#on the journey and on aslevjal and after the fool comes back to life and in kelsingra

[yevrosima-the-third]

Hear me out: To a Stranger by Walt Whitman is a fitzloved poem.

Passing stranger! you do not know how longingly I look upon you, You must be he I was seeking, or she I was seeking, (it comes to me as of a dream,) I have somewhere surely lived a life of joy with you, All is recall’d as we flit by each other, fluid, affectionate, chaste, matured, You grew up with me, were a boy with me or a girl with me, I ate with you and slept with you, your body has become not yours only nor left my body mine only, You give me the pleasure of your eyes, face, flesh, as we pass, you take of my beard, breast, hands, in return, I am not to speak to you, I am to think of you when I sit alone or wake at night alone, I am to wait, I do not doubt I am to meet you again, I am to see to it that I do not lose you.

#he I was seeking #or she I was seeking #I am not to speak to you #I am to think of you when I sit alone or wake at night alone #I am to wait #I do not doubt I am to meet you again #the fool is both #‟it comes to me as of a dream‟ #and he saw fitz in his dreams before they met! #a boy or a girl again the fool #‟I ate with you and slept with you‟ #the fool taking care of Fitz when he gets to the mountain kingdom. the two of them on the journey. #the two of them sleeping together! #on the journey and on aslevjal and after the fool comes back to life and in kelsingra #and on the way to clerres they share a cabin but Idk if they sleep together? #‟your body has become not yours only nor left my body mine only‟ #the two of them sharing a body while fitz is reviving the fool and leaving little pieces of themselves in each other (which results in bee! #‟as we pass‟ - as they pass back into their own bodies #- that's fitz during the years they spend apart and the fool as well #just crying at this point #all their separations. but then they reunite! #‟I am to see to it that I do not lose you.‟ - yeah just crying #rote #fitzloved

[annot8]

Fools fate is done! And so am I!

(Spoilers and ramblings for Fools Fate below)

Forgive any typos, i am writing through tears :)

First things first, I am thick’s number one fan. I too would hate a long boat journey and would want only for dry land and pink sugar cakes. Despite everything else that was going on, i actually laughed out loud when fitz realised Thick had stayed on Asevjal and tricked everyone (including Chade). I hope they treat him well at Buckkeep, and that his life is simple and happy.

As for Chade - I have never been so frustrated with a character I once loved. I still love him but he makes it so difficult. The dynamic between him and fitz was such an interesting and infuriating thing to read. To realise that the wise, all-knowing, old man that had always guided you is actually just… some guy - crazy. I don’t trust Chade very much, and there were times in this story that I really hated him, but it’s hard not to see him through fitz’s eyes and forgive him. He does what he judges best, even when that thing is cruel and callous.

The fool broke me with every line. Seeing him waiting there for them all on Aslevjal was brilliant but I was surprised by how quickly he forgave fitz. Though, after Golden Fool, I was happy to see them get along.

Obviously, I know there are more books so I knew he wasn’t actually going to die (though I got less confident in that when he very much did die and was dead for quite some time). But seeing him so afraid of death was heartbreaking - especially when he put a brave face on for fitz. All the stuff with the pale woman was so so awful. Him literally being crucified before fitz, with his rooster crown placed mockingly on his head?? What am I supposed to do with that???

Fitz taking care of the fool after bringing him back healed something in me. It was so soft and gentle, and sad. I knew that somehow it would not last, and so I was not surprised when he told fitz he wasn’t coming with him. I know they will meet again, but still it was very sad.

As for Fitz… I think because it took me so long to read assassins apprentice, I will always see him as a little boy. And because of that, I will always make excuses for him, and love him. He is maybe my favourite character ever, in anything. I did not realise how much being forged had affected him, and was very happy to see him restored.

The ending felt a little quick, and everything was tied up maybe a little too neatly, but I still like it. I imagine that a lot of people probably didnt like the ending very much but I did.

I’ve learned that apparently people generally don’t like molly very much. I am here to make it clear that I am not one of those people!!! I love molly. I love that she is angry and difficult and stubborn. She was right to leave fitz all those years ago and she was right to accept Burrich’s love and help. Like with the fool, I was surprised she forgave fitz so quickly. But I am happy she did.

For me, I know that the fool is fitz’s great love. I know that they would be so happy together. But the fool ventures out and fitz goes to rest. Molly represents a normal, mundane, life, with love and children and simple pleasures. And I am glad that fitz, with all his memories restored to him, can enjoy a life such as that.

I love nettle for a lot of the same reasons I love her mother. And I love that it is Nettle’s Coterie. Her involvement was another thing I was mad at Chade for, for I had hoped nettle would never have to be sacrifice for the Farseers, but in the end, she needed to know who she was.

I expected to cry at this book, but not as much as I did. I mainly cried over burrich, who was always a favourite. I think, as readers, we latch on to him the same way fitz does in the beginning. I was hoping for a slightly more emotional reunion between him and fitz, but actually, the one we got was more in character. It was so good to have him back, but as soon as the stone dragon started charging towards swift, I knew what was going to happen. And despite how much I love the fool, I was a little disappointed in fitz that he was not by burrich’s side when he died.

I am trying to think of what else to say but I think I am too close to it all. I cried a lot over patience. I am happy that the six duchies once again has a king-in-waiting and a strong, foreign born wife. Hap’s ending was a surprise, and I feel his story was a little neglected throughout, but he’s happy so I’m happy. I had hoped to see jinna again but I suppose that part of the story had already ended. Ooo and the last line about Lacey was so unnecessary!! I didn’t need to know that.

All in all, I liked this book very much despite the pain it caused me. I am happy that fitz is happy - in his father’s holdings, with his wife, the children he cares for, and his eccentric mother. I am sure it will all soon come tumbling down, and that I will have to blame fitz for it.

I am anxious to see the fool again. And if fitz’s peace cannot last, then I hope at least that in the trouble he’ll no doubt find himself in, his Beloved will be by his side. For even though I like molly, neither she nor even nighteyes could make fitz whole, the way that his fool does.

I am going to bed.

#had to get my feelings out #no doubt they’ll have changed completely by the morning #rote #realm of the elderlings #rote spoilers #fools fate #fools fate spoilers #tawny man spoilers