#the healthiest thing was blocking reddit because people seem to only discuss the same three things over and over

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The other day I was doing some introspection while doing the dishes (as you do) and I thought it was very funny how as soon as my psychiatrist asked me to be honest with myself regarding distractions and do my best to get rid of them if I can't manage them (starting by removing all clutter from my desk) I immediately started removing everything about online games I was playing at the time.

I hid Warframe and Destiny 2 from my library on the same day, because yes, I simply cannot manage them, I'd end up with perpetual brain rot. You know, that type of fixation where I'd just open the game out of habit and draw, think and play only those. Schedule life around in game events.

Which I mostly overcame because Dragon Age brain rot hit. Which I couldn't overcome nor manage and only got over it because I played Control.

Now it's been two years since playing it for the first time, about a year and a half on medication and like a year of re-learning time management and organizational skills. And I have to admit I still cannot manage the brain rot, but at least I can schedule enough hours per week to work lol

Still, I'm glad it's brain rot for a game like Control because hey, I'm drawing things I've very much had no interest in before, the game's inspirations are so varied it expanded my interests, fandom is small enough I don't get to see the same complaints over and over - the best is I don't get people complaining about the game when I post my fanart :D

(actually the best thing is that it's a single player game, because those shitty F2P mechanic are extremely hostile and toxic to ADHD brains)

May all my unfinished and planned projects for Warframe and Dragon Age rest in peace. Maybe one day I'll pick them back up, just not today.

#the healthiest thing was blocking reddit because people seem to only discuss the same three things over and over #totally not looking forward to the F2P game Remedy is working on #I felt my stomach churn when I saw the announcement #there's a specific combination of elements I know will fuck me up so if it turns out the game combines them #I'm gonna have to block everything about it :(