#re: ffxiv its not its fault it's just too comforting and relaxing so i opt for it instead of many things including diff games

[mirawhat]

am i dead? no. do i kinda wish i was? sure.

idk if its because of playing ffxiv(*), or because of adhd(***) or because of poor time management or because i live alone and have to do all the chores all the time all alone, but i do not understand what should i do ti have time for everything i want to do. i have so little obligations outside of 9hr work day but i just dont have time!!! for basic things!!!!!! and i hate this

#the problem is capitalism #sure ofc it always is #but i can rarely do more than 2 things a day #like groceries and drawing #or cooking and playing #or reading fic and reading smth else #and i hate that i have to decide every fking day what to do #i also hate planning these basic things it should be all vibes!!! #yeah i decided id cook today but the vibes ain't right so we are going to go listen to a podcast for 2 hrs in a park and apparently starve #re: ffxiv its not its fault it's just too comforting and relaxing so i opt for it instead of many things including diff games #sorry for the rant but also not sorry at all #this week is just awful already and i just need to get through it #and maybe go get diagnosed and medicated but not in this country 🙄 #my stuff #delete later #and the coursge to leave my shitty office job and try something anything diff like retail or mushroom grower or dying #no-job-summer sounds so good but would it be worth it or is this some kind of spring psychosis speaking #we just dont know dot gif #it also feels incredibly irrelevant bc i have so many good things abd dont appreciate them when thousands of people literally die and suffer #and im just a little bad in the head 👍