#the second i start talking abt them i just go sicko mode

[bugtoonz]

i think ryan and min are both idiots and take WAAAAAYYY too long to realize they have feelings, and even LONGER to realize theyre requited.

for ryan its like a casual acceptance after he sees a gay couple at a venue theyre playing. he sees them and is like "aww those guys are bff's just like me and min--" and then they kiss and he's like "............ hmm. i think i have to reevaluate my entire relationship with min." and then goes. "hmm. i think im in love with him??? that sucks. min-gi is 1000% straight. also what would our families think? oh right i dont care. this changes nothing." and continues to change absolutely nothing abt how he interacts with min. btw this all happens in the 30-second chorus of a song mid-performance. mans doesnt even falter.

for min it would be something SUUUUPER dumb. like ryan licks a pole in winter and gets his tongue stuck and min just has a warm, soft moment of "why do i love him" followed by a 4-month freakout of "I LOVE HIM????????" he spends a lot of time thinking it through, what does this mean for him, for them, for his future. does this change anything? and the conclusions he comes to are, no, this changes nothing. he's okay being romantically alone his whole life as long as he gets to spend it with ryan. he'll die with this secret. he's okay and he can be content with this life.

i think them both coming to the realization that theyre in love w each other is probably very dumb and very much them but thats a headcanon for another day maybe lol -mtd

no bc this is so in-character for these two idiots!!

i feel like Ryan’s kind of... used to settling, if that makes sense? He’s grown up with 4 siblings so he knows what it’s like to not get what you want, and i think to him Min is just another one of those things he’s Not Meant To Have. He accepts the heartbreak and the yearning as something unavoidable and never once considers that maybe the world actually wants him to have the one thing he’s ever truly wished for. he tells himself its ok though because just having Min by his side is more than enough, its all he could ever ask for.

i also imagine that Ryan kinda takes a long time to even consider his true feelings for Min-Gi. tbh he’s probably been in love with him since they were like 14, but Ryan’s not very good at figuring out what his heart is trying to tell him, so its not until some random ass thing switches the flip in his brain that he realizes he’s slowly been falling in love with his childhood best friend for the past decade. and when he does realize it’s kinda anticlimactic because he immediately writes off his feelings as something that will never be reciprocated. like i said before, he settles for heartbreak.

ohhh my god. let’s talk about Min for a second. Min-Gi “have i seriously been in love with Ryan for years now without knowing?!?” Park. he definitely thinks through his attraction to Ryan more than Ryan does for him. i wouldn’t be surprised if he made an organized chart of his emotions or something lmao. he’s melodramatic like that. ultimately though i agree with you in that Min’s just like “ok i guess i will just take this with me to my grave.” he feels more... guilty about it than Ryan, i think? like he feels selfish for wanting more than what he’s been given, and to him Ryan is such a star he feels like an idiot for ever thinking he could keep up.

so these two idiots both decide to just never confront the constant tension between them bc they both think that its just them projecting onto the other. there’s a lot of pining and totally platonic bed sharing and a hell of a lot of stolen glances as they both fumble to pretend there’s nothing between them. there’s a sort of fear that keeps them rooted in place, a fear that what they have could be ruined again if one wrong step is taken, and i think, ironically, their love for each other is almost what holds them back from confessing bc they’re so scared of what they could lose.

i think a confession could go a lot of different ways, and i’d love to hear ur take on it :))

#the second i start talking abt them i just go sicko mode #thanks for the ask tho i luv hearing yalls thoughts #ryan akagi #min gi park #rymin #infinity train