#thankfully van has taken over and is her primary parent and does 99% of her day-to-day care

[ghostzzy]

love mishka with all my heart but she really is a continual reminder of all my inadequacies and some days it really hurts

#i was not and will never be enough for her #and that was my biggest fear when we adopted her #and it’s just true. #thankfully van has taken over and is her primary parent and does 99% of her day-to-day care #but it makes me feel guilty every single day that i am just not physically able or mentally stable enough to be More for her. #not to be dramatic. like. ik she’s ~just a dog~. but like. she’s just a dog. yknow. and i can’t fucking handle her. #i’ve been watching her for 3 hours and i’m exhausted and she’s miserable. #reason number 7493748 why i will never ever ever ever ever have children of any kind. #izzy.txt