#of it all— and she admits that lmao— to us but wont say it to the therapist even though she got us into this big mess...

[hauntingblue]

"I saved you bc of what my actual father would think".... oof

#TO HIS KNEES!!!! #admit you are not my father akdhakdjaksjsksskkdkakskslala YEAAAAAHHHHHH #a good 'you remind me of your mother' come on..... #nvm i guess..... #its judge after all..... go to war...... #his heels with propulsors are too good lmao #talking tag #watching one piece #episode 840 #they dont know about using the smoke as cover..... well.... #REIJU!!!! and they leave her on her own..... bastards..... #REUJU FLY AWAAAAAY COME OOOOOON #luffy and sanji out hell yeah..... dobile attack.. #when luffy turns into gear fourth the 'tattoos' on his chest look like his fruit and even it is shown with it for a second.... ✍️✍️✍️ #sanji seeing gear fourth for the first time..... well and the others but they do not appreciate it #STUSSY CP0 AGENT????? BOMB FOR THE WORLD GOVERNMENT AJDHAKDHSKS #but she cant even soru to the falling box??? L #episode 841 #a comment saying luffy reminds them of ace in marineford with akainu..... yes but shut up #WDYM THE TITLE IS THE EXECUTIONS BEGIN. LUFFY'S ALLIES ARE ANNIHILATED? i mean it wont be true but lmao #fuck that ugly helmet... i wanna se the eyebrows #2 and 4 coming for his father and proudly saying its not bc they love him but bc of their job basically akdhsk #extra hachis?! well he was a line cook... #ichiji down???? HOW DID EVERYONE GET CAUGHT #TAMATE BOX???? ON ACCIDENT??? THANK NEPTUNE #jesus christ how many explosives did they put in there #oh the tower is going down!!!!! thats not a bomb thats a missile #we can go to the whole cake chateau and dance in the hotel room..... #mama to the sea?????? call me bege the way i am laughing hysterically #episode 842

[stainedstardom]

Quinn sets the reader up w Ethan in the bedroom ?? 👀 (could be an alternate thing where they're not 👻 lmao)

ugh how i love you and this request. i love how many requests I'm getting. 3rd ethan request

TRICKED

" y/n" i heard and i turned to see quinn. the girl had a mischievous smile on her face and I didn't like it.

"whats up q?" i asked her. i didn't know what else to say.

"can you come with me? im trying to get this door open but it wont budge at all" she stated and I should've thought about it but I didn't think it through.

"yeah sure" i said and i stood up from my seat as I followed after the girl. i looked at the doors until we got to one

"HEY LET ME OUT" i heard and I turned to quinn.

"is someone locked in there?" i asked her and she smirked and she shoved me into the room ,locking the door from the outside. my hands landed on someones chest and I looked up to see ethan. he looked down at me and I looked up at him.

"hey" he said , his breathing calming down and he looked calmer too.

"hi" i said and we heard quinn giggle outside of the door. his hands were rested on my waist but I didn't think of that right now. i had one thought on my mind, quinn and why the hell she had locked us in here together.

in truth it was obvious, i got drunk once and I told her that I liked him , I said I wouldn't tell him because it was clear that he didn't like me back but now I don't know. you wouldn't lock two people in a room together if they both didn't like each other the same way.

"quinn what the hell? let us out of here" I stated and she giggled more

"not until you admit that you like each other" she called and she walked away from the door. ethan laid his head on my back as I laid my head on the door and sighed.

"shes not going to let us out" he stated and i nodded

"okay well she already said it so i guess i will too. i like you ethan, i really really truly deeply like you, i like your smile and your hair and the way you care about the earth. i like the way you think and the way you smell and the way you feel. i like you" i exclaimed and he stared at me. i turned and looked him in the eyes.

"say something" i whispered and he launched forward as he kissed me and I kissed him back. i held his face as he held my waist, for someone whos a virgin and never had a girlfriend, he's good at this. a little too good but I didn't care. i ran my hands up into his hair and he pulled me closer into him.

"is this okay?" he whispered and i nodded, he put his hands under my shirt and he lifted it over my head. i put my hands on his waist and I did the same thing to him. his shirt was thrown across the room but it didn't matter. he lifted me up and I wrapped my legs around his waist as he brought me over to the bed. he laid on top of me and began to kiss down my chest. he left hickeys on my neck, chest and stomach

"y/n" he said and i looked down at him.

"i like you too by the way if you couldn't tell" he said with a smile on his face and I laughed as he did too. he brought himself back up to my height and kissed me again. i ran my hands through his hair as I began to leave hickeys on him too.

it felt nice , it felt good.

"be my girlfriend" he said as he kissed me and I kissed him

"i thought you would never ask" i stated with a laugh and he laughed too.

"well i had to at some point" he exclaimed

im just happy that quinn tricked us

A/N: bae i had so much fun writing this i cant even begin. i love you for this request

#ethan landry x reader #ethan landry #jack champion x reader #jack champion #scream fanfic #scream 6

[semisolidmind]

peaches: and now we're doing angry cuddles.

swk: grrrr... *grumbling*

peaches: why are you so mad? lmao

swk: *more grumbling*

peaches: all i'm doing is holding you...!

swk: *hugs tighter while still grumbling*

this is very much how og wukong acts after he and reader have been squabbling all day and he doesn't wanna admit she's right about whatever it is and he WONT but he STILL wants to be close to her while he sleeps and he's NOT gonna admit it out loud–

but he hates when they fight. he won't ever say it, but he's gotten so used to sleeping next to or at least adjacent to her that now he can't rest as comfortably without her.

#isekai'd to the west #ittw sun wukong x reader #hes just like that angry cat in the video #yes he wants held but hes gonna be mad about it the entire time

[notaspectator]

wow my hc’s for valorant are so strange LMAO

from “cypher regularly steals from Chamber; chamber is aware and honestly couldn’t be bothered” to “Omen has killed a handful of the other agents in a violent breakdown, and attempted to kill Sage on several occasions.”

why do they range from “lmao L chamber” to mental breakdowns, is this a reflection of my own mental state on a constant decline? either way i have to ramble

also: Sage has a specific padded room that is safety proofed when any of the agents are suicidal. Omen is the most familiar with it, obviously, but so are Cypher and Fade.

Omen would mention his box trips the least, while Cypher would stalk Sage’s recent mental evaluation reports and talk the others out of doing anything serious. for that reason, Cypher probably just offers to go on a walk with Omen, and Omen knows they’ll talk about it if they do. So sometimes Omen would say no, and then he would later go to Cypher (likely at 2 in the morning), and they would walk in the dark while Omen led Cypher through the trail they always walked together since it would be too dark. And Cypher would just listen and be there.

