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#plus jajaja my dudes when i think of who i want physical comfort from it's chan all the way and i hate feeling like that???
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#i think im broken
#or more messed up than i thought
#this drop in mental health has really shown me that i am.... a very needy and hypocritical (???) person
#i kinda talked abouy it earlier but like... i need comfort? i need a hug from a non family member that i trust and respect and whom i know
#loves me and i dont have anyone lile that
#and it's shitty as fuck because when i think about being in a relationship with someone like that i panic
#i say why the fuck would i do that and i try to think about something else because the reality of being with someone else terrifies me
#the surface idea of it is really nice and i think i really want that but once i think further on being in the relationship i think
#no way in hell and i hate it because i feel like a fucking hypocrite
#but im lonely
#im so lonely and have no one to physically comfort me because of my hypocritical issues and my physical aint big on physical touch
#(nor would i actually go to them woth this)
#and it sucks because my anxiety has been making me feel like if my friends arent texting me then yhey hate me and im wasting their time
#and i know thats wrong but it also feels like it isnt and i just.... fucking hate it
#plus jajaja my dudes when i think of who i want physical comfort from it's chan all the way and i hate feeling like that???
#i hate feeling like im depending on him too much and whatever because im some delusional person that doesnt see it but like fucking shit
#i want a hug from him
#a really long hug so i can stop being a needy stupid and annoying person and so i stop feeling sad and lonely
#but that will never be ppssible which makes me sad and then mad that im even sad about iy and it's just a full cycle
#om a mess and im scared to actually look into why because the reasons i already see make e so embarrassed and upset because i let them hape
#im tired of it and i want to sleep and wake up without anxiety and depression bit i cant.
#in conclusion im a fuvking mess of a dubass and want to cry
#personal
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