#ITS LIKE THEY HAVENT HEARD OF BOOKS

[youaremysunshine-court]

if im always soul crushingly lonely why can't I be lonely ina country I actually liek

#have not even started packing yet i cant i dont want to go back #i dont fit in there #i have no idea how to talk to yhem #i hate that most of the people i know at uni are vapid and shallow and bitch about everyone they know to everyone else #and i miss my simple salt of the earth folks who ive taken for granted all this time #and i wish i could find even one kindred spirit who doesnt make me want to slit my throat in sheer misery when they open their mouth #NO ONE READS AT UNI #ITS LIKE THEY HAVENT HEARD OF BOOKS #PEOPLE LOOK AT ME WEIRD WHEN I QUITE DICKENS #HOW AM I SUPPOSES TO *LIVE* #rant adjacent #idek #just 2 years and 2 months #and subtract all the holidays #so techbically just 1 and three quarter years left #and god willing ill get into a semester abroad program so maybe 1 year??? #pray for me im so unhappy and i briguht this on myself

[fandom-101]

Ya know, the one thing im really worried from the show is Grover.

Like, characterization wise, they are doing a bang up job with him! And Aryan delivers everytime. No notes and no complaints.

But where is any of his satyr side of things?

The bleating he does when he is nervous. Any of the nature magic he can do. Him playing his pan flutes. The fact tht he can read emotions. THAT HE CAN SMELL MONSTERS! Like ?? where is all of tht??

(I am very glad tht they added Pan and the searchers like this cuz i was afraid it'd be too late to mention this)

#and like #also Zeus. like why isnt he interfering? #we havent heard a word from him? by this point in the book #he had thrown many lightning bolts at the kiddos. He WAS the one who sent Echidna after Percy #cuz Zeus thinks tht percy stole the bolt so like ?? why has he done anything to stop em from reaching the underworld? #(i actually thought tht Echidna was gonna say tht she was sent by Zeus and tht why she could enter the temple rather than it being Athena) #...also still waiting for Gabe and the terrorist Percy cuz #not only the manhunt was funny #but its gives more screentime/insight on Gabe and Percy's feelings towards him #im rambling now LOL #percy jackon and the olympians #percy series #pjo tv show #percy jackson tv series #percy jackson tv show #pjo tv spoilers #pjo tv series #pjo tv adaptation #(how many tags does pjotv needs!?) #Aryan Simhadri #grover underwood

[oodlesofoddnoodles]

i redid my lockscreen and now its good omens/space themed and i am very happy about it (i cant use discord anymore so get ready for more random posts abt my special interest)

#good omens #lockscreens #special interest #autism #gomens #outer space #space #SPACE!!!! #sorry i rlly like space #and good omens #maybe its the autism #no cuz i actually just got a book about 2 gays trapped in space #its called the darkness outside us if anybody was wonderinng #i havent started it yet but i heard it was good #also im so upset my mom blocked discord off my phone #ppl should b my friends on here

[soldier-poet-king]

Okay so a strange and stubborn endurance is maybe not the best book I've ever read peak high literature or whatever, but I'm only 1/3 of the way through and I've cried multiple times and been beset with that distinctive grief of a book really getting /me/. The title intrigued me and oh oh is it very much the heart of the book. A broken creature of odd endurance despite it all.

And I think it's because it manages to combine a serious emotional plot of assault/mental illness/homophobia/recovery with a fantasy intrigue setting. Most books do one or the other. You've got teen contemporary YA dealing with heavy issues but with teens in highschool, but I am 27 and tired of teen protags, or you've got intricately plotted fantasy masterpieces. This is neither. But it puts that recovery front and center within a larger fantasy setting and I cannot stress how much I need and crave that and how hard it is to find done even semi-decently.

Velasin makes me want to throw up from crying. His fears and shames, his desperation, and love, and nonexistent self esteem. His humour. His loyalty to his only friend. His Whole Deal with his father. Every chapter just brings a new. Huh. Recognition of the self through the other. Gut punch.

Idek what I'm saying. It's not the most insanely perfect book in the world. But it's doing something For Me that objectively better books don't. Idk. Idk. All I know is that I'm sick with weeping from it.

Like absolutely mind the author's note warning at the beginning, because it can be heavy, but it's never graphic or gratuitous. And it IS focused on recovery, just again, against a fantasy plot.

