#oh yeah my fear of fic venting bc im terrified of being ridiculed . yeah yeah yeah.

[femme-malewife]

Writing my own experiences is honestly such a trip...

#like even though they're my OWN experiences it doesnt feel REAL #like wow how fake #its so weird bc im simply basing it off of what happened to me and how i deal with it #but then i worry that people find it unrealistic #or they'll see even just the fic and tags without reading it and ridicule it for being written #im really thinking abt trying therapy again tbh. but finding time between work and the fact i cannot drive... #idk. i really truly dont.... #im falling apart. the days are going by and im having less and less of a will to continue. im trying to find healthy #outlets for coping but then anxiety shoots through the roof #it doesnt help that the first two times i was in therapy it made everything worse #the first was 100% against my will bc of a simple misunderstanding blown way out of proportion at my college #and the 2nd was me p much being forced into it after i tried killing myself and ended up in the hospital lol #i tried overdosing. it hurts the stomach more than anything tbh. #the therapist just kept staring at me. like never taking her eyes off of me and kept asking how i felt #i felt more like a fucking test subject tbh. she also didnt sound Human. her tone was like i was just another patient #nothing more than routine. and she didnt Listen to what i said. then i was charged way too much despite being told it would be free #so i dropped out lol #anyway i got way off topic. um what was this abt #oh yeah my fear of fic venting bc im terrified of being ridiculed . yeah yeah yeah.