#she didnt mean anything malicious by it and prolly had no way of knowing thatd affect me so much but yeah

[amygdalae]

a few years ago when id juuuust started (subconsciously) questioning my gender my mom said somethin abt me being ‘just too cute to be androgynous’ and oof! ack! ouch! ngl that one still aches like a bad knee in cold weather

#(dont rb) #she didnt mean anything malicious by it and prolly had no way of knowing thatd affect me so much but yeah #i didnt know it was gender dysphoria at the time but that was almost certainly gender dysphoria #i cannot escape my big soft anime eyes they are a curse and a blessing #ive been developing my sense of style and i still have kinda babyface but my features are sorta sharpening as ive grown into adulthood so #thats good #i was only like 17 at the time #other #paleblood personal post #im both trying to care less abt my appearance in a vanity way and also trying to develop my sense of personal style and gender expression #which is a tightrope talk rn cuz i wanna feel good abt myself in a practical way ykno? like not feel pressure to be attractive #and just try to look cool