#speaking on a panel at a conference in 2 hrs and i haven’t even finished my presentation yet 😍😍😍😍😍😍 and then im moving home and then i have

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today and tomorrow are gonna be the purest hell like genuinely and idk how im gonna survive them but i have to

#speaking on a panel at a conference in 2 hrs and i haven’t even finished my presentation yet 😍😍😍😍😍😍 and then im moving home and then i have #to bust ass on my workshop which is happening tomorrow at 5 and my stomach is in absolute motherfucking knots. i just want to sleep i just w #want to rest i just want to calm down but no i have to be pulverized thru the fucking meat grinder!!!! but at least i have stuff to look #forward to on friday and the following weeks and also i might get to drop my stupid fucking class that im absolutely not doing homework for #lol but like yeah naur i am so exhausted rn and I’ve had nightmares 2 nights in a row and also my moms bday was yesterday and she’s fucking #PISSED at me bc i was scrambling to do hw due at 7:10 last night and she was mad i didn’t get it done before her bday and then i had to film #a video for the hw and i did it like right at the deadline but i was so stressed that my family didn’t realize that i was only doing a video #and not going to class so they sang the bday song and did the candles and everythi ng WITJOUT ME and i didn’t know they were going to do #that and no one told me and then when i came up they said i missed it and my mom is hurt and it’s like OMG i had a deadline and i was talkin #talking abt it and now i look like the bad guy and a fucking awful daughter because YOU didn’t tell me what was going on!!!! so now we r #fighting 😍😍😍😍 abt that and then this other thing we have a lot of tension over that i just had a nightmare abt so yea um i am kinda like #well i need to get out ov here scoob i have to not have nightmares abt us fighting lawl. this whole situation sucks and also I am ABSOLUTELY #going to have to move back home in may indefinitely until i have enough to live on my own again and the dread in my stomach over it. the #dread and despair and grief of it all. bc i come here for like a week 4 days whatever like any short time im here and i feel myself starting #to regress and to get more depressed and whatever so then what happens if im here for months with no end in sight. AND working at a job that #my mom won’t approve of and coming home to her disapproval every night. lolllllleeeeee i cannae take it i really don’t think i can take it #purrs #this wasn’t supposed to be a super long rant it was just abt the way today and tmrrw are abt to eat me alive but i just ranted i #suppose. whoopsies shoulda saved that for finch 🤡 #delete later #?