#think about a new year or be happy about it. life is thoroughly f ucked up... and its getting even harder to live in these stupid projects a

[taeofcups-moved]

Everything is dull.

#I can’t even enjoy upcoming ‘holidays’ because my life is stuck. literally because of this shitty situation. can’t enjoy anything. can’t be #‘happy’... can’t even be hopeful because of this all... my blood gets boiling so bad... because of this situation and the fact that she’s #laughing about everything and other people’s pains and no matter what anyone says it just wont get through to her... I don’t even know. #I feel so sick with emotion and it’s all spilling out. she is just so amused by other peoples pain and drama and she loves to be the cause #of it all— and she admits that lmao— to us but wont say it to the therapist even though she got us into this big mess... #I can’t look forward to the future or even think about ‘plans’ right now or christmas because we don’t even celebrate really. can’t even #think about a new year or be happy about it. life is thoroughly f ucked up... and its getting even harder to live in these stupid projects a #and soon enough we will be shoved out lmao because housing expects so much from us. its amazing. I’m just tired of all these emotions #swarming in and feeling lost... clueless.. hurt... scared... #Even if I tell people it doesn’t lighten the weight of what I feel. It feels like my life has been a big joke... #my life is a big joke... my life feels like a big joke #tae.txt