#she wants to ho but we dont know what legal barriers and dangers we’re dealing with!!

[ribbonmiku]

vent in tags. tw self harm mention, alcohol abuse, relapse, mom issues, death mention, jail and probation mention, general oversharing, uhhhh. yeah. sorry.

#im gonna stary biting my fingers off fr fr fr #everyone is being so frustrating #just. DO the shit you said you werr gonna do #im so tired of being the only reasonable one one in my family and having to play phone tag with mh parents #and try to micromanage my mom into staying alive #trying to talk her through her drunken breakdowns so we can figure out if relapsing will be a violation of her probation #trying to keep her from just decending into hesterics because probation violation means going back to jail #and just the THOUGHT sends her careening into sobs #and it takes forever to reel her back in #and then i think i have but when i trh to call her back later she’s sloshed again #IF she picks up #im TRYING to keep this from becoming life ruining or deadly again #but i just cant! get! her! to! work! with! me! #im trying to be patient with her but it’s SO fucking hard #I JUST NEED TO FIGURE OUT HOW TO GET HER TO INPATIENT #she wants to ho but we dont know what legal barriers and dangers we’re dealing with!! #im so fucking tired #and i was gonna go on a date with my gf tonight but she canceled last minute #i really needed it #this fucking sucks this all fucking sucks and im getting too deep into trying to save my mom #and SOMEHOW i’m keeping it together. SOMEHOW i’ve been emotionally stable through all this and more present then i’ve been in months #i think i’m just. heavily numbing out and in crisis mode #i dont even know how to end this rambling mess #whatever #i’m gonna try to call my mom again #fuck. #edit: context my mom’s relapsing andi i’m trying to send her to inpatient about it but she’s have to tell her probation officer #she’s on probation for felony DUI and in my state drinking at all CAN be a probation violation but not always. it depends on the case. #until we know for sure we don’t know how to get her into inpatient without risking her going back to jail. #idfk what im doing and no one is helping and I’m so FRUSTERATED and TIRED and I hate that I’m DOING THIS AGAIN