#that's not a reason for me to like. make my life revolve around ttdl

[birlwrites]

hey y'all! this isn't really a formal ~announcement~ so much as it is something i just wanted to express so i would stop feeling like i was somehow keeping it a secret

i've been having trouble with motivation re: ttdl, and i have been for a while now. i don't know when that'll change. it's not a matter of not knowing what comes next - it's the process of actually putting it down on the page that's been difficult for me. so i'm not sure when i'll be able to update it again.

i don't intend to abandon it, but i also need to give myself the freedom to work on what comes to me in the moment, instead of turning ttdl-being-unfinished into a weapon that i use to beat myself up whenever i have another idea i want to write. that would be a surefire way to make me never want to work on it again

so, instead, i'm going to think of it as letting ttdl rest. it's been a long journey to get here, and it's time to pause and recuperate. thank you so much to everyone who's been a part of this process so far - i appreciate you more than i can say!

as always, thanks for reading!!

-love, birl<3

#dark lord wip #i've been weighing saying something for a while #i care a lot about this story #and expressing that i'm feeling this way seemed like it would make it Real #so i waited in the hopes that it would just pass and everything would be 'normal' #but!! i am neither a superhuman nor a robot #i've met a lot of cool people and had a lot of fun conversations because of ttdl #which is one of the reasons i didn't want to admit that i've been having trouble working on it #but i also don't want to be disingenuous #even though i feel like ttdl is what a lot of people know me for #and why a lot of people follow me etc #that's not a reason for me to like. make my life revolve around ttdl #anyway