#selfish ppl who lurk and read and dip without even so much as a kudo

[imwritesometimes]

really wrestling with "writing fic is my hobby and I do it for fun and sharing it is fine and fun why shouldn't I share something I had fun doing" and "writing fic is a hobby sure but it's really only fun for me there is little point to actually sharing it with anyone though and therefore very little point in actually writing anything anymore" today 🙃

#idk with the way everything has gotten lately. having to lock fics to prevent bot scraping #selfish ppl who lurk and read and dip without even so much as a kudo #the overall vibe even here lately has been like... idk... feels like there's more spam bots than actual users at this point #which just makes it like what is..... the point? I have blorbos! I love blorbos! but even this place seems to be 🤷‍♀️ now #if ur not on dıscord or some shit you're basically non existent which lol w/e man #idk it feels like more and more there are less and less reasons to participate actively in... any of it #it's all being picked apart and ruined by sorry younger ppl who don't know how to act and won't learn how to engage #and the general commodification of every single second of being online #like idk I know omg touch grass and believe me. I have so much shit going on irl I think most ppl would understand #why I come here for a general sense of escapism #I guess I'm just wondering what the hell you do when that all seems to be heading toward a dead end too #I like having hobbies and fun I don't wanna just idk give up. have a soulless adult existence filing taxes and delaing w/insurance 24/7 #meh #erin explains it all