#rambled in the tags. okay byyyyyye.

[the-trans-dragon]

Could a person with mental illness do THIS?

*spends 20 minutes trying to respond to a text, too anxious to commit to a first word such as "Hey" versus "Hi!" versus maybe a unique catchphrase I should incorporate into my personality like "Banjo bonjour!" or, if it would be more logical, "Bonjour banjo!"*

#🙃 #its a specific person who i never really decided what kind of relationship we have #maybe she was technically one of my bosses? but we started on the same day and bonded over #trying to adjust super quickly and not make mistakes (or to learn from them very quickly) and then we #had some really nice chats about our lives and families and partners #so its like. we are casual coworker acquaintances and we are Girls Who Are Friends (im not sure if she #knew i was trans and nonbinary. i think she assumed i was a woman. but the way she perceived and interacted with my gender was comfy in a #very specific way that makes me feel Okay Being Seen As A Girl. it still doesnt feel like ME. but i can fit inside it without #contorting and hiding parts of myself. kinda like the pants i bought at goodwill that definitely didnt quite fit but #my wife hemmed them a bit and i could squeeze my butt into them if i held my breath and they were a great pair of work pants for $7 #anyways lol she was like a peer/mentor/cool aunt's even cooler best friend/woman you sat next to at the ER one time and she felt like you'd #known her forever but it was probably just because it was 2:30AM and neither of you had slept and were both lowkey curious if you were gonna #die before getting medical help/drunk woman who accidentally says something you've needed to hear for the past decade. lol #so idk if its a “hello” situation or a “hiya” or a “hey sup” or what. :3 well there went another ten minutes while i #rambled in the tags. okay byyyyyye. #sorenhoots