Omen is less violent ever since he and Cypher began these walks. Neither of them or Sage mention it, but Sage often mentions that “Cypher could use some help in his workshop,” when she notices Omen is getting antsy to encourage Omen to spend more time around Cypher since it does him good.

Cypher has died because he refused to back away from Omen during one of Omen’s violent episodes. The first time was the most emotional for them both. Cypher still flinches when Omen touches him sometimes or moves too quickly, so Omen mostly shows affection by nuzzling Cypher, or giving him things. (Depends how far along the ship is)

Brimstone tries not to send them on missions because Cypher often ends up not eating for days after watching Omen die. When they do, they aren’t allowed on the same site. Either way, Cypher does worse with Omen nearby because it makes him sick to think maybe Omen wont come back. Omen wouldn’t admit it, but seeing Cypher in Sage’s medical bay reminds him how fragile Cypher really is and it frightens him.

Viper refuses to tell Omen about his past because she’s scared that he’ll hate her for being the reason he lost it all. Omen has been barred from seeing her at several points for getting confrontational about it out of desperation.

Viper suffers from ✨ survivors guilt ✨ and believes she is fully responsible for what happened.

Cypher used to smoke. He stopped because the other agents kept pestering him about the smell, and Omen particularly hated it.

Omen is probably the only agent who hasn’t tried alcohol. This isn’t because he cant stand it, but because he doesn’t go out and refuses to attend parties; he doesn’t eat or drink anyways and has no interest in trying to. Cypher likes honey with his tea. idk. i just like the idea that Cypher dislikes artificial sweeteners.

Fade and Omen spend a lot of late nights together. Omen rather likes Fade’s haunt, and it seems to like him too. Fade has a couple of black gloves knitted for her from Omen, and Omen often finds mysteriously gifted yarn and other hobby materials that Fade gets him so that Omen doesn’t have to go out for them

end of headcannons for now

#valorant #omen #cypher #cyphmen #valorant viper #valorant omen #valorant cypher #valorant sage #valorant fade #valorant headcanons

[starfxkr]

https://www.tumblr.com/starfxkr/748130943606423552/httpswwwtumblrcomstarfxkr748126702259011584

after said girlie gets jumped shes stumbling her ass home w a bunch of knots on her head humiliated af n at this point kitten’s friends are just watching her and trap!jj putting their hands on each other— jj finally gets ahold of her by the neck or hair n dragging kitten back inside telling her friends to not hit her up for a couple days 😭 n theyre like trust us we wont like they know your ass is doneeee 🤦🏽‍♀️ cut to him plowing your shit on the couch keeping you in a headlock making you look at the mess you made, thumb in your ass bc hes fucking you there next bc he’ll be damned if you make him look like a bitch, so hes fucking you like one 🤷🏽‍♀️

hours later, kittens in some panties and his tshirt, eyeliner and mascara smeared, bruised, and all around fucked up— limping around his place picking up the mess she made bc jj’s making her n shes all whiny and pliant talking ab “m’sorry jayj” and “i wont do it againnn” but hes still fuckin pissed telling her “nuh uh, clean that shit up.” and she does bc thats her man!!!! n his phones blowing up bc his homeboys heard the cops showed up n they dont know if hes getting searched or locked up ??? but hes like “nah, my girl just pulled some crazy shit on me. we good bro.” n he starts talking ab her like shes not even there n thats when kitten cues the waterworks again n he sighs n gives in n starts kissing n loving on you again bc he rly cant stand to see his girl cry!!!!!

but fr the cops are used to their antics and nobody being able to snitch on kitten bc yes trap!jj will put a bullet thru your head no matter who you are… i love his crazy ass :(

her friends bein all "rip my girl shes not dead her nigga just mad at her" on their stories LMAO

but fr he fucks the shit outta her, like she pretty much passes out, he uses every hole to remind her that shes always gonna be his at the end of the day so she needs to stop acting fuckin crazy for once. she's an absolute mess after...her edges are all curled up, her face is covered in tears and makeup, lips bitten and everything and he's low-key kinda mean about making her clean but she kinda deserves it ngl she was breaking plates and shit.

when he's telling people what happened they're like "oh so same ol shit huh" especially john b who actually gets in jjs ass and tells him she wouldn't act like that if he stopped playin in her face and she can't hear him say all that but she's been crying by that point so the combo of john bs lecture and her tears makes him scoop her up so they can cuddle and watch tv on the couch <3

the cops neverrrr do anything because nobody ever admits shes been crashing out. even when they broke up and he messed around w some other girl, that girl knew not to snitch when kitten beat her ass because like always no matter how mad he gets he literally cannot live without her.

#✨.txt #jj maybank prompt #kitten!reader

[ladyosen]

Adeuce arranged marriage au plot bunny

Adeuce arranged marriage AU idea.  Arranged marriages are a common thing for mages in their world and Deuce and Ace’s moms arrange a marriage when they are like itty bitty babies.

They decide to bring them together every summer so that they wont be marrying complete strangers.  And maybe they’ll just naturally develop chemistry.

It goes about as well as one would expect lmao!  Really it’s a lot like canon, but maybe a little less hostile because kids.  But they kind of develop a like brother’s style relationship, you know as kids do.  Sometimes fighting like cats and dogs and other times they’re thick as thieves.

Then in middle school, Deuce goes through his deliquent phase and Ace is wtf.  and let’s face it, we know Ace wouldn’t tolerate that bullshit at all (even though he thinks Deuce looks really cool and kind of hot when he’s in bad boy mode.)  But they eventually have a big fight and both say some things and throw fists and spells and it’s pretty relationshipship ending?  And definitely engagement ending, right?

Like their parent’s don’t officially end it, but Deuce’s mom sees no point in going through with it when her son is being that kind of person.  Which probably feeds into the moment when he catches her crying over his bad behavior and has his big realization.  That and Deuce also has a lot of super truthful criticisms Ace made sticking in his head as well, so Deuce decides to change like in canon.

I’m not sure if during this time Ace dates that one girl he mentioned or not, because I actually feel like Ace is upright enough to not do that while engaged, though I can also see him being like “that’s something our parent’s decided.”  Also he’s mad and maybe curious and it goes like... in canon and he dumps her, also probably with a side realizing he’d have enjoyed hanging out with Deuce more.  And now Ace wishes he’d handled their fight differently even though he still thinks he was right.

