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#one of the things was like 'dont b on ur bed unless ur sleepin or ull not associate it w just sleep'
junipeach · 4 years
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#sighh i was rly tryin 2 avoid venting bc i am being a huge baby abt everything this week but here i am on a *spins wheel* scoliosis rant#all day ive been beating myself up for not doing any digital art for the past 2 weeks esp when ive got deadlines coming soon#and ALSO ive been sick of being so exhausted all the time so i was lookin up shit abt why am i like this#and ontop of the normal stuff abt like 'aha mental illness who? you just need more water!'#(disclaimer: ik water is super great esp w mental illness but also pls mayo clinic im like this even when i was at my physically healthiest)#one of the things was like 'dont b on ur bed unless ur sleepin or ull not associate it w just sleep'#which is all well and good but this goes hand in hand w why im not drawing: my back fuckin hurts after not tht long!!!!#since i got diagnosed i was always like phew well its only mild so i dont need surgery so im FINE!!! which? no????#like. i shouldnt b bedridden after 3 hrs of sitting at my desk and methinks i should like. do smthn abt this lol#like its not even like it rly hurts its just like a weird feeling where its uncomfy and makes me fidget unless im lying down#idk i just feel like w every problem i and everyone around me keeps goin 'wow thats shitty' and then i/they offer nothing helpful#and i just keep saying 'wow thats shitty' for years and years and on and idk when itll just kill me#sry im a total buzzkill today its been a rough week :')#unhappy hour#ask 2 tag#sry idk how to tag this at all
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sundrenched-smilez · 6 years
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11. Do you ever want to get married?
yes!! i think it’d b a lot of fun, n i wanna b someone’s spouse eventually :~) 
id probs want smth simple n gay, mb on a beach or somewhere w a lot of water, and we could watch the sunset/rise over the ocean n pick up neat seashells, and id smile @ my wife a bunch, n theyd call me a dork, probs but smile back n we could lay on the sand n kiss and hold each other for a bit, and it’d b gay
22. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?
knowin my signif, there is a possible chance!! that or theyre sleepin
they’re spendin a cpl nights later this week and im!!!!!!!! so excited!!! were gonna make brownies n play pokemon and hopefully cuddle a bunch, n i love bein arnd them, they make things so much easier 
24. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?
i fuckin hope so!!!!!!!!!! it’d b rly rad :~) 5 yrs is a long time, n lots of fun, gay stuff can happen
49. If you have a partner, what is your favorite thing about him/her?
bz: probably how big of a dork they r, and their smile n laugh!!!! and the way the hold me, n how talented they r!!! i love how they try to keep upbeat n send me pics of their rm’s cats to cheer me up when im havin a rough day, and that i can talk 2 them abt anything, n that we’re open abt everything. it makes talkin and presenting any issues or discomforts so much easier, and thats lovely for an anxious mess like me. we also ask consent before doin anything each time we see each other, and that’s lovely
signif: (they dont like hearin their name atm so!! signif has become my tag for them, n i use loads of pet names): again, huge dork, vry caring, a rly lovely laugh. i love they way they hold me n r so gentle??? it’s comforting and amazing, and makes me feel safe n warm. i love their hands on me, and how right i feel w them. theyre rly funny, and i have a lot of fun teasin back n forth, i dont usu do that w ppl, and it’s nice to b able to w/o too much fear of hurtin them. i like the lil surprises they’ll do for me, and i like that they always double check on things to make sure that theyre ok and that im ok. i like singing w them, and they have a rly good taste in music!! theyve got a rly cute smile, and they seem rly great @ cookin which is cool!! they made chili for me the other night but we kinda burnt it bein gay!!theyre a sweetheart, and bein w them is always such a lovely time!! theyre a warm presence, n i feel v comfy when arnd them
55. Share a relationship story.
recently, i was layin in bed w my signif bc they were stayin over, n we were bein cozy, and they caught on that i got a lil quiet n asked me what’s up, and i kind of broke down bc i was rly overwhelmed by all the junk goin on w me bein jobless atm, and one thing abt me!!! is that!! i have Trouble crying in front of ppl, but they let me sob on them for a lil, n when i got back from blowin my nose i told them its pretty gay 2 let me openly sob on them, and they told me “it’s part of the job” and that warmed my heart so much, theyre so sweet a;skfjs;ieursjfklsjaoeiwuriwu9qiuzsx
63. What is your definition of “having sex”?
im not sure tbh!! ive asked a few times “r we having sex?” when doing things like grinding, ive done like nothing past kissing before this year, and so anything past that is v recent and new, and idk where to draw the line at sex tbh. defs gotta b naked, unless ur like fingering?? then its kinda sex. @ least sexual??? do u see,,,,, what i mean,, like where the line,,,,, who knows,,, so i think my line @ sex is bein nude and humping/grinding each other and anything oral. ig?? it’s ,,,, hard to tell,, tbh
ty for askin these!!!! i was havin a rough spot and i feel better having overshared a bit
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