I really dk I'm rambling now but it's just. Oh. Oh. Maybe I needed this. Everything lately has felt either too lighthearted to be genuine or too desperately dark for me to handle. And I can only reread the cemeteries of amalo so many times. I eventually need other things that are both hopeful and dark, gutwrenching and reflective of the self, without grimdark. (Not that this is on the same level but who can compare to thara celehar To Me)

#franposting #i am not eloquent this is so badly explained and im so emotional #but yeah. everytime vel is breaking down. all the horrible guilt he carries.its like. well maybe so. #and the fact that the tithenai just accept him and love him #like YES obvs the author isnt going for subtle #but maybe sometimes i just need to see a sad broken man be loved and cared for by strangers #and have his homophobic fathers exile be the instrument of his grace and love and new life #and markel! i love a loyal best friend right hand man character. that stays platonic! #anyway vel is like. i need to kms and im afraid all the time and im useless #abd its likeyeah me too my dude. me too #his literally only driving factor is duty #he calls himself a dutiful creature made of falsehood in the FIRST chapter #and im like. OKAY THEN. #shout out to fantssy book tournament account for having this in their latest polls #its how i heard of it #anyway. im unwell but yknow. trying. got too sad to finish arcane bc viktor #havent watched snk in Months bc im avoiding erwins death #STILL dragging out the finale of cr2. i have 5 hrs left. ikithon just showed up. i cant handle it being over #im. hm. a mess.

[booktomoviebrawl]

I think the Howl’s Moving Castle is the worse adaptation, but there’s greater number of people in the Hobbit/LotR/Tolkien/whatever fandom to be mad about the changes than there are people mad about Howl. Plus people like the movie and have prob watched it as a Studio Ghibli film w/o knowing/having read the original book.

May be biased because I watched Howl before reading the book and never read the Hobbit, but my brother did a book-movie comparison report on it in elementary school and said it wasn’t too bad (tho his standard is the Percy Jackson movie so ¯\(ツ)/¯ )

Yeah that's fair the pjo movie sucks

#i think. as far as changes. hobbit is much better. #like. obviously its really different. but its still recognizable. #like i could watch the movies read the book and compare them and say. someone fucked up along the way but its still the same story. #at its core its still the hobbit. sort of. #i havent watched hmc yet but ive read the book twice and ive heard some things #midnight speaks

[lovecatsys]

i feel so weird being a huge Quentin Quire fan when like I despise the majority of his appearances or at least have a lot of gripes with them

#riot at xavier's had a lot of potential to me and could have been really good #but it was really really bad lol #phoenix endsong was great but he only has a small role in it #that nation x story sucks #havent read schism but ive heard it sucks #watxm sucks balls #generation x is SPECTACULAR. best Quentin story ever #havent read his mighty thor arc frankly have never heard anything about it #wca is okay but i have a lot of gripes with quentin's characterization #havent read leah williams' gwenpool #havent touched x force before laura joined because.... i have no desire to read a book where my favorite guy dies over and over and over #my hope is that mackay's x men will be his best book tbh #i trust mackay to do something great #but yeah anyways its like #i like the potential of who quentin is as a character but hes been written really poorly a lot

[dullahandyke]

accidentally unfollowed u trying to send an ask i'm soso sorry T-T but also people who rely on chatgpt for uni are so incomprehensible to me partially because i took a quick college course last year to get into my job, social care, and like can you imagine having a carer or smth who didn't know what they were doing because they cheated the entire time they were learning??? but also like you're in an academic setting they're gonna have shit in place to notice plagiarism and they take that so seriously lmao. AI bros are annoying as fuck

Dw bro but SO REALLLL LIKE. I watched the main person I was bitching about for a while and they're a business student who was using chatgpt to pass a sociology test or something 😰😰 NOT a good sign for the businesses of tomorrow

#genuinely at this point im beyond the ai bros im like ok youre gonna be fucking annoying i understand #but what gets my goat is like. tech #tech-illiterate people who do it because its easy #in most cases i fully advocate for cheating on tests and shit #but like. fucker youre going to fail bcos chatgpt is gonna serve u a nothing of a paragraph!!! #we need a mandatory computer module NOW #AND LIKE YOURE RIGHT eg my college has automatic plagiarism detectors #and in big highlighted text in front of all my assignment submission forms it says 'DO NOT USE CHATGPT WE WILL KNOW' #and ive mostly heard/seen ppl who arent in my course doing it (mostly stem and business people which is also badly disappointing) #but like. if i went up to somebody in my English Course and went 'hey how are you liking the english' #and they went 'im using chatgpt'. i would maul them to death #wait post cancelled i just remembered the horrific 200+ member whatsapp group for an english module im taking #that loads of arts students are also taking for easy As #where its a constant stream of 'i havent read the book' 'im using chatgpt' 'i dont know how to google the answers' #< i have it. muted

[coridallasmultipass]

TW for racism and genocide of Native Americans

Today I learned that the original "The only good _, is a dead _," was "The only good Indian, is a dead Indian." And it really sucks that now I know this information.