Honestly, they’re both realizing they actually enjoyed each other’s company and those visits were the best part of summer vacation.  But well, they fucked it up and both have a little too much pride to just talk it out.  They don’t see each other that summer and it feels really damn lonely.

It’s only when they both get enroll in Night Raven College that they finally meet again.  Ace probably heard from his Mom about Deuce enrolling, but tried to play it off as nothing, because you know, we’re probalby not going to even be in the same dorm.  Deuce probably... some how managed not to hear it from his Mom.  She mentioned Ace was enrolled while he was half asleep or something and he forgot and she probably didn’t push him about it.

So when they see each other in the mirror chamber, they’re both dumbstruck.  Like... Ace is shocked by how much Deuce changed back to who he used to be.  Deuce is actually really glad to see Ace again and wants to like... clear the air and apologize.  But well they’re both prideful so it’s really awkward.  So like the prolouge chapter is them eventually clearing the air and making up and they like have big ex-boyfriend energy for the early part of the story (except they insist they’re not exes.)  Eventually at sometime someone (probably Cater) finds out they were engaged (Ace made some comment on magicam or something) and no they can never live it down.  All the couple jokes are like... amplifiied.

That said, I like to think they slowly work things out and realize they like each other and admit they actually do want to get married (I like to think sometime around ghost marriage because Deuce got jealous seeing Ace confess to Eliza and ended up owning up to it and teased Ace about his whole ideal relationship spiel and Ace admitted he had Deuce in mind during it) .

But they are still dumbasses and sometimes everyone wonders how they will survive marraige, but it’s also like, it works for them.

#adeuce #joy's twist thoughts #ace x deuce #twisted wonderland #twst #fanfic ideas #plot bunnies #arranged marriage au #deuce spade #ace trappola #someone write this for me #really this is lightly inspired by the beginning of the swan princess #just the whole beginning part because that is like a perfect arranged marriage scenario

[blujaishah]

hi! How’s it going?

This is a good opportunity to explain why I haven't been posting art dont read any of it if u dont want to it's more for me

Aside from normal academic stuff it's mostly because my school's literary magazine is allowing submissions and I really want to get my art in it (you're a published artist/author if you get in it)

Thing is last year I didn't get my art in it (I made a self portrait titled 'hearts' that I stupidly never took a picture of because I never got it back) but they had too many art submissions and not enough literary submissions so most of the art got cut from the magazine

So I think you can tell that I was pissy bc I really need to get my art in this thing

So now I have been focusing a lot on my submission because I'm writing something with it, it's gonna look like a children's picture book with multiple drawings and a story

I might post it here if it doesn't end up being too personal but prob not

It's taking me a while because one i want it to look good and two i want it to look painted and that isn't my normal style and three because I am not a writer

Another reason as to why I'm not posting is because I'm looking for jobs because ur girl does not have money and that's something I wanna prioritize

And the last reason is less fun and something that I genuinely need to type out and admit in writing is that my parents are absolute batshit crazy and I want nothing more than to complete my high school credits and leave my home town

My sister didn't mind leaving like I want to in fact she wanted to get as far away from us (specifically my dad) as possible but she has no problem having me with her and husband because they've somewhat settled down

She's traveled the world and she's pretty cool, she's at a very prestigious university, she went to Thailand in high school, she's been to Jordan, Lebanon, and a couple years ago she went to Palestine for a year and became a high school teacher there she's awesome

It would be amazing to go to college where she is (i'm in a position financially and academically where going out of state for college is very possible ESPECIALLY where she is) and also to get to know her husband more would be great cause we barely got to know each other when he was here

My brother on the other hand didn't want to leave our mom but really needed to get out of the house because of our dad so now he's in this really awkward position where he lives in an apartment literally a 15 minutes walk from our house and by extension his very comfortable bedroom, and also he comes home every night to see our mom

It absolutely sucks and I very much want to leave my home even though I say what my parents want me to say I'll do after high school when I'm around them

My dad is demented and I have no problem admitting that he's never abused me physically but he has verbally quite a few times and hinted at physical abuse and it gets to me a lot

mostly it's about academics which he is quite literally insane for thinking I don't do well academically

There's a lot of stuff with him that's god awful and i wont get into it because that's what I do in a therapeutic environment which I cant get without being gaslit by my family so yeah

I can't draw anything except what I have to with all this it's a lot to be thinking about because I'm still just a kid and idk i can't handle it maturely so I have to write about it on tumblr lmao

#personal #thx for asking and sorry i used this as an excuse to rant

[powerpolyculeshowdown]

Lime for the poll runners’ ask game?

Lime -> participant(s) you’re rooting for the most?

i don't want to sway the votes so i won't do any propaganda for them after the poll starts BUT it's Wu Zetian/Li Shimin/Gao Yizhi from Iron Widow i just love the way their relationship develops so much and as someone whos unable to actually pick up a book and focus on it, the fact that i read iron widow in 4 days is amazing im still proud of that as silly as it is

yknow what ill use this as an opportunity to ramble about them askdgakdjk spoilers ahead but ill try to keep the major stuff out

for context the book has pacific rim style mechas, but instead of being drift compatible or whatever its usually a male pilot and his concubine whose life force he usually drains in order to pilot the thing, but theres a LOT of propaganda that makes girls want to be concubines, or families might wanna send their daughters for the money. im simplifying it a LOT especially cause theres more info u only learn later on as zetian herself finds out but anyway

at the start of the book zetian and yizhi are besties who obviously have feelings for each other. zetian is poor while hes very rich so their friendship is kind of a secret and they meet in the woods which i think is cute, point is its p clear zetian tries to mantain a distance, not allowing herself to admit her feelings. for reasons i wont say zetian decided to become a concubine to one of the like bigger more badass guys even if she doesnt believe the propaganda and knows she might die, she only tells yizhi this the day before

he shows up at her house the next day begging her family to let him marry her?????? which is sweet because he wants to protect her but that isnt gonna work bestie sorry she's a woman w a mission

so anyway she goes to the concubine thing and shes surprisingly powerful "for a girl" which yeah thats a super common trope but shes so much more than just the strong protagonist. shes extremely powerful in every sense of the word imo and i love her so much and i wish the world hadnt been so cruel that she had to become so strong. but anyway the guy she wants to pilot w picks her. MAJOR SPOILER they have to pilot the mecha on day 1 cause they're under attack and uhhh she kills him lol lmao she drains her life force instead which supposedly is UNHEARD OF

so they cant just kill her off cause that'd look bad instead they send her to be the concubine of the strongest guy (all of his concubines die after 1 fight) and thats Li Shimin my beloved my little meow meow hes looked down on and kinda treated like an animal cause hes a criminal and the only reason he gets to be a pilot is his powerful qi. anyway shes forced to live w him and turns out hes just a lil guy. like hes very big and scary looking but hes just a tired man pls he needs a break. she fucking survived piloting w him which nobody expected. so now theres a lotta stuff going on i wont get into but some ppl arent happy w this duo cause they're both very powerful and not exactly happy to serve. and Shimin has a drink problem.

