#thinking abt how he risked himself in IW and not wanting to do that again

[theofreakingbell]

thinking abt Thor being raised to glorify and idolize death in battle to the point that self destructive impulses and passive suicidiality do not get the attention they should / he doesn't even realise it's wrong until he's living peacefully in new asgard and starts taking more care with when he risks himself, for the sake of not just wanting to leave Loki and others behind but because he isn't indifferent to what happens to himself anymore

#mcu thor #thinking abt how he risked himself in IW and not wanting to do that again #watching Loki having fallen asleep in his lap and feeling like he needs to take more care #Less I will die for you more I will live for you. so I can be with you and stay with you #and I am more than just a tool for protecting others #listened to 1121 by halsey while thinking abt him and this happened #and literally started crying #it's thor angst hours apparently #no idea how to tag warning this I'm sorry #suicide mention #?