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#she blinked and said 'i usually hear that from jaded forty year olds not twenty year olds'
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"i mess up things and then i don't have the energy to fix them up" yes brain true sentence but no brain the appropriate response is NOT "therefore i should kill myself (and here's how)"
#tw suicide
#i wish i was joking
#i am just so so tired of keeping myself alive! can't someone else do it for a change? or better yet kill me??
#said something to the emergency room psych
#she queried it and i confirmed i had said precisely what i intended
#she blinked and said 'i usually hear that from jaded forty year olds not twenty year olds'
#i won't share what because it was a highly specific explanation of precisely how i might see myself suiciding or how/whether i thought i
#could. she asked me and i answered. apparently she wasn't expecting that level of detail and confidence
#is it funny to anyone else that i always struggle with confidence but i can confidently tell her specifics about suicide thoughts?
#this is reminding me of the fifteen year old yesterday i was conversing with and he randomly started listing all the suicide methods he
#could think of and i was internally like you missed a dozen i can think of. didn't say that obvs
#i don't know i am. tired. of everything. and i had a long and good conversation with an older woman from church last night (mother of the
#boy. i have confided in her before she's great)
#she's hte only person irl who now knows about the second suicide attempt (tho she doesn't know it was the second) and she was encouraging m
#to see the psych and escalate care
#but all day ive been regretting telling the psych or bro or anyone honestly
#it would be so much EASIER to have said nothing and gone through with my plan
#i wouldn't trust myself not to rn if i had access
#i mean. i know multiple ways in this room i could kill myself. but i won't
#there's a couple of specific methods that are most of the thoughts usually so they're the specific ones i gotta watch out for more if that
#makes sense
#ooh gosh im rambling i should shut up xD
#personal
#puddleglum hours
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