IN ENTERS GAO YIZHI hes back babey!!! and he decides to help shimin w his alcoholism. its funny cause when they first meet his crush on li shimin is so fucking obvious zetian is like "huh i always suspected he liked guys too" but li shimin is just pissed cause this is the guy who wants to make him stop drinking

theres like 1 moment of jealousy that i can remember when li shimin realizes zetian and yizhi have a thing going on but its settled very quickly and they all kiss.

back to the drift compatible thing: at one point in the final battle zetian and shimin need more power and yizhi literally lends them his qi (its extremely rare for a third person to help) and its beautiful and they are so in love and i cant wait for the sequel

idk if any of that is coherent i kinda stopped thinking and just typed sorry for rambling on ur ask im just very passionate about them i love them so much i love iron widow so much i love xiran jay zhao so much (the writer) (you might know them from the live action mulan analysis video that went viral back when that movie came out) (check out their yt channel)

#long posts #canonpropaganda #i guess i should tag it as that #polyasks #they are my emotional support traumatized throuple and i want to be the 4th member of the polycule #oh also zetian is physically disabled (mobility issues and implied chronic pain from lotus feet) and at one point questions her gender #(she might be nb) AND she's probably bi cause she does mention she likes women too #i love her so much

[vacantgodling]

For the battery asks: 49%

thank you!!! tcol answers out the ass today :3c

49%. Are there any behaviors that your other characters do that irk your character? Is your character ever vocal about their annoyance?

i’ll do this for the main five so;

piper gets super annoyed with whatever Complex san has going on and the two of them clash often. she’s very vocal about being pissed off and annoyed by the shit that san does lmao. she’s also very irritated by illiana because she always acts like she’s better than her and is always around keevan and clinging off him (and she knows it’s jealousy she just won’t admit to that out loud); she does make that known but it’s a bit more difficult to DO anything about it bc illiana is a noble tm.

deux doesn’t tend to get annoyed Often but she does get annoyed more in random bursts or related to specific situations. erik’s closeness with her brother actually does annoy her in part because she misses what she and her brother had but also because he wont ever give her information about why dion is Like This. so it just irritates her but she keeps it to herself.

san is annoyed by A LOT OF PEOPLE and they’re very vocal about it shdhdhdj. piper for always challenging them and getting in their face, clear because tldr: he has everything they want out of life but he “threw it away” (it’s more rage at him than irritation and a lot of projection but we move), their sister moira for also having what she wants and being used as a litmus test for how good they are no matter how much they fight to stand on their own merit, and moira’s friends (jagoda especially but karenza eryn and kiba also) for being friends with her at all. san is a super bitter person and that’s part of their arc: working through that shit.

clear is VERY SLIGHTLY annoyed by san and deux on occasion but he never says anything because he knows it’s not their fault and they don’t understand/it’s his issue to deal with. deux because of her crush and closeness to forte, and san for just… projecting onto him basically. but he’s not really annoyed enough to talk about it bc he just hates himself more in response lol,,,

forte doesn’t have anyone that annoys him really tbh. but if he did he would be upfront about it.

#s: tcol

[beefboyandbabygirl]

my fic timelines (for fun) !

SPOILERS FOR ALL MY CURRENTLY RELEASED FICS, just thought this would be fun for anyone that enjoys my stuff. You can kinda get an idea of what the fic is before it's y'know the full, completed thing. Sometimes I write down specific quotes I want in the story, and most of the time I also plot out the metaphors I want to use and stuff to sort of keep everything connected (but i have decided to forgo the metaphor-plotting). Also sometimes I end up changing things from how it's originally intended (just in case u read smth and ur like "thats not the way it was!"). the girl code one is soooar funny frs

*also shiver me timbers doesnt have a timeline bc its so short lol

GOODBYE, FOURTH OF JULY:

party-party sad

how yn and chan met + how yn is avoiding him during classes now, purposefully making herself late so she can sit with someone else and chan watches her intensely across the lecturehall 

chan FINALLY gets yn to his house while hes getting ready for a date. theres like a semi confrontation where hes like “i can tell your lying u kno” og yn er like… “no im nooooot” 

yn is soooooo depressed. so seungkwan and soonyoung and host an intervention (seungkwan is a second opinion)

chan develops a theory that someone mightve harassed yn at the party and he has heard women can b embarrassed ab that type of thing 

chan finally rips yn to his house and hes ANGRY bc shes been ignoring him and shes scared and feels bad and they have this big argument (“WHY WONT U LET ME HELP YOU”)  where she ends up confessing and chan realizes in that moment that hes in love with her too

super hot sex w praise and sweetness and desperation TIHIHIHIHIH

JUDAS IN THE WINDOW:

Yn comes home, thinks about chan blah blah sees him in window

Yn explroes the suburban ass town, sees the church is drawn to it. Is surprised to see chan in there WEARING A PRIEST UNIFORM. Naur. They talk a little. Sees the judas stained glass. Chan invites her to eat at his house also invites her to like church get together in 2 days

Yn eats dinner at his house, finds out he BOUGHT IT OFF HIS PARENTS WHEN THEY WANTED TO MOVE. CRAZY. A lot of tension and maybe a small argument bc of their differences and how yn kinda judges him for staying the same in the same place and how chan kinda judges her for being a whore n shit 

Yn still comes to the get together much to chans surprise! She keeps trying to apologize but ppl KEEP getting in the way! So chan is like just wait here until after the thing and shes like ok lmao. 

Chan and yn sex scene but first they gotta like. Talk out their differences. “I always felt a bit like judas” 

“I can’t tell if its you or god I turned my back to” you laugh

He watches you with an unreadable expression. “Maybe both,” he whispers. 

