#rice.exe has stopped working

[zombiesama]

God I am really the worst at emotion shit. Especially when I'm just. Put on the spot.

#rice rambles #rice.exe has stopped working #'how do you actually feel about me?' #'idk man ur the only person irl who actually talks to me so i think that sums it up' #@ myself: u dumbass that sounds like u dont actually like him and that you just put up w/ him bc he puts up w/ u #this was DAYS ago but im still dying!!! #like ok dumbass ! that was the worst way to respond ! congratulations: you suck ! #i very much hope he realizes i do not in fact hate him #like. i said repeatedly 'idk im bad at emotions and feelings and shit' #sir! i dont even tell my family i love them! #the only friends ive been even remotely sappy with are ones ive known for 5+ years #ive only known this specific friend for barely over 3 years #like i didnt even tell my ex i loved him until we had known eachother for 6+ years and had been dating for nearly 4 years #you cant just expect me to be mushy or even say i tolerate you! im sorry i dont work like that! i never have! #my dumb autistic brain does not do emotion in word form ok #ive drawn things 4 u and iv bought things 4 u and i want to spend time w/ u that should be enough to show i care ok