#the words just lodge in my stupid throat and i cant fucking spit them up without a reason and no telling people is not a reason

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words fail me

#my art #emeto tw #sorta #who needs sleep after your catbwakes you upmat 3am to hurl after a fairly fucken bad day not fuvken me #i cant be bothered w the typos #like how tdo people say words #they just tell people things...?......???????????????? #wah wah i had a bad day and couldnt sleep and had a panic attack #when i put it ike that indont look smart #im starving also #idk why #have to get up then #the words just lodge in my stupid throat and i cant fucking spit them up without a reason and no telling people is not a reason #apparently art is a reason #i have more words secretly. its likely healthiest to putnthem here #i feel like crying whenever mom and sibling have a productive convo cause thatb means i didnt waste months of my life working with himonstuf #getting in the boat stuff. theres still problems i dont know where thr balance is. betther to clean the kitchen to show yoh care or better t #o trust people to understand the limits of others? who knows but be sure to yell at me in a panic because you suddenly want my help with it #i think it was a legit panic attack with hyperventilation and everything and it was the middle of the night and i had to be the one that tal #ks myselfnthrough it not that id really trust anyone to have that skill but its still fuckend up #im tired #im really very tired