Looks like it's speculated to be attributed to one specific Union general due to his actions, but it was more likely just a common anti-Native sentiment of the time held by a lot of the settlers, not just one person.

Like I know I hear 'the only good snake, is a dead snake' most often since I love being in snake discussion groups, which also sucks because I love snakes, and they shouldn't be killed.

But I've also heard like 'the only good Nazi, is a dead Nazi.' And like, I So agree with that, fuck Nazis, but I don't want to think about the original phrase being reclaimed like that for a laugh, no matter how much I agree that Nazis suck.

It should stay as horrifying and sickening as 'the only good Indian, is a dead Indian' in my opinion. I think we should retire the phrase entirely and just note that, that was the origin of it - the continued genocide of Native Americans during the 1800s when settlers were eager to get rid of us so they could claim property for themselves while forcing us into insufficient reservations as US America expanded westward.

This book I'm reading describes that the usual retaliation for the theft of a cow would have been the execution of an entire Indian village. One specific horrifying example given, is from accounts of a traveler that joined a group of Mexicans pursuing Indians (Chumash) in possession of stolen horses. They come across a group of some old Indians, women and children, drying the horse meat. Every last one was killed, and their ears cut off as proof for the priests that they made every effort to retrieve the horses.

This shit is so sickening. They were hungry and trying to survive.

It also describes how the accounts of Indians from my tribe before the mission system were all about how generous and welcoming they were. (Though, it was through the lens of the Spanish who saw us as ideal candidates for conversion because of this.) Then after the collapse of the missions and post-assimilation, the accounts simply describe the Indians' drunkenness and disorder. What did you expect???? You assimilate a group of people so they're entirely reliant on you (the rigid structure of the mission system and the dismantling of their previous tribal villages), and then suddenly turn them out to a world without their previous villages and social order. Of course they're going to struggle and suffer and abuse the drugs (alcohol) you introduced them to.

I hate this so much.

The book also mentions how, during the mission period, anyone who ran away from the missions to go back to their original tribal lives, would be dragged back to the missions and cruelly punished with restraints, lashing, or stocks, and they couldn't understand why because punishment was exceedingly rare before Spanish rule.

Ugh. Anyway.

I'm going to bring this up any time I hear anyone mention that phrase, because the horror of that time period should not be diminished in its modern reclamation. ('Diminished,' because I, a 30yo Native American, did not even know the origin. I thought it was a modern phrase. Our local Native history was always glossed over in school to focus on the mission system. I didn't even learn of my tribe's revolt until like 2016 when I went to a lecture my tribe held.)

I get that reclamation is supposed to be like a good thing, to take away the power of its original use, but I personally don't think that's appropriate for this phrase that was used as a rally for genocide.

Maybe I'm just being a sensitive baby, though, who knows! I'm crying while reading a history book about my tribe. This shit really hurts deep, though. It always has.

#native #native american #n8v #ndn #the only good indian is a dead indian #history #american indian #indigenous #chumash #california #idk what to tag this bro #racism #genocide #prob gonna get this post blacklisted for that word with the current world events ugh #ill just leave it at that for now im not done w the book yet so i might post more when i get to the actual purpose of the book #this is just like part of the intro to set the historical background the book is focused on our cave art and i havent gotten there yet #Cori.exe #Post.exe #maybe this was something obvious to other people but i literally had no idea i dont watch westerns or anything... #...like that where i couldve heard the original phrase before today #this is the shit those 'parents rights' nuts dont want youth educated about #but we need to learn this even when its extremely uncomfortable because this is how life was for people in the 1800s #anyway ill leave it at that i wanna get through this book its already been renewed once and i still have a lot more to read

[theclosetedskeleton]

why the fuck do i have to do schoolwork why cant i just be silly aka talk to my qpp and think about chnt & the fictional town of castle rock

#I AM SO NEURODIVERGENT WHEN IT COMES TO CASTLE ROCK OH MY GOD i may just read the dark half rn #i read like 75 pages of the dark half today or smth i got to part 2 of the book #the books actually not that long its like 400 pages + the fonts pretty average sized #the dark half is pretty silly at least bc of the fact that certain words that nobody uses modern era #good example is fucking “creepazoid” #those types of words arent used TOO often in the book but yknow #also i like the use of the phrase “the sparrows are flying again” being repeated bc its so tied w/the abnormal that happens in the book #back on topic its like the fact i dont know what the fuck is happening with castle rock + thad (main char) #makes the book SO INTERESTING #i actually dont know why i havent heard abt the dark half that much #maybe its not considered as good as other books by fans idk #closet rambles again on tumblr

