#omg is she (me) being vulnerable and open on her side blog 😳

[bunnie-bits]

omg I'm glad I'm awake, I had a dream i got back with my ex but forgot to tell her I'm polyamorous now and she found out bc i was holding her hand but also caressing this other girl who was in bed with us - and I asked if we could talk in the other room but in the other room we kept getting interrupted by random groups of people and whew!! it was stressful having to Explain Myself™ but also kinda nice to get some rly deep feelings out about why I'd be afraid of being monogamous again Especially with her 😬

happy to be back in the real world though. the first thing out of my mouth was "[friend from when i was younger's name]???" like girl what r u doing in my dream lol i have not spoken to or thought of her in Years.

#anyways.... idk I'm mainly just ranting about my dream it was kinda messy but sweet aside from that lol #and it was nice waking up and remembering i was talking with someone who's interested in me 😌 #i want 2-3 partners! at Least (⁠っ⁠˘⁠з⁠(⁠˘⁠⌣⁠˘⁠ ⁠) i want to love and be loved #mmm and ig addressing those deeper feelings i was letting out: #i never want to put all my eggs in one basket again. I've only been in two long term relationships but like #planning so much of your future around someone and losing important parts of yourself to try keeping them happy and entertained #and then having all those plans go up in flames and having to find yourself again by yourself bc y'all broke up. #it's like having the rug pulled out from under u but worst (⁠╥⁠﹏⁠╥⁠) thankfully i have been able to support myself and I'm doing #WAY better than i was the first couple months and I'm rly happy n proud of that. i think the future will be rly lovely. #and idk how I'll invest in my partners and build a future w them in a way that makes me feel safe and loved but also I'm sure #it'll happen naturally and we'll figure it out as we go :3 #omg is she (me) being vulnerable and open on her side blog 😳