GIRL CODE:

at a party, yn and the girlies and dare i say mingyu find woozis book hes always writing in. after much debate, they decide to open it, and what in gods name. its the girl code. the girlies r outraged. thats for girls only. they dont confront woozi, as he has left (he forgot the book lmao).

yn and the girlies confront woozi after class in a secluded classroom. they interrogate. woozi, usually cold and cynical, cracks under the pressure of vicious angry girls and admits. hes writing it down so he knows how to approach his crush. yn is sad. 

yn thinking over her relationship with woozi. yeri (roommate) is annoyed bc she can hear her thinking (outrageous). flashback to the party where woozi #fucked her and shes wondering if it was really that long ago (it was). 

the girls have adopted woozi, and yn kinda thinks its torture bc now she is sad around him (and v insecure bc DOES NO ONE WANT HER?). but they coo and they love him bc hes such a sweet boy, and they’re giving him tips while theyre doing their makeup for a night out  and hes writing it down diligently. he asks her if shes ok. shes a little taken aback. yeah i am. 

another night of helping woozi and adopting him. mingyu wants 2 join but hes NOT one of the girls and hes all whiny and sad about it bc he does NOT want to go out with seungcheol and jeonghan again theyre mean. too bad. ur not woozi. this is for woozi and girls only. i imagine woozi pulls yn to the side and asks her directly like. i know ur not okay. i can tell. there’s something wrong. yn is like. i dont want to talk about it. woozi is like fine queen. 

mingyu (who is closest to yn) WANTS TO KNOW WHAT IS GOING IN WITH THE ADOPTED WOOZI THING. hes asking her over lunch and shes all angry ab it. she finally spills that hewas writing down notes for his crush and now shes sad bc  she kinda likes him and thought they had smth going on. mingyu is shook. he partially thinks the whole girl code book is rlly funny but he also feels bad. he buys her a froyo. 

at another party and mingyus mission is to get yn laid so shes no longer insecure and so she can get over woozi. introduces her to wonwoo and they talk at the party. while theyre talking yn notices woozi storming off from the party and putting two and two together, she figures things probably went south w his crush. she catches up to him outside the party and hes all angry and buff and doesnt want to talk to her. a heated discussion w jealousy and woozi finally confesses by being like. ok wait and he goes into a random garden and picks out a couple of flowers and start reciting the confession script on his phone. yn is like. noar way. shes shook and doesnt say anything and so woozi starts being all apologetic like. i know its not roses and i know its not exactly the setting you guys told me- yn kisses him tihi. they kiss then have the sex. its great. jealous sex. yum.

I ❤️ DILFS / GOOD GIRL:

Bff Giselle convinces yn to go to seokmins party invite (and bring her) and also idk maybe seokmin and vernon and her as a kid flashbacks? - establishes yns character, and also seokmins kindaaa

At the party and jeonghan flirts w her haaaarddd and seokmin is like lmao stay away from her and then brings her to his room where she’s safe and they talk ab what they’ll do in the fall break and they realize they’ll both be at dorm during holiday and then they’re like we should hang out fo sho

They hang out the first day and there’s like an ooopsie moment like hm idk what yet, maybe like seokmin remembers from childhood that’s she’s ticklish and he tickles her and they’re wrestling and he ends up on top of her (sexual tension tihi)

They hang out again and they drink? and yn ends up spilling that she’s bad at masturbating…. N he teaches her while they watch porn….. hot (smut frs) 

Next day again and yn is insisting on returning the favor but seokmin is v v sweet and in luv n is like noarrr but yn insists and then she gives him a blowjob  

Yn facetimes vernon and it makes her feel like a whore and tells him she doesn’t want to do it anymore over text (she’s afraid if she sees him shell abandon all modesty and jump his bones) and they don’t see each other that day - conflict 

Seokmin at her door. She only lets him in when he says sum shit like “I need to know I didn’t make you uncomfortable”. Then they confess their feelings and they have fr sex (also virgin mode, #firsttime, #dickomode) 

i hav 2 more completed timelines, but the fics arent done yet >:)))

#personal #dickomode #why am i like this

[quinnick]

hi. IT headcanon dump. lets go.

ok so hear me out

eddie had seasonal allergies. eddie also has one of those tiny achu sneezes. so for literally three months a year, he's plagued by richie every time he sneezes.

also idk why but stan looks like someone who would sew. i have no idea why. it might be the projection, BUT I DIGRESS. so when eddie's fanny pack breaks, or richie lost one of his ludacris button ups, or literally anyone needs something, he sews them one. its obviously very shabby, and they pretend they wont wear it, but eventually stan sees them wearing them more and more. no one really acknowledges it, but stan cannot stop smiling whenever he sees them using the things he made them. i dont know where the fuck this came from but its canon now.

one time theyre about to go somewhere important (idk where) and eddie panics like 'oh fuck do i look ok???' so richie pulls out a piece of paper and (horribly) draws eddie. its literally just a stick figure with lines for hair. but richie looks so proud of it so eddie's like 'thanks man'. he keeps the drawing under his bed (he would have hung it on the walls, but he'd have never heard the end of it).

its sort of an unspoken thing that if anyone in the losers club has nightmares, or is feeling lonely, they can show up at any other members house. no questions asked. sometimes they watch a movie, sometimes they have some snacks, and sometimes they just lay in silence, grateful theres someone there.

mike is the undefeated champion of dig dug at the arcade. richie is pissed. (mike: 'i guess its just beginners luck.' richie: *explodes*)

bev likes to chew on mint leaves

billy has a sketchbook where he draws all the members of the losers club. it will never be seen by anyone other than billy.

eddie still says gazebos instead of placebos and nobody ever corrects him

somehow ben always wins at rock paper scissors. no one has ever beat him. no one knows how he does it. hes banned from rock paper scissors now.

richie likes to sing. however. he is horrible at singing. he sings all the time.

bev made flower crowns for everybody before she left for portland. everyone kept them. theyll never admit it.

eddie likes to fold little origami things whenever he's stressed or just needs a break.

so thats all lmao theyre kinda bad but im tired and i dont care.

this will be the first of many IT rambles. you've brought this upon yourself.

THESE ARE NOT BAD !! I am kissing this hcs on the mouth. I love them so much !! Oh my god, Stan sewing is now canon to me and I am blocking and reporting anyone who doesn't believe it (/hj)

Mike being the best at dig dug has me rolling. Richie totally trains for a whole week and finally beats Mike's score just to have Mike beat it effortlessly again when he visits the arcade again. (Wait, I should find this one fanfic I found where Eddie is cracked at video games but lets Richie win because he has a massive crush on him)

Richie and me are once again the same person.

Bill being banned from rock paper scissors is 100/10. Bev making flower crowns had me sobbing. Eddie making origami is so him.

Also, I like the idea that he says Gazbos all the way until someone finally realizes what he is saying when they are all like 45.

