#so techbically just 1 and three quarter years left

[youaremysunshine-court]

if im always soul crushingly lonely why can't I be lonely ina country I actually liek

#have not even started packing yet i cant i dont want to go back #i dont fit in there #i have no idea how to talk to yhem #i hate that most of the people i know at uni are vapid and shallow and bitch about everyone they know to everyone else #and i miss my simple salt of the earth folks who ive taken for granted all this time #and i wish i could find even one kindred spirit who doesnt make me want to slit my throat in sheer misery when they open their mouth #NO ONE READS AT UNI #ITS LIKE THEY HAVENT HEARD OF BOOKS #PEOPLE LOOK AT ME WEIRD WHEN I QUITE DICKENS #HOW AM I SUPPOSES TO *LIVE* #rant adjacent #idek #just 2 years and 2 months #and subtract all the holidays #so techbically just 1 and three quarter years left #and god willing ill get into a semester abroad program so maybe 1 year??? #pray for me im so unhappy and i briguht this on myself