#they're going through a hard time and obvi i'm glad they feel comfortable coming to me for support.

[vulpinesaint]

throws a book at the wall i'm SO fucking tired of putting emotional effort into relationships only for it not to be reciprocated

#trying so fucking hard not to resent someone i really like rn. #they're going through a hard time and obvi i'm glad they feel comfortable coming to me for support. #but also... :( to have that be the only thing we really talk ab anymore... #miss them i guess. wanna talk like we used to. #nd to send support and an expression of how i rlly empathize bc i'm going through smth similar and get no response... #idk. sadbad. working on not letting those feelings fester #i just cannot be therapistfriend. i am Not therapist friend in most situations!!! #the problem is that i am a very good listener but not super approachable in that way to most people? #so i end up with one or two people with really big constant problems every year or so who put All of that onto me. #and i try SO fucking hard in my relationships with people i care about. #and that's SO much energy and emotional investment into their problems and it just isn't sustainable. #especially when i'm not getting it in return. #idk i probably just need to tell them what i'm feeling about. open and honest communication ftw #i'm sure they'll get it if i say 'i've had a lot of relationships in the past that devolved into me being the vessel for people's issues... #...and it's turned into me resenting them over time and i really don't want that to happen with us.' #'just need you to talk w/ me about other things sometimes' y'know? #i'm already drawing a lot of boundaries so that i don't throw myself into comforting and placating and facilitating someone's feelings #which DOES make me a good listener. but i can't be sacrificing myself for that. not rn anyway. #god but also i just want to have a fucking conversation sometimes is that too much to ask #i get that ur having a hard time emotionally but you could at least respond to the easy upbeat messages that i send you #specifically TO facilitate easy upbeat conversation that doesn't require emotional effort from you #or like. initiate conversation Ever when it's not around the negative situation u want to talk to me about. you know. #it's okay. i'll talk to them. just feeling frustrated. #i'm going to get bled fucking dry if i keep putting so much of myself into relationships without receiving anything in return #valentine notes