#their story just wans't really working bc Lana was a very... passive paticipant ??? like very reactive / stuff would happen TO her

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Feeling bits and pieces of Lana & Rena's story fall into place these past weeks/months since I've started to re-think about them is so satisfying.... I really wanna find something better than the first/old version of their dynamic ! (I don't blame young me, I didn't know any better back then haha) There's still a lot of weird spots and events & changes to figure out (especially their order of arrival) but it's so so fun thinking about them again aaaaa, I missed my messy girls so much

#truly figuring out that Lana is a bitch was what broke the dam I think #their story just wans't really working bc Lana was a very... passive paticipant ??? like very reactive / stuff would happen TO her #but not BECAUSE of her #now though ??? oh boy hahahaha #she grows a lot though... rn I'm trying to figure out the moment she starts to accept her really check slap #and understands she has to make ammends (but later... understand that she has to forgive herself) #I need to spend more time thinking about Rena in the future but for now I've been pleasantly surprised to figure out the person she is #outside of her traumatised self fdksjhk #she is so soft she kinda makes me want to cry ngl #paracosm #lana #rena #renaiel #lanare #beary talk #oc #ocs #beary ramble #symphonia #zellk #zellk ocs