[yuridovewing]

I haven't read TBC yet but I already know for certain that in my rewrite in my head, Needleclaw is the protag not Rootspring

#depending on how the romance is handled i may still put her with bristlefrost but i havent heard that much favorable things... hrm. #i could still have it end tragically. like they all die at the end its a tragic arc and it forces change #that wouldnt be the issue its just ive heard rootspring is sorta pushy and derails bristles arc #btw bristlefrost is getting renamed just bc. im changing a lot of nextgen babies post oots #i'm thinking shes named after a plant but im not sure which one #but for now im just calling her bristle for claritys sake #shes an ivyblossom baby #if the forbidden romance still happens (which it probably will tbh this is a neat arc for it) #then the context will be shifted around so its not a ''pressured into it'' deal #speaking of canon tho uhhh my books are due in two days so. may power through darkest night finally #ill just get the pdfs from here so i can read on the go as well (im carrying other physical books) #also im so back and forth on sparkstorm as the thunderclan pov cause i want it to be a wind/shadow conflict arc #and move twig to windclan to help that so we have eyes in there... but augh im thinking of sparkstorm having a complicated #relationship with twigshade... where like she tried and failed to protect her bc she was a child raising a child #paralleling needletail who initially had selfish intentions and hurt violetshine but grew genuinely fond of her and tried to raise her #but they both failed the girls cause they were kids themselves and they were failed by the adults around them #and augh. i COULD do that with larkwing over in windclan but she'd be older in the timeline #echoed voice #also needle and spark toxic/tragic yuri

[dreamsy990]

as a former warrior cats fan i think its really funny that the further into the series you go the more that you realize almost none of these characters have interesting and unique personalities. like someone tell me a single trait of nightheart besides him being Not Orange

#i say almost because like #some characters are decent #but like the majority- #this (mostly) isnt hate on warriors btw #its garbage and i love that #and uh my one piece of advice for any warriors fan is uh #have you heard of wings of fire? #also i havent read a warriors book in years so sorry if the writing suddenly got great while i wasnt looking

[old-stoneface]

every time i write some ridiculously gay post about vetvimes im like "oh no i need evidence!! i need evidence to back up my claims and theories about them" and then i remember im just some guy on tumblr and i can say whatever gay shit i want about anything

#sam.txt #and its not like i havent reread the books enough times to have advanced opinions on them #im on levels of theory youve never even heard of #i havent even talked about my archetype theories on tumblr #and i probably never will #because those actually make me sound insane

[fruitsyrups]

the whole "Being a Reader" thing as part of an identity bugs me too like you're still just consuming content made by other people, I don't see why it being printed out on paper makes it any different than if it was on a tv or movie screen

True! Yeah, you wouldn't tell someone "You're not a real movie/show watcher if you watch (etc)" because obviously the only requirement in order to be A Person Who Watches Stuff is to...... watch stuff. But then when it comes to literature, somehow it's supposed to be different? Lol.

#also I think the specific insta post that I was talking about was about COHO books. which i havent read any of but i know ppl hate her lol #and from what ive heard she does portray abuse and etc in a very bad very romanticized way #which is gross and yeah i dont think i would enjoy reading any of that either. but... theyre still books #& if somene likes those books its like sure maybe theyre a reader with bad taste but theyre still a reader lol #theres no moral ethical or intelluctual requirements that u need to fit in order to be a “Real Reader”. gatekeeping is so silly.

[enbiansunburst]

i think one of my favorite things from watching my little obsession was seeing all these women in their like 30s-50s talking about how much they love the pony smell and how that was one of their favorite little things about collecting.  i am reminded of this because i grabbed like six g1 ponies and am about to watch elvira with like 12 of my closest friends.  the smell is incredible

#bc then i had three g4 ponies and a fakie i've been dressing up for a photography thing #(shes dressed like an absolute prom queen i stg) #and then i got these two barbie dolls. im not even counting the stuffed animals #i love being 20 and simply not caring about toy-related stereotypes i'm having a very nice time #i havent actually seen elvira but i heard its very campy and fun. also shes gay so that's a win in my book

