#remember my name is lonliness despite bearing your soul and the discrepancy btwn being a celebrity and a human

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Burning hill but it's my relationship to my passions and burn out

#mitski #i love taking 'you' and 'him' in mitski songs as personified versions of concepts and experiences in her life #happy is personification of joy #burning hill (as i interpreted) is about her passion for music and also disassociation (im watching myself burn but i cant stop or step in) #remember my name is lonliness despite bearing your soul and the discrepancy btwn being a celebrity and a human #pearl diver is reaching within to find a 'pearl.' for something more. but in doing so youre straining and hurting yourself for it #shouldve been me (to me) is masking and realizing you gave people a version of you but they want to see the real you #afraid to be truly vulnerable without an ironic front is a challenge and the regret that comes from it #i think it's interesting she mainly ever addreses 'you' 'him' and 'me' and to have that third person be a man in a relationship with her #fireworks is literally depression when youre at the lowest point but youre still feeling everything. so youre hoping things will either get #magically better or they become worse and you finally dont have to feel anymore #but also once youre there; theres a desire to *feel* something. youre in so much pain you cant cry anymore but it's getting too much #cry cry cry almost as a plea; begging yourself #francis forever is about her music and desire to be seen/validated by fans/industry but needs to prove herself by constantly creating #a lot of her music is about her music and self destructive tendencies she has with it #giving her all. feeling isolated and lonely. not being enough. fighting with herself. list and horniness. loving herself. feeling at the top #the loss of control over your life and feeling aimless despite needing to continue #the idea of being used to fulfill your sense of purpose. to have a reason to do something #it's a wide range of emotions of grief and relief. a sour orange you cant stop sucking on #laurel hell really summarizes the whole journey tbh #im still wondering who/what her 'husband' is