#the pull between the urges and her oath. the ugliness of her spirit. all that is RIGHT here.

[jahiera]

at the grove with dark urge emrys and I have GOT to say. sticking to keeping her a paladin (of vengeance here) was such a moment. still getting all the flavor text as a paladin but having none of your memories might feel like a slight incoherence in the narrative to most but the idea of waking up and nothing but blood blood blood. and this deep in your bones knowledge that you swore an oath at some point in your past and you must adhere to it. sexy as fuck.

#durge!emrys is not her canon but it might have to be a little separate AU I hold tenderly to my heart #in her canon I'm giving her a few more levels in cleric than I originally intended too -- probably like three #so I'll give her a few in ... MAYBE warlock? for Durging. #I DONT KNOW what to do there yet I just like the dark mirror of it all. #because it's still very coherent with a lot of her main character ideas #it's like all that deeply repressed hate & rage is inside ripped right to the surface in this & must be worked through more purposefully #the hateful turn of her devotions & her vitriol .... #and of course. her faith. even uglier here. maybe she would like to be daddy's specialest boy but she'll turn away in the end #the pull between the urges and her oath. the ugliness of her spirit. all that is RIGHT here. #and she's even goth. #playing bg3 #oc. emrys #bg3 spoilers