#seeing gore or hate speech or representations of abuse? can make me angry but not upset.

[moodr1ng]

for years and years ive had the worlds weirdest issue where like.. if someone is wearing glasses (not all shapes - not large or round glasses, most often just rectangular glasses) i feel like theyre mean/want to hurt me. like the same person will put on glasses and my brain will be like "oh.. danger.. this person hates you.." and then theyll take them off and im like "oh nvm. just a regular person". ofc this is a very silly thing (its bc both my mother and stepmother wore those types of glasses when i was growing up) but usually its not an issue bc ofc i can ignore it and just talk to the actual person lol. but now EYE need glasses.. and ofc i didnt get square glasses but large glasses dont look good on me, so i have small oval glasses and. its kinda doing it you guys 😭😭 im looking in the mirror and im like "ah.. enemy.. this guy wants you dead.."

#97 #its like a magic trick to me #i take them off 'ohh nvm thats just the usual mirror guy. hi :)' #put them back on 'mean. hateful!' #this is what i mean when i say. basically nothing i see online or in media can trigger me but i have the WEIRDEST triggers or hangups irl. #seeing gore or hate speech or representations of abuse? can make me angry but not upset. #hearing footsteps or sounds of dishes or someone puts on glasses? oh i am dead!! im in DANGER!!!!