[oflgtfol]

the whole tigerclaw/star vs tigerheart/star dichotomy could be interesting if only for the fact that they already treaded the whole “oh nooo im descended from this tyrannical fascist and i look exactly like him to where nobody can even look at me without remembering my ancestor’s crimes, i bear the burden of his legacy and its on me to do better” thing with brambleclaw/star. like even the whole “redeeming the name tigerstar had” thing started with brambleclaw getting the -claw suffix to redeem it from tigerclaw. its just boring like its already happened whats the point

#i do think its a compelling character arc which is why i used to love brambleclaw #we do not speak of bramblestar. #i havent even read any books where hes bramblestar anyway. lol #but anyway i was genuinely so into this character arc for him and how he struggled with it and even regressed at points #and then they. well. they made him bramblestar. -_- #and then gave that same original character arc he had to tigerheart instead. like okay #but again i havent even read the books that had tigerheart become tigerstar 2.0 in them #but ive heard about it and just its whole existence irks me #especiallg bc the endgame to ‘redeeming tigerstars name’ is to become TIGERSTAR. AGAUN #WE ALREADY HAVE A TIGERSTAR #like i get what youre saying redeeming the tiger prefix i get it #whatever. #and i get in wc lore that names will be reused hence the need to redeem the respective prefix and suffix #but like #from a meta standpoint it is just INSANE TO ME that you would create a plot that leads to #two main characters having the SAME EXACT NAME #to where the fandom has to call them tigerclawstar and tigerheartstar . or just tigerstar and tigerstar 2.0 #gawd. tigerstar doesnt even sound like a real word anymore im leaving #brot posts #wc posting

[mrfoox]

God im... Probably too nice but it's fine

#miranda talking shit #I wanted to talk about a thing but...noticed quickly that they were not in a good mood/mindset so ofc i didnt even bring it up #I mean the talk was good anyway. I think he... Needed that. We talked about feelings and how to handle them #And at one point he stopped and turned to me and went 'that thing you said about getting another perspective on it... Thats smart. Thats #A very good idea. Im going to try that' not like im good at dealing with emotions. But i try to and that's a thing i know have helped me at #Times. Discussed our goals/dreams and well... I cant agree with his or understand it at all but as long as he thinks thats what he wants #Then im not going to argue. Love how he always drone on about he doesn't care about anyone or what anyone thinks but still wants to hear #What i think. I told him that was funny to me. Bc imo one doesnt ask about something one doesn't care about or have any interest in... #He's been a lot more... Curious about what i think about things and its fun. Personally im just fairly weak in my opinions. Not many things #I think are worth fighting over or arguing over tbh. So im used to just listening and nodding. But that may annoy the shit out of him lmao #That might be why he asks me about my opinion bc im so quiet and passive . But yeah very interesting to discuss #Mainly bc i havent heard anyone have that kind of opinion and goal of their own so it was fun? #But yeah ngl i love hearing people say im wise or smart. Bc i obviously dont hear that often. So when i do im like ah ... Thank you 😭 #Its bc im not book smart but i guess im emotionally smarter or whatever. In general i just enjoy making people think about other perspectiv #Bc i always do that and enjoy it. Think many are unintentionally stuck in their own way of seeing things and everything become so black and #White. To me the world isnt . I wish it was but no everything is gray with many shades lol #Also me doing and example: 'i dont think everything is your fault oliver. I think its my own' #Oliver serious: yeah well i dont think its your fault either Miranda.' i almost cried like... He didn't have to say that i was obviously #Doing an example and joking ? But he still ... Said that and im like...thabk you for reassuring me... #And he really went 'i fought hard to be the one that came by here today. It was going to be another guy which me and magnus hate. So i #Fought hard to be able to come here instead' and im like 🥺... Thank you... I wasnt there to fight but thank you for doing that... #I mean im guessing he also enjoys our conversations so i dont think it was a selfless thing but it made me happy :') #If i could have any say I'd basically only have magnus and oliver come by me but i know thats not how it works but it made me happy that he #Went out of his way to get it changed. I need to thank him again next time... At least he seemed to be a little lighter leaving than when #He came. So i hope our discussion was a bit helpful at least. Something had happened and i asked him if he wanted to talk about it #And he said no first and then 'maybe. We'll see' which to me is major bc uh.... He usually dont ever talk about anything happening actively #To me. Usually he comes and shares it 6 month later or something. So... Trust increase? I hope im rubbing off on him in healthier mental #Ways. Considering he's gone from saying nothing about himself to trauma dumping ... I guess something has changed. God i just #Want to pick his brain about everything for real. He has such diffrent values and priorities than im used to and anyone i know have. I love #Hearing all about it. Ive told him before but if we didn't meet through this... Unusual way. We'd never would have naturally. And if we did