Mitsun’s buttons, shocking him. Then, she grabs his hand and takes him to run away from that place, until Mitsunari tells her that they take the wrong way.

Feeling embarrassed, MC apologizes. Mitsunari put down the luggage and saying she surprises him too much. MC said she cannot hold back and Mitsunari laughingly joke, asking her whether she takes the medicine too.

Seeing that, her heart beats so much, but even more when Mitsun gazes at her with gentle and narrow eyes. She immediately pulls him to her and clings at Mitsun’s chest. MC -

[ Such face, please don’t show it to anyone. ]

When she turns her arms around his back and hug him with all her power, Mitsunari’s hand touches her shoulder, asking her in confusion what kind of face does she means. She said his gentle face is so lovely and cute, making Mitsun looks reluctant.

She actually wants everyone to see his kind and nice aspect, since he is easily misunderstand.

MC [ But now, I don’t want it. I really really don’t want it. It’s really painful. ]

Surprised by MC honesty -

Mitsun [ Aren’t that just for your own convenience? ]

Or

[ Aren’t you just being selfish? ]

MC apologizes for that, but Mitsun just sighs and laughs. Hugging her, he also apologizes for having MC chase him around and -

[ Only you can have me alone! ] [ Me too, only Mitsunari-sama can have me alone! ]

Or

[ I would have my hands full with only you. ] [ Me too, my hands full with Mitsunari-sama alone. ]

Whatever suits xD

While whispering, Mitsun hugging MC again and connecting their feelings without any words being conveyed.

That night, they are having pillow talk and sexy time of course~ They discuss over the medicines effect (Mitsun actually knows about the effect and don’t really resist/goes along with it coz actually he wants to be taken care (and affectionate too?) by MC and blame it all to the medicine, I guess?), along with MC repeatedly says that she does not want Mitsun has any self control regarding her (GOSH this girl knows what she wants! Like at the beginning of their pillow talk, she confesses honestly that she’s happy Mitsun holds her and strokes her hair in front of everyone, leads to furious blushes by him and tells her to forget it. MC likes noo~ why should I~ it’s a happy memory~ kkkk). 

Mitsun places his head on MC’s knee and she gently strokes his glossy hair. After he closes his eyes for a while, he calls her name, raise up, pulls MC’s nape and kisses her so deep. Saying sweet whispers, he looses MC’s kimono’s collar and....

“Don’t hold back, things are not bad (like this).”

[ Really, I too cannot hold back...]

(SCREAM to the power of infinity)

ALL IN ALL

IT IS REALLY GOOD ❤❤❤ hontoni~

Do you know how my heart is beating in excitement while typing the summary~~~ ?

Bold MC (and thirsty one, as Min @otome--gokoro said), aggressive Mitsunnn, affections and sexy times (during this time too, she said MItsun is also sexy even without medicine effect lololol)

HNGHHH

Me wanna more~

#ishida mitsunari #samurai love ballad party #tenka touitsu koi no ran #tenka touitsu love ballad #thank goodness i read this event of him properly huhuhu~