#Ask #Moots hc #moots #quinnick answers #it (movie) #IT #it (2017) #mike hanlon #beverly marsh #ben hanscom #stanley uris #richie tozier #eddie kaspbrak #bill denbrough #The Losers club #tw caps

[beetlepuff]

Sapphic senate dealing with the other girls insecurities/giving confidence boosts

Robin protection squad going about her getting insecure.  (This is definitely not because i was gonna do the sapphic senate but can’t figure out how to write robin yet)

Chrissy ‘aggressive compliments’ Cunningham, I’m sorry is that some sort of self doubt? No no she will angry yell at you with love until you believe it yourself.

Vickie is an lmao mood type of gal. She would awkwardly try to comfort you and then end up making a dumb joke and ends up accidentally making them feel better anyways

Nancy is the voice of reason with this. Feelings aren’t her favorite thing to talk about but she’s gotten so much better at it. She would go about it logically and end up getting all soft

Ex:

Robin getting insecure because she’s ‘not as pretty as the other girls’

Chrissy: “??!!?!?! Are you kidding me right now? ROBIN RENEE BUCKLEY-“ “That’s not my middle name?” “-YOU ARE SO FUCKING PRETTY ITS INSANE. I WILL SAY IT AS MANY TIMES AS I NEED TO FOR YOU TO GET IT THROUGH YOUR THICK SKULL THAT YOU ARE ONE OF THE MOST STUNNING PEOPLE ON THIS PLANET!” “but-“ “No buts.! You are so gorgeous . That’s it. Final verdict. Im right. No argument necessary. >:(“ “I…” knows she wont get anywhere arguing ab this “thanks” :D “ok i need to go feed jerry, i got sidetracked and im a bit late on feeding time, don’t want him to eat us or the other snakes yk” gives her a kiss on the cheek and goes.

vickie: “Wait what no u have nothing to be insecure about” “You’re one to talk” “Touché. But not really because i have reason, you, on the other hand, are so pretty.” “And you’re not?” “No :). But. Does that mean you agree? You think you’re rlly pretty?” “No :)” “But you aree! God you are so pretty. Making me weak in the knees when i see you like dayum!” And she manages to pull a sorta confused/if you say so chuckle out of her and counts it as a win.  “And don’t even get me started on how hot you are. I could go on and on but thats not what this is about” “Cause there’s a difference?” *unimpressed* “Duh and you are winning in all departments my friend” “Damn Vicks, keep talking like that about me and i might start to think you have a crush on me” “You bet your ass i do. And I’d love to take you out but only if you admit you are rlly pretty” “I- fine. I guess im really..pr- no see it feels weird saying it out loud” “But you admit it and its progress i am taking it!! Victory is mine!” “Was that.. was that a pun?” “Yes and it was hilarious, pretty girl”

(they’re already dating, the crush thing is jokes btw)

Nancy: “What? Honey no, you are so pretty.” “But i don’t feel pretty Nance” “I promise you you are. You don’t have to wear skirts or something to be pretty, your face is doing all the work for you.” “You have to say that, your my girlfriend” “Yeah and im dating you for a reason. Many reasons in fact, but your prettiness level definitely doesn’t hurt. It’s okay if you feel insecure from time to time, everyone does sometimes. But until you believe it yourself im going to have to believe it for you, and i do, we all do. Because you, Robin Buckley, are the prettiest of them all” without thinking she just pulls her into a hug and kisses the spot she can reach when she looks up on her neck/jaw. Robin sighs and pulls her in tighter “and they say im the one that talks a lot” Nancy lets her jaw drop “that wasn’t even a lot!” “Mhm” “Whatever, let me talk about things im passionate about.” “Always”

#the sapphic senate #sort of #robin protection squad #first Time actually going thru on writing and posting my thoughts ab them #they are all so gay your honor #so am i

[deviantartdramahub]

Damn last time I posted here I said I'd see you the next evening but now I'm here 3 days later. Sorry about that XD

Life really will screw you over like that.

Anyways, now to the points...

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"Also I agree with the user, show proof or shut your mouth you dumbass." Lol that sure is ironic, considering the fact you give no proof of any of the claims in your post, especially when I know the stuff about Club and Tri is wrong, and you're also supporting the Probium person when all they do is scream baseless slander and isn't even brave enough to fully admit they're against Club, when it's obvious they are. Probium, very much like you, doesn't want to hear anyone but themself and spouts whatever bullshit they want. (And I'm not sure what pronouns Probium uses, so I'm just gonna use they/them for them for now. If someone informed me what pronouns they use, that'd be helpful. Bc I'm not gonna unblock them just to check lol.)

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Nah the reason he was banned is bc you petty losers mass-reported him, smh. "I wont mention they are for their safety" You only care about their safety when they're on your side, hm? "Cuz tri twat stalks this blog like the petty bitch she is." Uhh no??? You're the ones who harassed her and the reason why her and everyone else against you looks at your blog is bc we want to prove your shit wrong and stop you. Keep crying over people defending themselves, lol. " those rp journals have been deleted, alongside his ‘pushing his special needs agenda woa is me boo hoo’ journals." Special needs agenda?? HELPPP these people are making up the new "gAy AgEnDA" over their bigotry LMAOOO. "Dont bother coming back, we will always be watching," Honey you can't say that then tell me you aren't creepy, obsessive stalkers lol. "WE WON." Yeahhh no you didn't, Club's friends, such as me, will always support him and remember him fondly. I'm still on DA and contributing to his group and also speaking up for him here, and you can't do nothing about it. Club also has amazing friends who miss him and still want to talk to him. And despite how big you talk, there's nothing you can do about it. It's pathetic.

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Ain't no way DADramaNow expects Club to be able to identify every single one of Sam's THOUSANDS of alts lmao. How the Hell is someone ALWAYS supposed to know???

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Lol here's an instance of DADramaNow attacking a kid just bc he's friends with Club, and also calling him a "pedo in training"?? Ew. "hey robert, if ya hate pedos, why ya hanging with club pedoverse? " Hmm maybe bc he's not a pedophile?? And once again, if Club WAS a manipulator and groomer, that would be fucking horrible to blame and attack the kids for being manipulated. Face it DADramaNow, you aren't the good guy either way.

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Proof, lol? And remember sweetie, screenshots don't count!! <3

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Tbh I wouldn't want to be in those groups anyways if they believed your ableist bullshit.

Anyways that's enough for now, I'll HOPEFULLY be here again tomorrow evening, bye Tri!

Looks like those criticizing our existence just want leverage, as always.

