#then throw in the powder keg that is k and the whole group dynamic shifts to be just slightly more sexist

[mecha-nic-1798]

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#hate being the only female in the group and having to deal with constant unconscious sexism #spent the entire session today being talked over and my turn to RP being the one that people decide to clown through #like normally it’s fine and I can hold my own #but there are some days where I don’t want to be constantly fighting for my place at the table #like I want to be able to be a fucking player with the same amount of respect and cordiality given to the guys #and the worst part is they don’t even realize they’re doing it #it’s so second nature to them #for the most part these are all good people that I trust and consider friends #but throw the one loose Canon in the mix and suddenly I can’t get a fucking word in edge wise #tried venting to my bf about it after the session and he was like #“oh but we do that with everyone. k was just really worked up this session #and like how do I explain yeah it was worse this session than usual but I also deal with this ALL THE FREAKING TIME #like I love my grouo but even my usual guys struggled with this and it took me so long to realize that that wasn’t right #then throw in the powder keg that is k and the whole group dynamic shifts to be just slightly more sexist #ugh sorry but I just needed to vent #it’s so frustrating and I’m exhausted and fighting this all the time is fine until it isn’t. and today it isn’t #I’m just gonna go to bed tomorrow and try to survive work which I’m also dreading #ugh weekends should be longer #so tired of all of this