#she's come to cling to sumika almost as hard as she does hime

[kurozu501]

i really enjoy how kanoko functions as a deconstruction of the "best friend who quietly holds a one sided crush on the mc but never takes action and is content to let her get together with someone else" trope that's really personified by Cardcaptor Sakura's Tomoyo. Yuri is my job says actually living like that would twist you into a total mess of person with SO many issues. It says the only person who would willingly choose to live like that would be someone so isolated, deeply anxious, and terrified of rejection that they basically live in fear.

This isn't to hate on CCS Tomoyo of course, that series was a childhood favorite and foundational for me as a person. But i did always find it kind of odd how Tomoyo was so ready and willing to accept that her feelings would never be returned. She has a few moments where she seems a bit melancholy about Sakura being straight and knowing her confession would be rejected if she ever tried it, but overall she's weirdly at peace with it for a girl her age. She happily steps aside for Syaoran. We are told that as long as the person she loves is happy, she's happy.

Kanoko is basically trying to be Tomoyo, but it turns out thats kind of a messed up mindset to try and maintain long term if you dont plan to move on from your crush. i particularly liked when she said her dream is to be hime's maid in her mansion when she becomes a rich trophy wife and sumika looked at her like girl, what. Far from being a saint like Tomoyo we see that kanoko is a sad lonely teenager clinging to the one happy thing in her life. And while thats a lot messier and darker, it also feels a lot more realistic.

#watashi no yuri wa oshigoto desu! #yuri is my job! #kanoko mamiya #spoilers #yuri is my job spoilers #i really loved and hated how this recent arc has fleshed her out #(hated in this context meaning it was really well written bc i was yelling at the screen for her to stop lol) #she's come to cling to sumika almost as hard as she does hime #so it makes sense that she'd become desperate when sumika cuts her off #and causes her to cross the line and do something as messed up as manipulate sumika like she has #and the saddest part is that in the latest chapters you can see signs that she's really starting to like her #but i dont know if sumika will still want to be with her when all this shakes out #judging by the end of the latest chapter. well. as i said in that other post. #you're almost certainly so dumped kanoko sorry