#on the topside? im depression numb so I can't feel anything beside cringe or else I'd have had a heart attack by now from all i did today

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wanna crawl off to a dark corner and never leave

#sabi's words #I was. Such. a social disaster today like oh my GOD how many times can a person embarrass themselves in the span of 10 hours #first. in analytical history class I said a technical term wrong while I was convinced I was right and got corrected by not only the prof #but half the class also and. it was my first session. like. way to go girl. way to go. Great first impression #then. in the process of ordering a birthday cake. I got told that the baker wouldn't take my order #but the phrasing in my mother tongue was something like 'he won't work' #and I mistook it for him taking some time off and asked exactly that and got told that no I had entirely understood it wrong. #then. speaking to a colleague. she was quoting saying 'thank you' to someone. and. I thought she was thanking me. and said 'you're welcome' #and then. got offered hot chocolate and cupcake and refused and then accepted in one breath and then knocked amother cup of hot drink over #thank god only a few drops spilled. #oh god oh god I can't rememeber the last time I had been such a disaster and I do not think I will ever forget today #I've been cringing at myself every five minutes like pls let me forget let me FORGET #on the topside? im depression numb so I can't feel anything beside cringe or else I'd have had a heart attack by now from all i did today #yeah this was definitely tmi I hope no one actually reads the tags here