[maddsmallow]

rambles about my thoughts on dbh under the cut that im not gonna tag bc i dont want people who disagree to come at me lmao

idek how to start this. i think one important thing to point out tho is that, that one post that was like “writing is like the adult version of playing with dolls” totally blew my mind when i first read it and i absolutely apply that to fictional characters. they are just little dolls humans create to reflect ourselves and tell stories and i think that’s absolutely brilliant

okay so anyways. basically it’s pretty obvious that connor is generally the most liked character in the game and like. yes i am part of that group lmao. and i think the reasons for that is because connor has to spend pretty much the whole game trying to figure out who and what he is and/or wants, whereas kara and markus pretty much know immediately--breaking through their programming and becoming deviant happens at like, what, their second or third part? connor has to spend all this time interacting with others and trying to process all this new information, and we get to see him come face to face with all this stuff that contradicts what his programming it telling him, and We Angsty Bitches love that shit lmaooo. it leaves connor’s characterization a little more open-ended, whereas kara and markus are pretty set in who they are, which ties into the “playing with dolls” thing. you can do more with connor without going completely against canon than you can with kara and markus, you have more leeway with his character. also i think he can be seen as like, uh, idk how to word it, autistic-coded? which is def super relatable

but i think kara’s part of the story is totally slept on!!! i mean i didnt appreciate is much at first either, but then i had a conversation with my older brother about it and it completely changed my view on it. he asked me what i thought about the plot twist of alice being an android and i was like eh yeah i saw it coming, i dont feel like it did much for the story, i didnt get the point. (and admittedly i am very awful with seeing the deeper meaning of things until told. it’s something i recognize and am trying to work to get better at) and he said [shortened] “up until the reveal, the message was ‘androids are worthy of consideration, and here is an example of an android going above and beyond to care for this human girl.’ after the reveal it became ‘androids are worthy of consideration, and YOU want them to be safe and live happily.’“ totally blew mind. the story makes you take a step back and confront your biases and potential bigotry--you either have to admit that you think all the effort wasnt worth it because alice was an android and come face to face with your prejudice, or make you admit that all that time and effort was just as worthwhile as if she were human and you do care about androids. and then of course, this is all an allegory for real life bigotry against persecute minority groups. so i just feel like kara’s storyline importance to the game is just so fuckin underappreciated.

markus is the one one i have only a little to say about, and that’s just because the angry violent route is seen as a bad route and like. i get it. violence bad n all, but im also kind of with north. the anger is justified in my opinion. i mean idk if that’s just because im so fucking sick and tired of seeing my trans and queer siblings die by the hands of bigots and seeing my home country becoming overrun with fascists who wont and dont listen to peaceful protests, but idk. the whole “violence is bad wahh” thing feels icky to me. i mean i do think it has the same outcome (depending on how you play connor’s storyline) as a peaceful protest where the US has to recognize that androids are equal people, but still. idk. i think his story presenting that dilemma of peaceful or violence for the right to live is very important tho, especially is this day and age, considering, yknow. yknow.

anyways

also this is hard to explain, and im very worried about being misunderstood or having words put into my mouth, but i think connor and hank are both good as father/son or boyfriends. this literally isnt even an incest think oh my god, i just think that depending on how you view their interactions, both ways of putting them together is great. it’s the “playing with dolls” thing again, just give them the right context and smooching can be great or found family can be great, i love and appreciate both !!

okay thanks for coming to my ted talk i think thats all i wanted to say

edit: OH ONE MORE THING i dont get the love for gavin or rk900. i mean gavin is essentially a huge racist asshole and as far as i know you see rk900 for like 20 seconds. i mean maybe it does fall back into the “playing with dolls” thing where they have so little to their character that it’s easy to just project a bunch of stuff onto them and turn them into whatever you went (like, turning gavin into NOT a huge racist asshole) but idk. it’s not for me personally. u guys have fun tho

ok bye

#the blogger says words

[falcqns]

what are you relationships with the other avengers like in your Marvel dr? who are you closest to? Does Bucky have Alpine the cat?

hey bby!! i'd love to talk about this!

i'll give you a list of the ones i talk to/interact with the most, and this will be about my regular marvel dr, not my winnie one since i speak about that all the time, and have

Bucky Barnes: we're engaged and i'm pregnant with his baby (its a girl, no name yet lol)! we met during the mission to save my parents, and bonded after when he had a meltdown and i was the only one who could comfort him (something that intrigued wanda and i explained that i have an autistic brother and am in testing myself in my cr after i told her i shifted), and we started dating after i jumped in front of a bullet for him (it missed both of us, but all i saw was a bullet heading towards my comfort character and i acted without thinking), and have been together ever since!

Natasha Romanoff (yes she's alive): we're close, and we share a ballet studio in the compound! she helped a lot in finding my mom and stepdad, and accepted me into their family immediately! she's also wanda's adoptive mom!

Steve Rogers: we barely have a relationship. we met once on a mission to the 1950's, and i screamed in his face and berated him. he came back recently, and absolutely destroyed Bucky's progress mentally and isn't currently living in the compound lol so we don't talk

Tony Stark (also alive): we have a good friendship! he was the one that located the compound my parents were being held in, and was the first one to comfort Bucky after he had a meltdown on the jet back. he's provided us with so much and protected us, and i have great respect for my dr version of him (not MCU tony)

Clint Barton: my bio dad! amazing human, and wasn't mad in the slightest when it was revealed that he was my dad (i can go further into my backstory if you want!) and all he told Mama was "you did what you had to do to protect our daughter. how could i be mad about that?"

Wanda Maximoff: legally Steve and Natasha's daughter! her and i are the same age (i aged her down so she was only 15 during AOU), and we're best friends! such a sweetheart, and didn't deserve Steve leaving. she forgave him immediately when he came back, but we all know (her included) that she only did it so she didn't lose another parent. she only ever has nice things to say to others, and the sweetest sight is seeing her curled up in Natasha's arms doing skin to skin (happens daily). she's a shifter as well (my mcu dr is her cr thought!) so we talk about that often!

Vision: i adore him. so protective of Wanda, and you can tell how much he loves her but wont tell her because he's scared of hurting her (he did it once when mind controlled by Ultimo) so he's literally the embodiment of She by Dodie rn but is getting better thanks to his therapist! (yes even computers need therapy)

Peter Parker: we would have been almost the same age if it wasnt for the blip :( but we're still besties! they've recently come out as bisexual and nonbinary and i adore them. has the biggest crush on Flash but wont admit it LOL

Bruce Banner: love this man with my whole heart. he was apprehensive of Bucky at first, but it was just because he was scared of Hulk hurting him. after an incident with the Hulk, they grew closer, and Bruce willingly protects him with his life.

