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#quite literally can't even stomach watching football rn bc i just wanna sit in the dark under my blanket and fucking. idk. cry maybe
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can i complain about my life again promise you all won't hate me
#(i know everyone already does most likely so i'll do it and just feel bad about it but)
#it's not that i don't love my family and i'm not happy to go back home to have dinner w them and all but
#god after like 3 hours i'm already exhausted
#i feel bad about it but they're just SO exhausting and this house is SO suffocating
#i did it i left i did it. why do i still feel trapped
#quite literally can't even stomach watching football rn bc i just wanna sit in the dark under my blanket and fucking. idk. cry maybe
#and it makes it all so much worse that it's so painfully obvious my mum is tired and probably sad and surely fed up w my father (and my
#brother to a lesser extent)
#every time i come home i just wanna say sorry. sorry i left you. sorry you're alone. you're not alone but you're alone against the world
#and she dismisses my worrying bc ofc she does and i do the same with her worries we've played this dance all our lives
#it's just. how do you let someone worry about you when you both know there's nothing you can do to make it better
#when you both know the source of the misery and exhaustion is inescapable
#god i wish it was. like. i wish this was a movie. where people actually help you in these situations. where there isn't that BIG big big
#obstacle that feels wrong to even call an obstacle but it will always forever make it impossible to do anything about the problem
#i wish the people who said they'd help gave even half a shit and actually did (it was their fucking job)
#going from sad to angry to hopeless to exhausted every 4 seconds i'm so
#the thing is i'm not gonna stop coming back home you know? i'm not i can't
#i don't even want to
#but i wish it wasn't so fucking soul crushing every time bc i don't wanna keep having tiring tiring weeks
#and then go back home on weekends and feel the opposite of rested
#ok. i should shut up. sorry. i really don't know why i'm even alive atm
#delete later
#i never remember to delete these (when i remember to tag them in the first place)
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