#silver has truly had to deal with an ever-constant litany of how do you all SURVIVE since we started talking about spn in Nov2020

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watched laz rising for the first time and i literally feel changed

#silver has truly had to deal with an ever-constant litany of how do you all SURVIVE since we started talking about spn in Nov2020 #but like now I’m sitting here staring at myself being like how are you gonna survive this huh? #absolutely wild feeling #it’s not even DeanCas really #I haven’t had a blorbo like Dean since I was fourteen and a Tony Stark stan #it’s exhilarating and terrifying and frustrating #i Don’t know how long this will last or how far it will take me but god I’ve missed this feeling of a fandom stretching out in front of me #without any kind of like. time pressure. #spn