#the guy was probably already tumbling headfirst into a mental health crisis

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Watching the death note musical and man, I just want to give Light some tea and terrible unlicenced therapy.

#like. no i don't agree with him #but also i completely understand the mindset #fundamentally he's a disillusioned teenager who wants any way to fix what he sees #(and to do something exceptional and full of meaning instead of what he sees as a bland and empty existence) #and then he's handed a notebook that can kill people #because it happened to be him - in particular - of course it turned out that way #it's tragic #it makes you wish you could help him #and imo he's not very emotionally mature. A lot of his issues remind me of me at 14 #the guy was probably already tumbling headfirst into a mental health crisis #and you can absolutely cherry pick things he said and thought that make him seem like an absolute monster #and he definitely has lots of those traits that he Isn't Aware Of. but that's like. part of why you'd want to help him #and i feel like a lot of what L did was bring those traits out into the open for light #of course neither of them thought it was particularily wrong and the task force didn't pick up on it #but i think that's where some of the hatred comes from. not just that he's trying to stop Light #but also that he can see Light and is making Light aware of aspects of himself he'd rather not be #(insert homosexuality joke here even though that's not what I'm talking about) #remember that Light has been 'perfect' his entire life. #And everyone has said a million times over that the fact L sees him contributes to the weird sort of closeness they have #and why Light is so lonely after L's death #anyways all I'm saying is that it's tragic and while i doubt anything i could do would change it it makes me wish i could try #i love making fun of and criticizing Light as much as the next guy #but I guess today my brain decided to access the special Death Note Emotions