#sooooo have this ooc version instead! 🥰

[irevanity]

A very OOC scenario where Mikami chooses a peaceful life with Gevanni instead of being “Gods” righthand man and, as a result, gives up the deathnote has potential for some angst.

Mikami, having the literal fate of the world in his hands, betrays his God at the warehouse for the person he cares for the most: Gevanni. (Lets just say they had an established relationship long before this whole murder murder murder fiasco for it to make wayyy more sense)

His God gets defeated, dragged away in handcuffs, flesh punctured by bullets. Gevanni is kind enough to block his view and mutter comforting words, but Mikami could feel the eyes of the task force and the SPK on his back, staring him down. A single choice altered their future.

Gevanni convinces him to give up the deathnote and Mikami does so, erasing all his memories about his involvement. By some miracle he dodges the death sentence, and manages to get therapy. Mikami is back to his routine; working as a prosecutor without a single clue of the events that unfolded before. Now everything is “back to normal.” Everything is okay.

Mikami forgets, while Gevanni remembers everything.

Gevanni’s still so tense around him, and it kills him inside. His lover clearly has no idea of what he had done, and Gevanni’s still subconsciously labeling him as a murderer. A criminal. He feels as if the second he drops his guard, he, too, will drop from a heart attack. This has a huge effect on their relationship.

He can’t tell him the truth. He’ll never understand, anyway.

It doesn’t help that they share the same apartment. A once comforting atmosphere was now replaced by that of grey and gloominess. Gevanni can barely maintain eye contact with him, and Mikami doesn’t even know what’s going on. He just wants to fix whatever problem their relationship is facing, but it gets increasingly difficult because Gevanni won’t speak to him. Or even look at him.

They slowly drift apart.

One day, as Mikami decided it was time to give up, Gevanni suddenly approaches him and embraces him as if it was his last day on earth.

He’s mumbling apologies and vague sentences while sobbing hysterically. “I love you,” he says while almost drowning in his regret and sorrow.

Mikami hugs back, feeling the cold, piercing feeling in his heart suddenly lift. He could not prevent his tears wetting the fabric of his lovers shirt. He didn’t realize how much he missed his lovers affection until it felt like he went years without it.

The grey and gloomy days slowly left them the following days.

Their souls were broken enough; shattered into a tiny million pieces, making it painstakingly difficult to mend it back together just for it to appear unscathed on the outside.

They still had a long way to go, but maybe, just maybe, everything will be okay.

#deathnote #teru mikami #mikavanni #btw mikami x thrapy best otp #dw gevanni gets therapy too #they all need therapy #yes #i love them so much but i also love to put them through suffering #ngl this post is kinda ooc but.. i dont caer #if this shit happened in canon Mikami would deadass sacrifice Gevanni NO HESITATION WHATSOEVER #sooooo have this ooc version instead! 🥰 #ignore mistakes and ignore plotholes. this had been on my mind for 20 mins