#the panic attacks thing tends to be either because 1) unfamiliar things like fireworks etc. or 2) sound sensitivity flare-up

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the duality of my Dr. Benzedrine is that he's incredibly effective and ruthless at what he does (saving lives, need not concern himself with the consequences as long as the subject/victim/patient is still alive by the medical definition of the term) and he's terribly smart and has a great sense of humor, but he's also a rather confused, genuinely brain-damaged individual. like. he's scary when he's in his element, but when he's not, he sometimes can barely string a full sentence together, has panic attacks over loud noises, etc

#he is not a savant btw I kinda hate that trope. he's INCREDIBLY intelligent but the brain-to-mouth connection just doesn't... work. #the head injury itself would have probably resolved itself for the most part but there were chemicals and experiments involved #and it just means he's... really shitty at language and communication. if he's not thinking too hard about it it's easier!! #the more he thinks about it/tries too hard the worse his speech is #which is why he sounds more coherent when he's working- his mind is on what he's doing instead of ''Have To Talk Right'' #which allows him to. talk better. #the panic attacks thing tends to be either because 1) unfamiliar things like fireworks etc. or 2) sound sensitivity flare-up #...in a way I think he might be a very autistic little guy. but I'm not sure. I don't really know how to portray that #it's interesting trying to write a character who's whip-smart and clever and sarcastic but Can't Speak Properly #does any of this make sense?? #she speaks! #ddas