#that OR they'll be like 'due to ur special circumstances of being an orphan we are taking pity on you and will work with you'

[alxclaremont]

hahahahahaha i am so screwed hahahahahahaha

#got an email today to send in our information for the big scholarship i got last year and guess who doesn't meet the GPA requirement!!!!!!!! #i litrally don't know what to do #i literally can't even text my friend who also got the scholarship because her grades and gpa are wonderful and mine are shit and it will #make me feel like the most stupid person in the world!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #anyway. i am going to email the lady tomorrow and be like 'hey heres the situation pls tell me if theres anything i can do' #because i was genuinely depending on this scholarship to help me pay rent and stuff but lol #im kinda hoping that they'll take pity on me since i'm retaking the class that i failed that plummeted my gpa and once i transfer the credit #it will boost my gpa and just be like 'yeah no worries we'll send the money once you meet the requirement' #that OR they'll be like 'due to ur special circumstances of being an orphan we are taking pity on you and will work with you' #OR EVEN 'yeah whatever we'll send the money this time but if it happens again you're getting it taken away' #i genuinelly don't know what i'll do if i get it taken away #like yeah i'll have my school paid for but literally only because i took out loans #not to mention that i will have to tell everyone that i lost the scholarship and even if i don't tell them they will find out because they #do a banquet every single year to celebrate new and past recievers and everyone will notice i am not there #and i will be the biggest failure in the entire world who couldn't even meet a very simple fucking gpa requirement!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #anyway. forcing myself to not panic and feel despair yet #i am actually going to text one of my other friends who is not involved in this whatsoever and get her advice #its fine it will be fine it will all work out i am not going to lose the scholarship they literally told me even if my mom hadn't died my #senior year that they still would have given me the scholarship it is FINE i will be FINE #lacey talks