Hulk: my big green baby. i love him with my whole heart. he used to be really loud, but after he scared Bucky and sent him into a meltdown, he was very gentle around him, and him and Bucky are play mates when Buck's regressed. Walker said something horrible about Bucky that I wont repeat (it was very ableist) Hulk saw Bucky regress immediately because of the hurt, came out, and scooped Bucky up and moved him before yelling at Walker, and literally said "YOU NO HURT THE BABY!" and it was so cute lmao

Yelena: bff. that all i have to say about her. we're the same age as well, and was formally adopted by Melina and Alexei (along with Natasha even thought she was in her early 30's), and they all live at the compound in an apartment style room!

Kate: bff as well! we met after the events of hawkeye (it still happened, i just altered the events slightly), and clicked immediately! she doesn't live at the compound, but was taken in by Jack Duquesne, who she calls Dad and who is putting her through college!

Shuri: also bff! Bucky's arm was malfunctioning so we went to see her and thats when her and i met for the first time (yes i did cry when i saw T'Challa for the first time thats how Wanda found out i was shifter) and we clicked immediately. her, Wanda, Peter, Yelena, Kate and I are all in a friend group w MJ, Ned, Flash (leave me alone abt this one) and my best friend from my cr (wont be mentioning her name, soz)

i think thats everyone! i didn't mention my mom or stepdad because they're 'technically not in the MCU' (adrianne palicki was at disney upfront yesterday though so i'm hoping that means a possible return for her as Bobbi!!!) and i've talked about our relationship before!

and yes, Bucky has Alpine! when he found her, he was out getting me tacos at 3 am (pregnancy cravings ok) and found her, close to death after being attacked by another feral cat. she was tiny, around 8 weeks old, and he just scooped her up, and brought her back to the compound. i'm a trained vet (its my reality and i went overboard with my education while scripting lol) and i managed to save her, and Bucky decided that it would be adorable to raise her with our baby since they were roughly the same age (i was between 8-12 weeks pregnant at the time) and we adopted her! she's 8 months now and the sweetest little cat i've ever met, and loves her sister already!

if you have any other shifting questions, let me know and i'll answer!! i love talking about shifting!! <3 i know i didnt talk about my relationships with every one but the post is getting long, so if you want to know about someone specific, let me know!

#ava's anons #shifting consciousness #shifting to marvel #shifting to the mcu #shifting realities #shiftingblr #reality shifting #shifting #ava's a shifter

[user98347501938475]

what a fun weekend i am currently having. friday morning woke up to no cuddles and steve on his phone he couldnt even look up to say good morning. then i made the mistake of kicking his laundry basket out of my way in the hallway twice so that means i deserve to get some nasty text messages at 6am. great way to start my day having to apologize, again, with no apology to me for anything, for "already ruining his day" and his reply, "you ruin most of em."

this text thread caused me to go into another spiral of depression, suicidal ideation, that i called my mom later that night and ask her to take me to the hospital because i wanted to hurt myself or go get blackout drunk. 22 days sober today btw woohoo!

so after being given the silent treatment all day, i am sitting crying in the office and steve took himself out to sushi, arcade, and movie date. not a care in the world that i said i was feeling suicidal and wanted to kill myself. but my mistake i made the comment you win and all i get in response is doesnt feel like winning. jesus fucking christ your wife is telling you she wants to end her life you dont give a fuck. honestly that was it for me. i dont think any amount of counseling will save this shit show.

for context when steve threatened to take his life early on in our relationship, i was threatening to call the police i was freaking out banging on his door and took all the fucking shoelaces out of his shoes because he said he had just tried to hang himself in his closet. then i stayed with him to make sure he wasnt going to do anything. and this same man doesnt even ask or care where i will be when i tell him ill be gone for three days, a 72 hour hold possibly.

so my mom and the dr said i would be okay to go home and be under supervision for the night LMAO still gonna wanna die tomorrow but okay cool. literally unless you have active cuts or say im going to go home and kill myself they wont give you any help. and just a thought. people who want to die, me specifically, is embarassed that i am such a failure at life that youre going to make me admit to you that i dont want to be here out loud and then be told youre okay go home. i just dont understand how there is no mental help for anyone living in this shithole society.

my future will be divorced and living in a little shitty apartment by myself and never leave and never make any new friendships or relationships because i cannot make friends and date. i have way too much fucking trauma. i mean my husband doesnt care if i die and my only friend, a gay man, but man none the less, cant even drive home to be with me because hes at his moms house getting drunk,(( his mom who wouldnt move her fat ass to bail him out)) .has been using me as a gooddamn vent stress doll because he was going to be arrested and i told him he would be arrested he didnt listen to me or take any of my advice. this friend needs a whole post of his own. but anyway, guess who was taking care of his loud annoying untrained chiuaua until fucking midnight and driving to lake elsinore to get your truck and then go to the bail bonds place, all of which was extremely stressing and then he gets out keeps me up until 2 am to tell me all about how horrible it was, congratulations welcome to the club of being arrested, maybe just maybe you should have listened to your "friend" when she told you how horrible it would be. but youre a fucking moron and thought the cops woould be NICE to you wtaf.

i dont even have the energy or like xmas spirit to put up my tree. i sure as fuck dont want to celebrate the holiday with steve. he cant even understand that i wanted to visit his family just not during the holiday hysteria. so what does steve do? he buys us $2000 worth of plane tickets to leave DEC 23 and return the 27. UHM WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK. i guess you heard me but just dont fucking care what i want ever. or his concern for my arthritus and nausea he doesnt fucking care. HIS family is more important than his wife, obviously how could i be so stupid. i will never be anyone prioirty i have to make myself the priority. and he was shady as fuck acting like i thought we were on the same page...... yeah maybe buit we're reading two spearate fucking books dude. idfk how you could think my wife said she doesnt want to travel during the holidays means leave 2 fucking days before christmas.

so now hes going by himself and leaving the day after christmas at noon and then returning NEW YEARS EVE at ELEVEN FUCKING THIRTY AT NIGHT. boy better get a uber home. dont even fucking ask me to drive to LAX or JWA or wherever the fuck you land because you havent even told me which airline you booked, he probably doesnt even know. the way he buys plane tickewts its just whats cheapest on the day i wanna go idgaf about how horrible the time or airline is. but yeah glad that our first new years as a couple, married as well, that we could have had a new years kiss. but you planned to land on new years eve. he just doesnt think or care about anything i care or think about. we are so fucking wrong for each other.

im so glad i can write here since i only get therapy once a week and steve said he doesnt want to hear me "trauma dumping" or if hes already heard the story he doesnt want to hear it again. thank goodness for the void of internet.